She came back from a less than pleasant lunch with her father It was almost 2.00, time for Michael's appointment, she couldn't help but feel happy she would see him like if she saw him, heard his voice, everything would be okay her eyes were tired, glazed over with exhaustion, her muscles were soar from lack of rest she was dizzy with food deprevation and her mind wasn't focused on anything but this constant fear that was roaming around her spirit When she walked into the infirmary, she saw him standing there, waiting for her arrival A wave of relief washed over her, as she made her way to him She pulled up the privacy curtain and motioned for him to take his shirt off She put her cold hands on his warm back and absorbed his heat He turned his head so he could see her His velvety voice awoke her from her slumber "Hey"
Her voice was a whisper "Hi"
He got up from the exam table and moved to stand closer to her when she collapsed into his strong arms He was wondering if he should call the nurse, when she opened her eyes "Are you okay"
"yeah"
she pushed herself away from the comfort of his body "sara"
"I'm just worn out okay"
she snapped on him with a strained voice "I haven't slept for more than five minutes in three weeks!
I can't eat and I'm scared so forgive me if I'm not too steady on my feet right now"
her eyes grew moist and she fell into Michael's warm arms, willingly this time.
"I'm sorry"
He rubbed his hands up and down her lower back soothingly "I had a fight with my father and i just don't have the energy"
"You need to sleep"
"I can't"
"Nightmares"
"No, You have to fall asleep first to get those"
"You're affraid to go to sleep"
It was a statement not a question "I don't wanna be alone"
"Can't you stay with someone"
He wishes it could be him "I really don't have anyone that i'm close enough to, for that"
no one but you, she thinks "How about your dad"
"He thinks this is my own fault, and I should fix it by myself I'm alone in this, i'll just have to face it"
He frames her face in his palms, looking her in the eyes lovingly "You're not alone"
"I'm sorry michael"
"why"
"For being such a trainwreck, you don't need this"
His hands still framing her beautiful features, he rests his forhead against hers "I need you, I love you"
"Maybe you shouldn't"
"And maybe you should let me decide"
He hopped back up on the exam table.
He pulled her onto his lap, where she rested her the side of her face on his bare chest He held her tiny frame tightly "I'm so tired"
"That's to be expected don't you think"
He started drawing lazy circles on her back "You're making me fall asleep"
"You should sleep"
"Not here, and not with you holding me"
She saw his face sober up at her "not in your arms" remark "I'm not saying that's not how I wanna fall asleep but I shouldn't and I can't"
"I know I'm sorry"
"For what"
"That you can't fall asleep in my arms"
she sat up in his lap, composing herself He looked her in the eyes sweetly "You're going to get through this"
"How can you be so sure of that"
"Because you're strong, Sara Just being in your presence I can feel your strength"
She shook her head, feeling anything but strong "I'm not strong"
"Who ever it was that planted those negative thoughts in your head stop listening to them, let me be here for you, like you're always here for me"
She glanced at the clock and he followed her gaze, he was the first to speak "It's time for me to go"
"I know"
She let herself slide off of his lap and made sure her legs were steady before releasing his hand from her tight grip He tucked a strand of her soft auburn hair behind her ear "Take care of yourself okay"
"Yeah you too, stay out of trouble, don't get hurt"
"Don't worry about me, I'll see you tomorrow"
Like that he walked out of her infirmary leaving her a little less tired, a little more capable of getting through the day the night would be a whole other story