Summary: Shin has always hated it when Yankumi talks about Shinohara-san. But one day, he saw Yankumi, down and hopeless – because of Shinohara-san. And one thing Shin knew, it's his time to prove that his love for her is ever lasting.
Disclaimer: I don't own Sawada Shin and Yankumi; only this story.
I'm not going to hurt you
A Gokusen fan fiction
sushidreams
Chapter Three: You're worth the pain.
A week passed after that heart breaking moment Shinohara-san and Kumiko could still feel the aching pain of her heart. However, a certain student of her comforted him that cloudless night. She looked at the ceiling of her room and sprawled to her bed all over again, still feeling giddy about Shin. The kiss, the hug. Every thought bangs to her mind, side to side. He said he will be always be there for her and she knows he really means it. Closing her eyes again, she felt a light pat on her shoulders. It was Minoru, worried about their Ojou being late again in school.
"AAAHHH! It's pass seven in the morning!" she shouted as she run to the bathroom and left Minoru.
She made a speedy shower and clothes herself. She managed to get in the school in 25 minutes. Fast worker, isn't she? Walking in the hallway, a familiar voice greeted her good morning. It was Kawashima-sensei, wearing her usual commercial teeth. She smiled.
"It's seems like we will have a good day, ne, Yamaguchi-sensei?" Kawashima-sensei said, as she smiled gently at her. "Sawada finally apologized to you last week right?"
"Ah, yes…" Kumiko replied slowly.
"How does it feel?"
"Eh?"
"You never saw him apologize to someone else, am I right? That boy is usually quiet in classroom, even with his friends. So, there are no possibilities that he will sorry to a certain person in an easy way."
Kumiko smiled silently. "Maybe. Eh, I really need to go. I've been late so many times to I need to hurry for the lessons! See you later!"
"Good luck, Yamaguchi-sensei."
She waved her hand and ran towards the classroom of 3-D. Fixing her books in the teachers table, she noticed that her students is quiet. Eyeing them from the four corners of the room, she saw the back seat is empty. Shin is nowhere to be found in the classroom. Observing a little bit, she also notices that Uchi, Minami, Noda and Kuma were nowhere to be found in the classroom. Nodding to herself, she looked at one of her students.
"Where are they?" she said, enough for them to hear.
"Who?" her 'kids' asked in chorus as if they didn't know the answer.
"Your leader and his servants. Where are they?!"
She glared at them and didn't say anything about her question. One of her student stood up and smiled nervously at her. "Shin is sick, a serious sickness since last week. Uchi, Minami, Noda and Kuma went to his house to look for him."
She blinked in confusion. Shin is sick but how come? "Since last week?"
"Yes. He said he went somewhere Monday evening and caught a light cold that turned into a high fever."
He was with me last Monday evening! Maybe it's because of me that he caught a cold! She thought, recalling everything as the door opened.
Uchi, Minami, Noda and Kuma bowed silently to Kumiko. She knows the reason so she won't punish the four. She nodded and told them to sit down their chairs. She wonders what Shin's health right now.
Shin is definitely having a hard time swallowing the food Natsumi cooked. It's only a soup but he really can't digest the soup. Coughing lightly, Natsumi put some warm towel in his forehead. She smiled gently to her onisan.
"I didn't know that strong person like you can be prone to sickness." she teased while he waved his hand to hide his flushed visage.
"Shut up. It's all because of her." he retorted as he coughed again.
"Who? That cute math teacher of yours?"
Shin eyed his sister. "She is not cute, Natsumi. She looks like a regular teacher, trying to convince herself that everything in this world is all about being a little yakuza leader."
"But she is very nice especially when it comes to you, onisan. Maybe she likes you; she just doesn't want to say."
"Whatever."
Natsumi laughed silently as she stood up and smiled at him. "Well, I'm going home now. I'll come later but don't expect me to be early. I still need to finish my assignments, onisan."
"Yeah, sure."
She packed all her things and zipped her bag. Sighing a bit, she finally waved her hand and was surprised when she opened the door. Yamaguchi Kumiko is standing in front of her, curious about Shin's health. Shin didn't notice it since he is facing the wall. Kumiko then told her to leave silently and Natsumi nodded. She smiled to Kumiko and told her to take care of his brother. Kumiko nodded and stepped in the room. Natsumi then left and waved her hand.
Kumiko sat down and eyed Shin's health. He looks so hopeless with his bedding position but was fascinated at the same time. Shin then turned around and saw a blurry vision of Kumiko. He blinked in confusion but was satisfied to see her.
"What are you doing here?" he asked, irritated.
"You're sick because of me." she said, looking around his room. "You don't really have any plans on putting something else in your house, ne?"
"So, what's your point?"
"Well, I'm sorry if I drag you down to my sadness last week. It's because of me that you're sick right now. So, what will I do to repay your kindness, Sawada Shin?"
Shin rolled his eyes. "Shut up."
"Aww!" she giggles. "I thought you'll be there for me! Now, you're being insensitive to me. Why is that, Shin-kun?"
"Because you're such a stupid person, Yankumi. Getting all her students cornier than their corny lifestyle."
"Don't change the topic."
"I am not changing the topic."
She moved closer to him, closer than before. He gulped down, nervous of what she will do him at this critical moment of his life. She smiled gently at him. "This is the first time I notice that you're really handsome like I never noticed it before."
"You're changing the topic." he said, with a boring tone.
"You know, whenever we are this close, I feel something different in my whole system. I'm always happy whenever we are together unlike before. Or maybe, I'm just trying to forget Shinohara-san."
"You are using me to cover all the sadness in your life."
Kumiko spun around to look at him with "are-you-serious" look. "Are you stupid or what?"
"You're the one who is stupid."
I just want to tell you that I think I'm falling in love with you, she thought. "Shut up, you fool."
Shin smiled. He is much thrilled to her cuteness. "You are my sweetest downfall, Kumiko."
"Eh?"
"I think, I think too much about you these past few days. You're always stuck in my confused mind. And I hated it since I can't focus to the things I want to do. It's just crazy."
Think about me too much? She thought. "What do you mean?"
"What if I tell you that I love you, would you love me back?"
"Sawada…"
"I'm just curious, fool."
You idiot! She thought. "I'll love you back, that's for sure."
Shin's eyes widened a bit as he turned around to look at her, smiling down. There was this distinct feeling he's feeling right now. Her face, it's all emblazoned to his mind. To be loved back by the person you have always loved is the greatest thing that can ever happen in your life. Kumiko looked at him, smiling to her freedom. She moved closer to him again.
"I'll love you back, that's for sure." she repeated.
Shin sighed. "Why?"
"Because you're kind, smart and handsome enough. You're different from all the people I have met in my life. The most special one, I would say."
"Special."
"That's right."
"I'm not special."
"Shin," she paused. "I don't know why but will you love me back when I told you that I love you?" she teased.
"Of course."
An unexpected answer but she feels so much inspired. "Shin…"
"Because you're worth the pain, Kumiko." Shin said, with a determine look at his eyes. He moved closer and cupped Kumiko's face. "You're worth the pain."
He moved closer again and kissed her. Kumiko was a bit surprised but let him kiss her deeper. It was a passionate kiss. Shin then moved away slowly as he saw her face is flaming with color. So as his cheeks were. They both smiled to each other and didn't say anything. It's her first kiss and so as his first kiss.
"I meant what I asked you, Kumiko." Shin said, meaning it.
"About that if you will like me thingy?" she asked, still flushed.
"I told you, you're worth the pain."
Kumiko smiled nervously. "But I don't deserve someone like you."
"I'm willing to wait, even if it takes forever."
"Shin…"
He looked at her. "I'm willing."
He kissed her again and this time, Kumiko felt that she deserve someone like him not someone like Shinohara-san. She then hugged him tight and he hugged back. They withdrew from their second kiss and Shin smiled honestly at her.
"Why did you love me?" Kumiko asked.
"Because you brought the noise into the silence room in my mind." Shin said, honestly. "Promise me, you'll wait for me."
"Shin…"
"I love you, Kumiko."
"But I can't give you a quick response about your feelings."
"I told you I'm willing to wait."
Shin smiled peacefully at her and Kumiko then just sighed down. She was definitely touched by him but she can't give a good response to his dear feelings. Several minutes passed, Kumiko stood up and told him that she needs to go now. He nodded silently but grabbed her hand for the last time.
"I'm willing to wait." he repeated.
"Shin…" she whispered. "I-I need to go now."
"Yeah, sure."
She left silently. Maybe, if we could listen to her attentively, we could hear her cursing herself for not accepting his little offering. Oh, a sight to see tonight.
The next day, Kumiko caught a cold and chills because of Shin. She didn't mind it and just drink her medicines. By just hearing his words, it numbs the pain she have for Shinohara-san. All the pain went away last night by his kiss, by his presence – all of it.
"Because you're worth the pain, Kumiko." his words repeatedly flip over her mind. "I'm willing to wait, even if it takes forever."
And those words were the only words spoken at that night. She means so much to him. So much that it hurts inside. Kumiko wants this kind of feeling but will she wait for Shin? Will she be really in love with the person who is so much kind to her?
Will she?
Next Chapter: Ite kudasai.
A/N: An update! ;) I went through hell before I could update this story since examinations takes place. Well, I have done something quizzical about the story but I did like the ending. I just like the words Shin said to Kumiko. So honest. And the song "Flavor of Life" by Hikki is suited for the last part of the story. In the next chapter, Kumiko realizes that Shin is also important to her life and she agreed about his proposal. But, Shinohara-san told her that he is falling with her. What will happen between Kumiko and Shin? Find out on the next chapter! ;)