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Every part of me wished that this was just a dream and that when I woke up everything would be the way it should; I would just wake up from this nightmare, and my mother would be in my bedroom checking if I was all right, then rock me back to sleep in her arms, Charlie of course would still be alive- after breakfast me and my mom would go down to forks to visit him.
I slowed my pace down as I walked closer to the church everything looked as I remembered it. Even though it was raining I could still imagine me and my mother coming out from Sunday mass like we always would- together and happy.
The rain started to fall harder but it didn't bother me now, I was determined to find the truth. I staggered through the bushes and trees to the back of the church. Then at the corner of my eye I saw written on a tombstone…my grandfathers name
Charlie Swan
beloved father and grandfather
I fell to the ground immediately.
"Charlie..." I whispered through streaming tears.
I didn't know what to think, all my emotions were alienated. My body just felt numb-like a part of me died with Charlie. I wanted to scream but no sound came from my mouth. my lips were sealed with the pain and realization that now washed over me. There were so many things I didn't get to confess, so many unanswered questions, some I had never even asked. Now the mystery of my mothers death was buried six feet under the ground, along with my grandfather who I never got to say goodbye to, who never really understood what he meant to me, who I never got to apologize to for all the reckless and stupid things I had done during our time together!
"Goodbye Charlie…" I mumbled.
I stood there in the cold, as the rain soaked me. I didn't care. I couldn't care anymore for there wasn't anyone to care for.
I didn't know what to think-everything felt like a fairy tale gone wrong-no happy ending. The worst part was now-I knew I wasn't asleep, I was definitely awake. This was no dream gone terribly wrong, my life had gone all WRONG! But why? Sure Charlie had gotten old and all, but I never thought it would be this sudden. Who was I going to go to now? Jacob? No, things were bad enough between us.
I looked up from the ground into the far distance. There stood a man…He looked at me but didn't appear to notice that I was staring. I quickly dropped my gaze, I didn't want to seem rude or anything. But when my eyes looked back up he was gone.
I started walking. A small part of me would have just laid in the dirt but then someone might see me and now I was sure of one thing:
I would pull my self together and leave this damn town and leave all the horrible memories that I held within it!-I would never be seen as Brooke Swan ever again.