hello, guys
have you seen the new episode of glee yet? i haven't so i'm gonna finish this quick to watch
first, i need to apologize for lateness and shortness of this chapter. i promise you it will get bigger but for update timing i can't promise you anything 'cuz the second semester will begin next week and i'll be busy with college work.
enjoy the new chapter and see you soon :)
Me:-
"Here is your hot chocolate, can you tell me now what happened between you and Darren." Adam said pleading while
I was cuddling up on the sofa in his house in Australia, but I sipped my hot chocolate and didn't speak, "You have been silent since you came here and when I called Darren, he didn't talk about it either which means that it didn't go well." Adam said and I sighed thinking about all that happened.
"Fine, stop bagging." I said annoyed, "sometime, you're really clingy and to be honest with you, it's not a good thing for a man to be like that."
"Are you done insulating me? Because you still didn't answer my question." Adam said amused.
"Seriously, if you were my boyfriend, I'd have broken up with you."
"And fortunately you aren't, you are my annoyed foster sister who doesn't want to answer this stupid question." he said tackling me.
"I surrender." I raised my hands in the air.
"I'm listening." Adam stop tackling.
"Well, when he got out of the studio, it was good. I even met Kevin McHale and Chord Overstreet." I smiled but then it faded and I started telling Adam all that happened.
"You were the one who left!" Adam said astonished.
"He looked so broken and I couldn't stand seeing him like this, that's why I left." I said sadly.
"Of course he looked broken; I can't believe that you said it that way. This guy must be really loves you to sit there and hearing you say all that and then you left him. That's mean." Adam said angry surprising me.
"I'm not mean, I was being honest. I didn't want to give him false hope; I did enough on this matter." I exclaimed, "and why you so angry about it? It's like you wanted me to tell him that I love him or something." I said huffing.
"I'm not angry about what you said; it's your choice to decide what your feelings toward him. But I'm angry about the way you said it; that poor guy was waiting to hear your answer for months and he respected you and give your time to figure out yourself, he didn't push or force you to tell him anything and when you finally talk to him, you tell him that your feelings was forced." Adam said in rage.
"That was the truth." I stated.
"And I didn't say otherwise, but you could have told him that ugly truth in good way, to make him understand that you still care about him, that your friendship was at least true, not faked." Adam said then he shuffled to face me, "when you become this person? When did become the person that doesn't care about other people feelings? I know what's going on your mind and it's not a good way to move on, you're not going to be fine when you hurt other people. They don't deserve to suffer like you did. No one deserve it even you." He said softly and I started to cry.
"I'm scared." I whispered putting your head on his chest; he creased my hair letting me sob until I calmed down to continue, "I'm scared of myself, my ideas and my feelings. I feel overwhelmed from being that lonely girl that no one loved to be that girl who has someone to love her but unfortunately she screw it all over and hurt him when she told him the truth. This all is a grown up stuff and I don't think I'm ready to be one. this what I felt when daddy gone that I have to be grown up because I'm no longer daddy's girl, that even with my brothers and you around me and got my back I'm still feeling that my back is bare and that if I fall, I won't someone to catch me. I felt that I'm missing something, that I'm not like the rest, that I needed to cover up that failing and I guess I covered it up with cruelty."
"Although that I don't think that losing a father make less human, but this won't solve the problem. Being cruel will make you lonelier and people will hate you."
"I don't need people and their love, what their love did to me when my heart was aching, if they really know me they will see through my disguise and know that it's not the real me."
"Then why don't you be the real you? What is stopping you?"
"People doesn't understand, they take caring and honesty as weakness points, they take kindness for granted, they don't appreciate the good in you."
"You know that Darren won't do that to you but you did that to him; he was honest with his feelings and he cared about you, he was kind when you were mean to him. You have to talk to him about what you said and show him that you still care about him and tell him that you appreciate having him in your life." Adam said softly.
"I don't think that he will talk to me after what happened, you didn't see his face when I told him everything."
"He will listen to you, but say the right thing this time." He said then he looked at me with a funny look, "wait, I have an idea." He stood up and ran to the music room, then get back with his acoustic guitar in hand.
"This maybe what Darren feels right now, so it will give you an idea when you talk to him."
Say, Say, Say What You Want,
But Don't Play Games With My Affection.
Take, Take, Take What You Need,
But Don't Leave Me With No Direction.
All Alone, I Sit Home By The Phone,
Waiting For You, Baby.
Through The Years,
How Can You Stand To Hear,
My Pleading For You Dear?
You Know I'm Crying Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh.
Go, Go, Go Where You Want,
But Don't Leave Me Here Forever.
You, You, You Stay Away,
So Long Girl, I See You Never.
What Can I Do
Girl To Get Through To You?
Cause I Love You Baby.
Standing Here, Baptized in All My Tears,
Baby through the Years,
You Know I'm Crying Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh.
You Never Worry,
And You Never Shed A Tear.
You Saying That My Love Isn't Real,
Just Look at My Face,
These Tears Ain't Drying
You, You, You Can Never Say,
that I'm Not the One Who Really Loves You.
I Pray, Pray, Pray Every Day
That You'll See Things, Girl like I Do.
What Can I Do Girl, To Get Through To You? Because I Love, You Baby.
Standing Here Baptized in All My Tears, Baby through the Years,
You Know I'm Crying, Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I clapped, wiping some tears I shaded while he sang beautifully.
"You always know what to say, say, say." I joked hugging him, "do you plan on singing in your proposal? Cause I'm sure that will grant you a yes." I smiled, my brother is going to propose to his girlfriend, they were dating since collage and he didn't have the courage to tell me about her. But now that he's willing to marry her, he told me everything.
"We're not klaine, you know that." He chuckled.
"Fine" you said faking annoyed.
Darren:-
"Here is your beer bro, it will make you feel better." my brother Chuck said, we were in our family house Top of Form
Bottom of Form
In San Francisco, we will spend pre holidays here then we will head to Christmas.
"Thanks bro, but I don't think that the beer will do the deal, I guess I need a more powerful drink." I sighed.
"Why Darren? What did this girl do to you? You refused to tell me what happened with her after you guys went to restaurant."
"Let's say that what happened isn't something that I don't want to go through again." I tried to feel angry of what she did and said to me but I couldn't.
"I want to help you with this, I can't stand seeing you down like this, even mom and dad had noticed. Did she tell you that she didn't feel the same way about you?"
"I wish that it was all." I sighed feeling the weight of the world is on my shoulders, "she told me that everything she felt for me was forced." I looked down.
"Forced?" he said confused.
"Yes." I began to tell him what happened, how I felt when she told me her situation and why she didn't contact me all this time.
"Forget about her, she doesn't deserve you, she is a player and she made it clear that she doesn't like you back." Chuck said.
"I don't believe her, I know that she liked me back but she is just afraid to admit it." Chuck raised an eyebrow shaking his head.
"And what made you sure about that?" Chuck asked.
"Her words weren't convincing; she told me that she liked me back, but then she said that we didn't know each other well which she admitted as her fault. So I believe that she doesn't want to be with me, not because she doesn't like me but because she's scared of this new feeling that she has never experienced before." I explained my thoughts.
"Even though you still need to let her go, because she will leave to her country after all."
"No, she won't. When Adam called me, he told me that she came here for work. "
"What work? Didn't you told me that she is a tour guide?" he asked confused.
"She quitted that job when her dad passed away. Apparently, her dad last deal was a big share in music Production Company and they will also be the authorized agent in the Middle East and North Africa."
"Wow, she must came from a wealthy family." Chuck said surprised.
"They are like the royal family there." I exclaimed.
"And she left all that and worked that simple job she had when you met her." he said amused.
"I told you she is something else. She wanted to be herself, to be known for her good work not for her family."
"Then why does she work with them now?"
"Because it was her dad's last business, and she felt that her brothers need her to manage this part of their massive company."
"You know that you don't have to worry about getting record contract anymore, is that why you are desperate to have her?" he said teasingly.
"Of course not, I have my recorder company. Moreover, I am not going to use her." I said annoyed, I cannot believe that he thought of it that way.
"I know bro, I was just teasing. But still I don't think she suit you." Chuck said seriously.
"Why?" I asked irritated.
"Maybe her words didn't convince you but it convinced me. You two are completely different from each other and you don't know each other that well." he exclaimed.
"Well, I guess that I have to prove you and her wrong, because we are more alike than what you and her think. She loves me even if she doesn't realized it yet, she'll get to know me and feel comfortable with our relationship that she won't be afraid to tell me her true feelings."
"Will you force her to love you?"
"What kind of men you think I am? I'll just open her eyes to make her see things as I see it. I'll give her what she needs to feel safe and secure so that she will realize on her own that I am the one for her." I explained my point of view.
"Whatever Darren." Chuck said playing with his guitar, then he started to sing.
Tears on the phone around midnight
You assume I'll be alone
She hurt you once, hurt you twice
You keep asking for my advice
How many times you have to hear the truth?
She ain't the girl for you
She makes you cry and still you stay
Why can't you just walk away
Everytime you hurt it hurts me too
She ain't the girl for you
She ain't the girl for you
She makes you cry and still you stay
Why can't you just walk away
Everytime you hurt it hurts me too
She ain't the girl for you
I'm the one who understands
It's me who holds your hand
She makes you cry and still you stay
Why can't you just walk away
Everytime you hurt it hurts me too
She ain't the girl for you