Chapter Three
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Don't own Glee.
Kurt sighed, a month later nothing had really changed; at least things were back to normal anyway. Finn would go over to Puck's and play video games and hang out, and Puck would come over there and do the same thing. Their interactions didn't change, anytime Puck was close he saw Finn's body language change, then when Puck would get up to get a drink or just shift away from him Finn looked so heartbroken. He still put on a normal face for his mom, and Burt, but Kurt saw his face when no one else was looking. He didn't know what to do; he was glad that Finn was out of bed, eating, seemingly back to normal. But he couldn't help but think this was hurting Finn more than Puck being out of his life. It was like Puck confessed his feelings then buried them again, and Finn would rather have him a little than nothing at all. They continued this the whole summer, football camp started the second week of August, one day Finn came home angry, just outright angry. He walked up to his room and Kurt heard things breaking, Finn screaming incoherent words, he dropped what was in his hands and ran out of his door. Kurt didn't realize how long he'd let these feelings bottle up, or how angry he was when Kurt opened the door Finn's normal slightly messy room was a disaster, and Finn's face was red, and Kurt looked at what he was kicking in the floor, his Xbox. Kurt went to grab Finn's arm, when not knowing what was going on around him he'd startled Finn, he swung around and Kurt went flying into the wall landing on Finn's bed.
Burt flew to Kurt's side, Carole ran to the crumpled boy shattered in pieces on the floor. Kurt sat up rubbing his head his dad asking him if he was okay, Kurt nodded, "he's not though".
Finn hearing Kurt's voice stood up and ran and took the smaller boy in his arms, sobbing how sorry he was that he hurt him.
"Finn I'm okay, I shouldn't have tried to touch you, you weren't mentally here okay, it's alright, now tell me what happened".
Burt and Carole looked at each other, Carole sat down beside Finn, "honey we're going to go get you a new Xbox, you want some Chinese for dinner?"
Finn nodded against Kurt, the adults nodded at Kurt and left the room quietly shutting the door behind them.
Kurt pulled Finn back from him, "now start talking".
Finn took a long breath, pulling away from Kurt, looking at the mess of his room, "don't worry Finn, I'll help you clean it up okay?"
He nodded, "he's dating someone, he's been out there fucking people any time he seems to want to be with me".
Kurt's head turned sharply, "what?"
"Everything he told me was a crock, he's with Santana, much like Karofsky was, using her, he has someone on the side...that isn't me".
Kurt was beyond confused, and pissed, what the hell is wrong with him, Kurt thought.
"I was trying to talk to him about it today, and he told me I needed to grow a pair and act more like a man and less like a fag".
Finn was starting to cry again, Kurt was sure if he went after Puck, Puck would beat his ass, but right now even if he got only one good punch in he'd feel better right now.
"Then later he was all like nice to me and telling me he got some new stupid fucking game that he wanted us to play. I just looked at him like he was crazy; I mean I'm like I've been his friend all this time. We confessed how we felt, or at least I thought we did; now he's acting like he didn't or something. I'm just tired of acting like this is okay, him keeping me at arm's length, then when we're alone he just looks at me...you know the way I want him to."
Kurt just hugged him, "tell him Finn, tell him this isn't okay".
"But I'll lose him totally, the little part I have of him is better than nothing".
Kurt gave him a look, "really Finn, he's treating you like something he has on the side that doesn't have feelings. He's toying with you, and if I didn't hate him when he was throwing me in dumpsters I certainly do now".
Finn looked up at him, "because of me?"
"Yes because of you, you're my brother, one of my best friends; I don't like to see you hurt Finn".
He smiled, "thanks Kurt".
"School starts next week, what are you going to do?"
Finn sighed, "I don't know, I'm not good with all this crap, it feels like he has my heart in his hands and he's just playing with it. To be honest I'm so tired of it".
This time Kurt smiled, "tell him that, is the little part you get of him worth all this hurt?"
He shook his head, "you're right, it'll hurt, but I can't do this anymore".
"Come on, we'll go pick up some ice cream for after dinner, you pick".
Finn hugged Kurt, "I don't deserve how nice you are about this, to me, with everything we've been through".
"Yes you do".
That's all he said, that's all that was needed to be said as they got in Kurt's car and drove to the store.
Blaine came over the next day, and all three boys spent the following two days helping Finn put his room back together. They all were slightly excited for school, Kurt discovering a week before that Blaine's parents had let him transfer to Mckinley, so they were excited for glee and the added member of Blaine and their greater chance at Nationals because of it. The night before school started Kurt knocked on Finn's door, he didn't answer so Kurt opened it slowly, not wanting to startle him or see something he didn't want to see. But Finn was sitting on his bed, earphones in and humming along with a song he was listening to. He looked up at Kurt and smiled, "I have a plan now".
Kurt laughed, "and what would that be dear brother?"
"Glee club, I found the perfect song and this is the only way I can make him listen to me without leaving. If he leaves that'll make it look suspicious to everyone that I'm singing about him. That seems to be what he's afraid of, he's dating this guy from another school, so no one at HIS school will know or think he's gay, which is why he's dating Santana. He tells me how he can't live without me, or he loves me..then ignores me or insults me if he starts I guess feeling too much."
Kurt nodded, "you going to tell me what song?"
Finn smiled, "nope, I do want you to tell me after wards if it sounded good, it's not my normal thing. I've already talked to Rachel, she knows about Puck now, so at least I won't have to deal with her this year".
Kurt laughed, "well I'll be looking forward to it, night Finn".
"Night Kurt".
If Finn thought Puck was avoiding him before, he knew by Glee he was. He didn't see him all day except in passing, they even had classes together, and Puck made a point to sit near Santana, or some other stupid girl he's slept with. Finn fought with tears all day, and was sure by the time he walked in the choir room he'd not be able to hold it together through his song. He spotted Rachel, who gave him a smile, it was full of encouragement she knew his plan of his song, helped him practice. Mr. Shu knew he'd prepared something, and before they held auditions he wanted someone to perform to show what they were looking for so he said Finn was more than welcome to do that. So as they made their way to the auditorium, Kurt caught up with Finn, "hey you want me to sing back up, so you're not up there alone?"
Finn smiled, "if you know the song you can".
He leaned over and whispered it in his ear, Kurt smiled, "yeah I do, very well".
"Thanks then, I need all the support I can get".
Kurt and Finn walked onto the stage, the seats half full of the glee club and the people getting ready to audition, including Blaine, who was giving Finn a thumbs up. He blew a kiss to Kurt, and it made Finn's heart ache, he wanted that, what they had. He scanned the faces and found Puck sucking face with Santana, and any urge to cry left him, all he felt was hopelessness, and anger. He took a deep breath and stood in front of the microphone, "this song is for someone and they know who they are and if they don't their dumber than I thought".
Puck shot straight up in his chair staring at Finn, he pushed Santana away from him, part of him looked scared, like Finn was going to blab his little secret everywhere. Thankfully he didn't, as he heard the music starting.
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something some where's got to give
As sharing this relationship
Gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone
Who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
And I don't care if that's not fair
Puck could feel the tears fighting to fall, as he felt Santana reach out to grab his hand, knowing how he really felt for Finn.
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing at all
There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe its right
I know it, know it
Don't make me promises
Baby you never knew how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell
Puck's head was in his hands, trying to hide his emotions from everyone, Santana trying to hide Puck from everyone.
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing...
Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you have no more room
No room inside
For me in your life
Puck glanced up to meet Finn's gaze; Finn could see the tears in his eyes, the shame and regret.
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never
Now Finn was fighting his own tears, glancing back at Kurt who just smiled at him.
Is it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing at all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing at all...
After the song died away there was a roar of applause but Finn didn't see it, all he saw was Puck getting up and walking out of the auditorium, Santana chasing after him, Rachel quickly following. Finn turned and looked at Kurt, Kurt could see the hurt and pain on Finn's face as he watched as Finn walked off stage, he followed him. He saw him run out the back towards his car and drive off. Kurt didn't know what to do, he walked back in the auditorium, Blaine saw him whisper something to Mr. Shu, who nodded and turned around and motioned for Blaine to come up there.
"You can audition in Glee tomorrow, Kurt needs you right now".
He nodded and they took off, Blaine after Puck and Kurt after Finn.