Who is Blaine Anderson? Chapter 3: Because of You, a glee fanfic

Disclaimer! I don't own Glee. Oh by the way, the song used is Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. I don't own that either.

Blaine pulled into the Dalton Academy parking lot and parked in his assigned space fast as possible. He just wanted to go upstairs to his room and hide in shame. He was such a coward. He was constantly preaching about courage, but when it really came down to it, he had none. He couldn't even be brave enough to tell the boy he loves about his life.

"What is wrong with me?" Blaine asked aloud in his car while wiping his tears again. He exited his car slowly and made his way to the large building.

Dalton looked like a ghost town that afternoon. It was Friday so an empty building was expected. Pretty much everyone went home to visit family for the weekends. Well, everyone but Blaine. He decided to take advantage of the empty building and go to the music room. Besides Kurt, it was the only thing that could cheer him up in bad situations.

He entered the dark room and flicked on the light switch. He glanced around at all the beautiful instruments. As soon as the piano was in his line of vision, he ran to it. The piano was his favorite instrument (except for a guitar of course). He took a seat on the black bench in front of the grand instrument and began playing.

BACK TO KURT!

Once Blaine's car was out of sight, Kurt collected his things and ran to the rest room. Thankfully, no one else was in there so he was free to continue sobbing. Kurt had no idea what to do in this situation. Besides the kilt disagreement before Prom, the couple had never fought before. They always talked out everything before anything got out of hand. But for some reason, this specific issue made Blaine distant. The worst part was that whenever Kurt was upset, Blaine would be his shoulder to cry on. Who is supposed to be here now?

After 5 more minutes of Kurt's breakdown, he began to collect himself enough to drive home. He took a deep breath and walked quickly out of the coffee shop. Once he reached the parking lot, he looked around hoping that Blaine would be there. He wasn't.

Kurt took another deep breath and got into his car. He pulled onto the highway and began to drive. Before he knew what was happening, he was getting off at the Dalton Academy exit and pulling into the parking lot. He parked in a visitor space and turned the car off.

"How did I get here?" Kurt asked himself before getting out of the car and walking towards the Dalton entrance. He didn't need to think about where he was going because he already knew where Blaine was. He slowly approached the music room, but stopped outside the open door. Blaine was just sitting down to the piano, and despite everything going on between them-whatever it was-he still loved to see Blaine preform.

Blaine's hands positioned themselves on the keys and began to play. Kurt recognized the tune right away. "Of course he would play a top 40 song." Kurt thought. His thought was interrupted by Blaine's voice filling the room.

Ooh, oooooh, ooooh

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

All Blaine could picture in his head were his parent's faces. It was their fault for making him feel like this. Or maybe it was his own?

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Blaine could not express how wrong the statement was. Even if his heart wasn't whole, Kurt managed to fill every missing piece. And when they weren't together, his heart managed to shatter every time.

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Blaine couldn't count how many nights he spent in his room crying himself to sleep. Wishing he had someone to hold him.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Blaine let the tears fall as the song ended.

"Blaine?" He heard a delicate voice behind him and turned around. He already knew who it was, but needed to see his face more than anything right now. Kurt saw the tears in his boyfriend's eyes and his heart broke again. He was so broken and hurt, and he had no idea why. He stepped closer and then waited for Blaine's response. The tanner boy stood up and stepped closer to him. Without thinking, they both rushed into each other's arms and held on tight.

They have hugged a million times before, but something about this hug was different. It was similar to the one the couple shared the day Kurt transferred back to McKinley. It was full of promise, hope, sadness, but most of all love. They stayed together for what felt like hours, but then Blaine pulled out of the embrace and looked right into Kurt's eyes.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have spoken to you like that. You didn't deserve it. You don't deserve any of this." Blaine spoke lightly.

"What is it that I don't deserve, Blaine?" The taller boy asked curiously.

"You don't deserve to be with me or my problems. You're better than me and we both know it."

Kurt couldn't believe what he was hearing. He was too good for Blaine? No way. But more importantly, what problems was he talking about?

"Honey listen to me and listen well. You're the most amazing person I have ever come into contact with." Blaine shrugged in a "yea right" way and looked down. Kurt placed his hand under his chin and forced them to make eye contact again. "You're smart, talented, gorgeous, romantic, compassionate, and a ton of other adjectives. Okay? I love you and nothing can ever change that. Whatever problems you may have will not be a problem for us." Kurt said in a sweet tone. He hated fighting with Blaine, but hated the fact that he thought so little of himself more.

Blaine smiled at Kurt. "I have to do it. He deserves to know who I am." Blaine silently thought. He took a deep breath and led Kurt to the couch in the corner of the room to sit. This was going to be a long conversation.

What is going on with Blaine? You will find out next chapter! What did you guys think? Review and let me know what you think and what you want next! Thanks readers! You're the best!