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She arrived at his apartment in record time, but she stood outside his door for a good twenty minutes before knocking. After she knocked he came and answered the door. He looked at her with question written all over his face and he didn't miss the worry she had in her eyes; it made him concerned, especially after today.
"Hi Ziva" he said softly as he noticed something was up with her.
"Tony I need to talk to you" she said and he started to worry what this was about.
"Ok come in" he said as he stepped to the side. She walked in and went straight to his couch; he followed her and sat down next to her, facing her. She was facing him but she was looking down at her hands as she fidgeted with them. She wasn't talking and he just sat there waiting until she spoke, but she didn't. So he reached out and placed his large hand over her fidgeting ones and she looked up at him.
"Ziva talk to me" he said softly. She looked at him for a second before speaking.
"You know how you kept asking me if I was ok today?" she said. He was worried she was going to say he was being too caring or something.
"Yeah I do" he replied and waited for her to explain.
"Well I'm not exactly ok" she said quietly and looked down again. He lifted her face with his other hand softly so she would look at him again.
"Zi what's wrong, are you sick? Do you have some disease we don't know about?" he asked getting worried. She smiled slightly, Tony was always worried about her.
"No Tony I am not sick or have a disease, I…" she could spit it out, she was still just coming to terms with the fact it was actually real herself and she hadn't verbalized it to herself yet.
"You what Ziva?" he asked and for the second time today he pushed her hair behind her ear in a caring gesture.
"I…I'm…I'm pregnant Tony" she said and she saw his eyes trying to read hers. He didn't say anything for a long time he just sat there looking at her, taking in what she had just said. He swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat thinking about what they had done seven or eight weeks prier.
"Is it…mine?" he asked hesitantly and watched her reaction for something.
"I don't know" she said honestly. He nodded.
"Have you told him?" Tony asked and Ziva knew he meant him as in Damon.
"No not yet" she replied.
"How come you told me first?" he asked.
"I do not know, I just, I wanted to tell you first" she replied. She wasn't actually sure why she chose to tell him first. Tony reached over and gathered her hand in his, she didn't pull away.
"When are you going to tell him?" Tony asked.
"I am not sure, maybe tonight" she explained.
"If he doesn't support you Ziva you know I am here for you, no matter what" Tony explained, he wanted her to know he was there for her, she nodded. Then she wanted, needed to know something.
"What will you do if it is your child Tony?" she asked. He sighed knowing she was going to ask that, but he really wasn't sure of an answer just yet.
"I don't know, I would like to be there if it is my child but if you decided to raise my child with Damon I will accept that as what we did that night was never meant to happen and I will just have to live with that because I was the one who started it that night and I will live with the consequences" he explained and it made her tear up slightly at what he just said. He was willing to put her happiness with Damon ahead of his own desires. He saw a tear escape her eye and he wiped it away with his finger.
"But if you do it wouldn't hurt if I could see my child sometimes, you know maybe be the godfather or something so I can have a connection of some sort" he said quietly, not sure if he should ask that. But she smiled lightly. She didn't say anything but he saw in her eyes that that was ok with her.
He looked into her eyes as he moved his hand slowly to her stomach.
"Can I?" he asked and she nodded, she was short for words at this moment by just how much she was realizing this was actually happening. He dropped his gaze to her stomach and she leant back onto the couch as he lifted her t-shirt so her stomach was showing. He lightly rested his hand against her stomach and moved it around slightly, knowing there was a child in there, possibly his child.
"You're going to be a great mother Zi" he said softly as he looked up at hers eyes, he saw she was quietly crying. He reached up with the hand that wasn't on her stomach and wiped her tears away. When he pulled his hand back he smiled gently at her.
"Thank you Tony" she replied. He looked back down at her stomach and leant down and gently kissed her navel.
"Tony" she quietly warned like she always did when he went a bit too far.
"Sorry" he said as he sat back up and looked at her.
"It's ok" she replied. He was still running his fingers over her stomach, absorbing the fact of what was happening when her phone started to ring. She sat up and he took his hand away from her stomach. She picked up her phone and looked at Tony when she did; Tony knew by the look she gave him that it was Damon.
"Hun you still at the office?" Damon asked wondering what was taking Ziva so long.
"I am just about to head home, I will be there shortly" Ziva replied.
"Ok just making sure you're alright, see you soon"
"Bye" she replied and flipped her phone shut as she stood up from the couch.
"Damon's wondering where I am, I should head home" Ziva said and Tony just nodded. They both walked to the door in silence and when they got to it she turned and faced Tony.
"I guess I will see you at work tomorrow?" Tony asked. Ziva nodded.
"Yes, thank you Tony" she replied and he just nodded.
"Night Ziva, take care" Tony said.
"Good night Tony" she replied and gave him a soft smile before heading out the door and going to her car.
Tony couldn't believe Ziva was pregnant, possibly with his child. He didn't know what he wanted more, it to be his child or Damon's. He just hoped that if it was his Ziva wouldn't shut him out and he was at least aloud to see his child sometimes. He knew that whatever the case he was going to support Ziva with anything she needed of him, even if it wasn't his child he would still be there for his best friend no matter what.
Ziva arrived home at her apartment and decided she would tell Damon tonight. She walked into the apartment and found him in bed waiting for her to come home. She pulled her jeans and jacket off and climb in next to him. He was facing her but as always he wasn't holding her.
"Did you get what you forgot?" he asked.
"Yes" she lied. She didn't even go to work, if Damon knew she had been at Tony's he might have been mad, Damon was always jealous at how close her and Tony's relationship was. The only thing she lied to Damon about was Tony because Damon didn't like Tony and Ziva didn't want anything to come between them.
"Good, you look tired" Damon stated, he might not see everything like Tony did but Damon did notice some things about her. She nodded.
"I know but I think we should talk before we go to sleep" she said and he looked at her worriedly.
"Ok…don't tell me your breaking up with me or something" he said, he was always worried that when she said 'we need to talk' that she was breaking up with him.
"No, it is just something I need to tell you" she said. He let out the breath he was holding.
"Ok what is it?" he asked.
"I'm pregnant" she said. It was a lot easier the second time she said it, she was glad she went to Tony first because for some reason she trusted him more when she was vulnerable. Damon froze were he lay.
"I thought you were on the pill thing that prevented pregnancy?" he stated. She noticed how he went straight to a defense.
"Yes but it is not one hundred percent protection, it is rare to get pregnant while on it but it can still happen" she explained. When she did he suddenly got out of bed and started to pace while he ran his hand through his hair. She sat up and watched.
"Are you going to keep it? Or are you going to get an abortion?" he asked and he stopped pacing and looked at her.
"I am keeping it, if you do not wish to be part of this…" she couldn't believe he was acting like he was; she thought he would back her with this. She began to tear up and he noticed and he went back to the bed and sat in front of her.
"Are we even ready for a kid, I mean we have only been together for a few months Ziva?" he said trying to be gentle about it. She didn't reply.
"Maybe we should think about this" he said and the fact he was implying to maybe get rid of it made her mad.
"I am not getting rid of my child" she said with a bit of force. He nodded; he knew he couldn't change her mind.
"Ok, I guess we can do this then" he said uncertain, but he didn't really want to leave her on her own with his child so he would try to be part of this. She could tell he was hesitant about it. He leant over and gave her a kiss to her lips, he then pushed her hair behind her ear, and Ziva felt as though when Tony did it, it was so much more loving.
"It'll be ok Hun" he said and she just nodded not really wanting to talk, she was feeling emotional because of his hesitation. He then gave her a light smile and lay back in bed and turned his back to her. She lay down too, sometimes wishing for the comfort of his arms around her, she knew it wouldn't happen though.
The next morning she woke to the same feeling of needing to be sick. She again ran to the bathroom and was sick a couple of times. She returned to the bedroom after washing her mouth. Damon was lying awake looking at her.
"Is that normal?" he asked.
"Yes I believe it is very normal" she replied and went into the closet to find something to wear to work. She felt Damon get up and come behind her. He gave her a quick uncomfortable hug from behind.
"Are you going to tell your boss?" he asked when he let go of her.
"Not yet, I am going to make a doctors appointment for tomorrow and talk to my doctor first" she explained.
"Ok then, I've got work tomorrow so I cant come, sorry" he said, she was sad that he didn't make a bigger effort to be there, maybe take the day off for her. She just sighed.
"Ok" she replied, at least he was wiling to give having a baby a go with her.
She arrived at work at the same time as always that morning and to her surprise Tony was already there but no one else.
"Early again Tony?" she asked with a smile. He smiled back.
"Yes I sure am Ziva" he replied. She sat at her desk and he noticed something wasn't quite right about her this morning. Without saying another word he walked over to her desk and sat on the edge of it looking down at her.
"You told him didn't you?" he said and she looked up at him in slight shook he had figured it out that easily.
"Yes I did" she replied.
"How did he take it?" he asked softly.
"Well he didn't take it as well as you did" she smiled softly.
"What did he say?" he asked as he lightly brushed his hand against hers on the desk.
"At first he asked about abortion but I said no, but he is willing to stay with me, I think" the last bit that she added made him confused.
"You think?" he asked.
"He is hesitant about it, but he is going to do it" she explained. He noticed talking about it made her sad, so he changed the subject slightly.
"Have you set up an appointment?" he asked. She nodded.
"Yes for tomorrow, but I am scared to go by myself" she replied.
"He's not going with you?" Tony asked shocked about it.
"He has work" she replied.
"I am sure he could have taken work off for it" he explained and she nodded at him showing him she already knew that.
"Basted" Tony said. It sort of just slipped out and he noticed the look Ziva gave him.
"Sorry Ziva" he said looking away from her.
"Tony" she said softly and he turned back to look at her.
"Can you um come with me tomorrow?" she asked him nervously. He placed his hand over hers on the desk.
"Of course I will Ziva" he replied with a smile. She smiled back, she was glad she would not be alone.
At home that night Damon had hardly talked to her, he was obviously thinking about things, and she had a good idea on what those things were about. For some reason she wanted to go see Tony but she knew she couldn't do that. In bed that night Damon turned to her and had apologized for his actions last night, he said he was sorry for being a jerk, she had accepted his apology because it showed he was trying. But she could tell for some reason that ever since she told Damon she was pregnant he would shy away from her and be awkward around her, like there was something wrong with her and he didn't want to be by her.
Again she had morning sickness but this morning Damon had got up and gave her a class of water as she exited the bathroom, at least he was trying. He had gone off to work and told her to call him when she had been to the doctors and update him. She agreed and he kissed her goodbye.
Now Ziva was heading to the door after someone had knocked, she had a feeling she knew who it was. She opened the door to see a smiling Tony; it made her smile right away.
"You ready to go Ziva?" he asked.
"Yes I think so" she replied.
"Ok let's go"
Once they arrived at the doctor's office they sat in the waiting room for Ziva's turn. Ziva noticed the different stages of pregnant woman. There was one who was about the same as herself, two that were half way through pregnancy and one that was heavily pregnant and had a toddler with her. Tony was the only male in the room and she could tell he was a bit nervous about that. She reached over and gathered his hand in hers.
"It is ok Tony" she whispered to him and he knew she knew that being only male was making him nervous. He turned and looked at her.
"I know it's just they are looking at me like we are, well you know, but I'm not even your boyfriend and it sort of makes me nervous for some reason" he said with a light smile towards her. She smiled back understanding what he meant.
"You would make a good boyfriend if you were" she suddenly said. Did I just say that? Did she just say that? They both thought. They just smiled awkwardly at each other and were glad that the nurse called Ziva's name out just then.
How did you guys like Tony's reaction? And Damon's? the next chapter will be Tony and Ziva at the doctors office for her check up, and she tells one more person about her pregnancy :) I wonder who she might tell next…
Your guys' reviews make me so happy that I am glad I started this story :)
Hundan