Hello my dear readers! Thank you again for your reviews. Here is the last chapter I just finished to work on. Hope you'll like it. I honestly don't know if I like it or not. I think I do, but I don't know if they could actually have this talk for real lol. I wouldn't mind if they did though ;) Well, you'll see. I still loved translating it. They're cute in French but even more adorable in English :D
Enjoy your reading!
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The couch was a little cramped for two people and yet, Lanie and Javier had found a way to settle in a rather comfortable way. He was lying on her, as she had nestled herself on the couch and had pulled the sheet over them.
Between two rounds of lovemaking, they had eaten a royal pizza as a Christmas Eve dinner, and its empty cardboard box was now lying on the coffee table of the living room, next to two glasses, an half started bottle of red wine, some vanilla ice cream with whipped cream (Lanie's weakness and it quickly became Javier's one as well when Lanie was covered with it) and a fruit basket filled with grapes and apples.
Captivated by the television and the Christmas movie currently airing, Lanie felt her focus fade a little, when she felt warm lips touching her neck skin.
"Javi ..." she sighed slightly amused.
"Mm ..." he replied, as he lifted his lips until he gently bit her cheek.
"You're not paying attention to the movie..."
"I have better things to focus on..." Was the reply Javier gave her with a smile, his lips still against her soft skin. Smiling as well, Lanie turned her head slightly towards him.
"Before dinner we were about to start round five, right?" he grinned, now kissing her chin.
"Baby, I looooove this movie…"
"And you looooove me too" he joked "so how 'bout you tape it and watch it later? » he softly asked, before kissing her.
"and how about you let me finish it and I'd love you even more?" she replied against his lips.
Javier rolled his eyes and sighed deeply.
« Fine. You can watch it. »
She grinned successfully.
« Thank you honey. I'll definitely pay you back during round five… » she teased.
« Lookin' forward to that. » he grinned, lowering his head on her chest, using her as a pillow, and she started stroking his short hair. Javier enjoyed feeling her fingers in his hair, as he started watching the movie, but he quickly frowned.
"Why do you love this crappy story anyway?"
"The guy saving the princess is hot."
He laughed.
"Got it."
"I always loved it…since I'm a little girl, actually. And watching it now remind me of how much I loved Christmas before…It's really a special thing when you're a kid… » she explained, still stroking his hair.
Then Javier lifted his head to look at her in the eyes and smiled. Still laid on her, he got up and sat next to her on the couch, as she was still under the sheet.
"What..." she started wondering when he got up and now that he seemed so thoughtful. Javier ran a hand in his short hair.
"Nothing…I mean…what you just said reminded me of what Kevin told me today…That him and Jenny are gonna start their own family…Having kids, I mean."
Lanie's eyes widened.
"That's great news." She softly answered, smiling.
"Yeah…you should have seen him…He was so…I don't know. So excited, and I was moved to see him like that. He's so mature now…Of course we're not as close as we were before and I kinda miss that...but I'm so happy for them. »
"Look at you, Javier Esposito…" Lanie started with a smile, eying him. "Are you…almost crying?"
"No." he laughed, shaking his head.
" Didn't know you were so sensitive…" she added, slowly stroking the little hair near his ear. Javier looked down, confused.
"Baby, that's adorable."
"It's not."
"Ready to become Uncle Javi?" she teased.
Javier looked up, gazed at her and nodded.
"Yeah. And to be honest…I think I'm even ready for more than that."
Lanie stopped smiling but kept staring at him. Their talk was suddenly getting serious…it wasn't about Jenny and Kevin anymore.
She sat up a little under the sheet.
"what do you mean?"
"Kevin thinks we live in such a ugly world that he said he didn't want to bring a kid into that…And I told him that having kids was maybe the only way to protect us from the darkness of the world ,and that it was definitely a way to make it prettier."
"Beautiful answer." Lanie smiled, sparks in the eyes.
"Think so?"
"Yes."
He shyly smiled.
"Well, when I told him that, I realized that…that's what I want too."
When he finished his sentence, Javier remained silent for a few seconds, still thinking about it, and Lanie could see how serious and concerned he was. She kept looking at him without blinking for a few seconds, and bit her lips, before talking again.
"Then…maybe we should do the same."
First, Javier thought he didn't hear well. Then he frowned and looked at her, almost shocked.
"….what?"
"A baby. Maybe we should start our own family as well. You just said you're ready, right ? »
He wanted to, but he couldn't talk, and kept looking at her, endlessly.
« I… »
« Unless you don't want to have a family with me… » she teased, now touching his stomach with her toes.
"Lanie, stop it…It's serious. You…you're serious?"
« I am. » she nodded.
He couldn't answer anything. Instead, he kept looking at her silently with a semi opened mouth.
"Listen…" she started again, putting her hair behind her ear. "I know you have a tough past, Javi, and I know we didn't even talk about it, but I respect your privacy…besides I'm not really willing to share my past with you either…. » she finished, biting her lips. Simply the fact of talking about her past made her nervous.
"But I want you to know that I'm here for you, today. And that…I…never stopped loving you. »
That was the hardest part. But she had said it. Her voice was now shaking a bit, but she kept going.
"So if you need a family today, I want you to know that…I think I'm ready. Ready to offer you something I know you've always wanted…Ready to share this with you."
Her last words were a whisper. Her beautiful brown eyes were still on him when he finally found a way to talk.
"Lanie I…I didn't expect that." He stammered. « Who are you and where's the real Lanie Parish ? »
Lanie smiled and rolled her eyes, as she touched his stomach with her foot again.
"It's me, silly."
He tenderly smiled back and grabbed her hand.
« Seriously, Chica…You just offered me the best Christmas present ever, you know." He whispered. « and I'd love to have a baby with you. But I want you to want it as much as I do. »
She frowned.
"I want it too, Javi."
The Detective bit his lower lip and slowly shook his head, as he still had her fingers in his.
"Lanie, I know last year was pretty tough for both of us, and I know you still have this fear of getting serious…I can feel it."
"Jav…"
"No let me finish", he gently asked her. "Hearing you say that you want a baby with me…I just couldn't expect something like that. And I trust you if you say you want it too…But I don't want to rush it…We're just back together…We have time, right?"
Finally, she smiled and nodded.
"Plenty of time. »
« All I need for now, is you. I don't need to have kids yet to know you're my family…My new family. Because you are."
"You are mine too." She smiled, squeezing his fingers as she felt her eyes moisten a little.
Giving her her smile back, he shrugged.
"Besides, I don't want Ryan to think we stole his idea…"
Her laugh gave him chills everywhere.
"And you know what?" he added, playfully, as he slowly lowered on her again.
"what…" she smiled back, loving the sparks in his eyes.
"I'm quite a selfish guy…and I want to have you for myself only…" he whispered, setting his body on the sheets, against hers.
Powerless, she let him kiss her.
"I'm so not ready to share you with someone else" he breathed on her lips "…not even a Javier Junior…"
He was about to kiss her again but Lanie laughed and dodged the kiss.
"Oh, my, God…Never."
« Never what ? »
« This name. »
He frowned.
« What's wrong with it ? »
« Well…Let's say to be nice that your name isn't my favorite thing about you… » she replied, about to kiss him but this time, he was the one dodging the kiss abruptly.
« Ouch."
« Oh, come on… what's the big deal? »
He laughed bitterly.
« The big deal is, I just learned my girlfriend actually hates my name. »
The gorgeous ME rolled her eyes.
"I never said I hate it… Besides, what really matters is that I love you, right?" she asked, pulling him closer with a hand behind his head.
"Because I really do." She whispered, touching his nose with hers, just before her lips brushed his. Javier closed his eyes and kissed her back with all he had, intoxicated.
"Love you too." He purred between two kisses. « Also love your name…but like you, it's definitely not the thing I love the most 'bout you… » he teased against her lips.
She smiled when he released her mouth and started kissing her cheek, her neck, and her shoulder. He lowered the sheet, still his mouth on her shoulder, and started languidly kissing his way down her breasts. As he was worshipping her chest, Lanie suddenly felt his warm hand on her belly, then following his path to her private parts, and arched against him, letting out a moan.
"Javi…"
"Thought you didn't like my name." he mocked against her breasts, making her laugh.
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THE END!
Aren't they hot and adorable? ahaha. Hope you liked it! I know maybe they wouldn't talk about having kids and especially coming from Lanie...but I don't know...I wanted her to want to have a family with him because she loves him and knows it's what he wants...and even if she's still afraid of commitment I think she's not gonna be afraid forever and especially if it means being with him..So far in the shows she seems stil afraid but after all we don't know AND the secret santa morgue scene clearly showed how ready she is to see him again and not only for sex because she clearly used the words "GET TOGETHER" and it can mean so much more I know the writers wrote it on purpose :) and the look she gave him, the freakin "don't worry we're so not over and we'll spend so much other christmas together" look killed me ahah.
They HAVE to get back together and we, Esplanie fans HAVE to show that we're here! So, really, I say it again : KEEP TWEETING ANDREW MARLOWE. He needs to know the Esplanie army is here and ready. I won't give up on them and nobody should, Jon and Tam have too much chemistry and we can't let that go...Tweet tweet tweet guys! Andrew, Terri, Castle's ABC account, Jon, Tamala, the writers...Just, TWEET and show your love! Okay I stop talking now lol. Hope you liked it, THANK YOU FOR YOUR REVIEWS...and HAPPY HOLIDAYS everyone! *HUGS*