AN- This is another edited version. Had to make a few additional changes in this chapter as well, since I rewrote chapter 4 almost entirely.
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Chapter 3
EPOV
The rest of the school day dragged by very slowing, I kept thinking about how I was attracted to Bella. I also was trying to come up with a good way to talk to Carlisle. I really liked Bella and it seemed like Bella me as well. I felt the connection instantly when she briefly touched my arm on accident, or at least it seemed that way at the time. She might have done it on purpose, since she mentioned that she had heard of the theory of a soul mate and how you would know when you found them.
I decided instead of driving home with Emmett after school, I would run to this place I like to go when I need to think. I needed to get my thoughts together before I talk to my dad. I had to come up with the plan "I" wanted and hope that he would allow me most of it, whatever it would turn out to be. Ever since Emmett mentioned at lunch that Carlisle had taken Rosie's virginity before he was able to be with her, I knew I had to have my plan all sorted out.
So when the final bell rang, signally the end of the school day, I found Emmett and told him that he could take my car. I gave Emmett my keys and he asked where I was going, so I told him that I needed to think before I saw Carlisle and with that he took off towards home. I was free to be alone with myself. As I started walking towards the forest, I saw Bella standing at her truck, I didn't know what to do and I knew I needed to get away. So I just gave her a wave and gave the motion with my hand that I would call her later. She nodded and waved back and got into her truck.
I made my way into the forest nearest the school and took off into a dead vampire sprint. I ran for about an hour till I arrived at my favorite place to think. The only other person in my family that knew of this place was my pretend dad Carlisle. We all had a place that only we went too alone, that way we could have some sort of privacy. Today I needed to devise a rational plan that he would go along with and it had to be a good one. Given the limited information I was able to get from Emmett, I knew it was going to be difficult to come up with one.
I stayed for about two hours till I felt confident enough with my plan, then I ran back to our house. As I approached the river, I could see the lights on at the house. That was no different from any other night, but tonight it brought my fear back of what I was going to ask Carlisle. I truly hoped that he would allow it to happen. I jumped over the river and made my way into the house. Emmett and Jasper were playing video games on the wii and didn't even notice my arrival. The girls must have returned home from their shopping trip and I could hear them upstairs going through their newly acquired items. I hated shopping, and shopping with Alice was a nightmare. She was obsessed with shopping; when she went, it was an all-day, from sun up to sun down affair.
I made my way slowly to my father's office, where I was sure that he was at. If he was home he was usually in there reading a medical book of some sort, researching online, or doing paperwork that he didn't do at the hospital. I stopped in front of his door for a moment, and without knocking yet, he answered and told me to come in. For the first time in my existence, I was nervous. I opened the door and walked in. "How can I help you son?" he asked, like he didn't know why I was here.
"I talked to Bella today, while I was at school." I said very nervously to him.
"Edward, my son, you seem nervous, are you sure you want to talk to me about this?" he asked me with a smirk on his face. It seemed that he was trying to force me to talk. I am going to win this though. I will not let him walk all over me this time.
"Yes, I want to talk to you about Bella. I would very much be grateful, if you would allow me to get to know her more, maybe go out on a few dates." I said with all the confidence I could muster up.
He just stared at me for a few minutes, he didn't talk, he just stared at me. Then he finally spoke "Edward, you have been alone in this life for too long. I will allow you to begin talk more with Bella, but first I must explain to you some of the rules, after which we can discuss them."
"Thank you, I would like to hear what rules that you wish me to follow, and I look forward to discussing them afterwards." I wanted to make sure that I told him in a subtle way that I have my own ideas as well, but I would be listening to the ones he had first.
He looked at me while he got up and came over to the empty chair next to me. "Edward, the rules for dating a human can be complex. The first one YOU can not break is that you are not able to tell Bella what you are. You can not tell her that you are a vampire, which is something she will have figure out on her own or I will tell her when the time is right. Do you understand this rule?"
"Yes, I do understand that rule. I will not tell her what I am." I figured she would guess it before my he had to tell her though. She is a very intelligent young lady but I did agree on not telling her.
"Okay then, my next rule goes along with the first. You must act like a human when you are with Bella. You can not use your powers with her. You are to walk, run and whatever at human speed till she finds out what you are. Do you understand this rule?"
"I do understand this rule. My special power is useless on Bella though, I can not read her mind. When I tried to get a read on her when she first started to school, I never could. It's like her mind is blank/empty of thoughts."
"Mmmm, that is interesting, she must have a talent, I wonder….." he broke off but then started again after a few minutes. "…..if she is your soul mate, she would be turned of course, and I imagine she will have a special talent after her transformation." He seemed intrigued by this new information, maybe it will help my case.
"Edward, the next few rules are a little bit more of a personal nature, I know both humans and vampires have physical needs and wants. I do not want you to avoid them all, just limit a few. I feel that you and Bella will want to touch each other. I feel like you will want to hold hands, hug and kiss. Those are totally understandable and acceptable. Do you think that is fair?"
"Yes dad I do think that part is fair." I was wondering where he was headed with this, but I had a good feeling I knew where.
"There are a few areas I would like for you two to limit yourselves in. I know when two people start kissing that it can quickly turn into something more intimate." It looked like he was having just as hard of a time talking about this as I was. "I know that you are not experience in such areas, but I feel that you have a good idea what I am talking about. But to make sure we are on the same page I feel as I must describe what I am talking about." Oh shit, he is going to have the sex talk with me…oh holy shit. "When you and Bella start kissing, I know from experience that your hands will find themselves doing things to each other, you will most likely be touching each other in very sensitive areas of each other's bodies. It will feel good to you both, as it should. It will be easy for you to lose control if this gets a little out of hand and goes too far. This is the part I would like you to limit yourselves for the time being. I do not want you to give oral pleasure to her below the waist or let her give oral pleasure to you till we talk about this again. Do you understand this son?"
This is going a little better than I thought, Emmett made it seem like I would not get to even touch Bella at all. "Yes, dad, I understand what I am not allowed to do at this time, but I will be able to soon, right?"
"Edward, I would like to know for certain that she is your soul mate before I allow such closeness between Bella and yourself. When humans engage in sexual activity with their partner, it helps them bond, if for some reason, she isn't your true soul mate, I will not let you to continue seeing her. If I let you bond in that way it will make your departure that much more difficult for you both. I do not wish that sort of emotion pain on you son, or Bella. It can be quiet difficult to overcome. If it turns out that she is your soul mate, then I will allow you to orally pleasure each other in due time."
"Another thing Edward, I am going to need to talk to Bella at some point. I would like her to come over and visit with the family and myself. I would like to have her come into my office and discuss a few things with me. Do you think she would like to come over tomorrow after school?"
"I think she would be glad to come over tomorrow. What would you be discussing with her?"
"It will be a very personal discussion about her past sexual experiences, if any. If she has any experiences, I would like to know what she likes and dislikes sexually. I would like to sort out what our next steps would be. If she is your soul mate, and you choose to mate with her before she is turned, I need to be ensured that you would be able to control yourself sexually with her and not accidently kill her during the mating experience."
"What does that mean?" I was beginning to feel that he was meaning that he would be the one to take her. I had a feeling that Emmett was right and I did not want that to happen. If anyone was going to be with Bella, it was going to be me.
"Edward, what I am trying to say, that if I allow you to mate with Bella before she is changed, especially if she is still a virgin, it could be a very difficult situation for you, as a vampire. Human girls are known to bleed after they have had their first sexual experience. Some bleed more than others and if she were to bleed a lot then it would be very hard for you to control your bloodlust. I know that you have exceptional self-control but there is a risk here and I would hate for you to kill her. If she is your soul mate and she were to die, you could not live without her."
"Are you saying that you would mate with her before I am able to, just to control my bloodlust around her? Or is this a little darker than I am aware of?" I was getting pissed that he would be telling me that he would take Bella first and hoping to god that he didn't mean to share.
"Edward…I know this must be hard for you to hear, but yes I would be her first so I would be sure that she would be safe for you. As far as the darker side you are referring to, well, that really isn't what would be going on here at this time."
"WHAT…? At this time….What The Fuck does that mean?" okay now I am pissed…what is this darker side all about? I haven't heard of my brothers talking or thinking about this around me before.
"Calm down Edward, it's not what you are thinking, oh, how to explain this without it sounding bad to you…" he broke off, I was just barely able to contain myself in this chair and not pouncing on him right now and ripping him to pieces but then he started again. "…. Edward, just listen for a minute please and hear me out, in our family most of us have mates. We all enjoy being able to be with them sexually, but sometimes after many years; things can get a little boring so to speak. We run out of things to do that are different, so we have figured out a way to help keep those desires strong. We allow ourselves to be with others in this family from time to time to explore what other possibilities there might be sexually and bring them back to our mate to try out. We do have rules for this area as well but I am not getting into them right now."
Oh….my….really?, how have I missed this going on in this house? I mean, I can see their point, kind of, but really?? This goes further than I could ever thought possible. WoW…that's all I really can say at this point, I am just speechless.
"Edward, are you okay? I didn't mean to….I was just trying to explain it to you."
"Carlisle, lets….. please….. just get back to me and Bella...please."
"Okay Edward. What would you like to ask me concerning you and Bella?"
I am still trying to collect my thoughts AND my sanity, after those comments on how my family, has sex with each other …I must be crazy to want to bring such a sweet and innocent girl into this messed up, crazy house full of overly sexual vampires.
"Edward??"
"I understand that you want to protect me from my bloodlust with Bella, but I would like you to consider something about my mating with Bella."
"What would you like for me to consider, son?" he silently stands from his chair beside me and goes to stand in front of his window to look out at the ending of the sunset.
"I would very much like to share in Bella's first experience, seeing it would be mine as well. I am sure that you are aware that I am still a virgin as well. I think it would strengthen our bond and allow us to connect as a couple in ways that many vampires can not. I ask you to allow me to be the one that she is with first." I am sure hoping that he can agree with me on this, I don't want to share her.
He continues his gaze out the window for quite a while, I just sit quietly in my chair and try and be patient while he thinks. I am known to be the world's most impatient vampire and this silence is killing me.
He finally turns to look at me "Edward, I first must say to you, that it could be very hard to control your bloodlust in that situation, but given that you do have exceptional self-control, I would agree that you and Bella could be able to share in that experience together. I will allow it. I do however have a condition that you must agree to." Really, he said yes!
"Really? You will allow me to be with Bella first? What's the condition?" I said cautiously.
"The condition is that you must have your first experience here at the house, and allow me to hide in the room in the event I must stop you from your bloodlust. Can you agree to this condition son?"
"Yes! I mean it will be weird to have you watching us mate, but that is a small price to pay to be able to share that experience with Bella. Thank you."
"I know it will be weird for you to have a witness but I feel that it will benefit you. I think that knowing I am there will help you keep your control. If this supervised experience goes well, then I see no reason why I would need to be witness to any future experiences you and Bella would share, unless you wanted my presence." He said that last part with a smirk on his face.
I can't believe I have lived with this family for over 90 years and I have never witnessed the sexual relationships that exist within my family. I have never been drawn to other member of my family in a lustful way, ever. It never occurred to me that something like that was even acceptable, let alone practiced quiet often it seemed. Have I been hiding some sort of rock all this time? So I decided I must find this out.
"Dad, can you explain something to me?"
"What is it son?
"Can you explain to me, how I have lived with this family for so many decades and never noticed what has been going on here, sexually, I mean."
"I guess you have a right to know this now. There are many elements to this arrangement thus making it difficult to explain or understand given your situation. Understand that I am aware of every experience in this house regarding this arrangement. I keep a log/schedule of sorts. Firstly, if your mate wants you then you give yourself to your mate. Secondly, we never allow it more often than 2xmonth with any given person. Thirdly, we never use the rooms we share with our mates; we have some rooms in the basement that we use for these arrangements. This arrangement is meant to enhance our bonds with our mates, not create new bonds with another's mate. If there is a feeling of a bond developing, that couple is not allowed to be together again till they feel the bond is no longer there. That has happened before and all parties have been able to overcome and continue after a brief period of time apart. Usually a vacation with their mate for a month or so has done the trick. But I do keep an extra eye on those in question till I feel confident things have been resolved completely."
"We have a basement?"
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