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So this chapter is Bella's dream about Edward and Jacob...then some steamy steamy from Jacob!!!

I know Jacob haters are going to hate his chapter but hey! It will get a lot better and soon.

Unfortunately these characters belong to Stephenie Meyer! But... but Edward I...LOVE YOU!!!! *tear*

Chapter 2

The Dream

After the party, I tucked the boys in. Making sure that they really were asleep, I gently shut the door and leaned against it, I rubbed soothing circles into my aching temple. I walked into the bedroom and found Jake already asleep.

I sighed

I pulled back my side of the covers, and stared at the ceiling. I remembered the nights I spent with Him. I still could not say his name, afraid that it would trigger the hole to appear in my chest again. I choked back a sob as I remembered his perfect features. His eyes especially. My God how I missed him.

But wasn't I happy? Isn't this what I wanted? A life with Jacob I remembered that was what I decided I wanted. I was being selfish, I realized. Everything I could have wished for, I got with Jake. So what was missing? It was him, nothing else only he could make me feel this way when everything was going right.

damn him to hell.

I eventually cried myself to sleep. That night, my dreams were consumed by Edward. His smile, his voice, everything. In one of my dreams he stood in front of me as he had stood those many years ago, forever seventeen. He smiled my favorite crooked smile. I felt ashamed of leaving him, and utterly happy that I was with him again. He seemed to read my mind as he wrapped his arms around me and breathed in the scent of my hair. His coldness shocked me, I shivered. I whispered his name as I breathed in the scent of his skin. I wanted to apologize, to tell him that I never wanted to leave him again.

"Edward, I..." For once his name did not bring me pain, only pleasure.

"Bella," I gasped as he said my name. "i told you that I would not stop you if you wanted to be with him."

"Yeah I know, but..." I ducked my head into his chest.

"I love you, Bella." He whispered, as he lifted my chin so that our eyes met. "I will never leave you again, unless you send me away." His eyes intensified he leaned forward and touched his cold lips to mine. I really could not stop myself, I overreacted, again. My arms wound around his neck, and I pressed myself to mold to his body. He did not pull away as I thought he would, instead he intensified the kiss, until we were both gasping for breath. He laughed gently, then softly kissed me again.

"Bella?" fear gripped my inner core. I turned and looked at Jacob. His eyes held betrayal, anger, and most hurtful sadness. Edward released me immediately, I ran over to Jacob. He shook so hard that his whole body vibrated. I quickly realized the danger of the situation. I placed my hand on his shoulder. He flinched away from me.

"How could you do this to me, to our family?" his voice held accusations. Suddenly Edward was beside me again, his arm around my waist.

"What family?" He asked me questioningly. Then his eyes widened as he read Jacobs thoughts. He took a step away from me. Suddenly I was frightened would he run away, that he wouldn't want me anymore. I stepped forward and reached out to him. Suddenly Jacob was in front of me, fury radiating from his body.

"you want to leave everything that we have together...for this...this...bloodsucker! How can you do this to me, Bella I love you."
He gently grabbed my hands, holding my hands in his. The heat from his hand burnt my cooled skin.

"I can't help how I feel." I whispered quietly, a tear running down my face.

"Well your gonna have to figure it out."

He stepped out of the way so that I was in between him and Edward, he wanted me to choose. I looked at Edward pleadingly, his expression hard and unreadable. I looked at Jacob, and he knew, his eyes full of pain. Memories flashed in front of my eyes, memories of Edward, and Jacob, our children. My life was ending right now, between the two loves of my life. I felt dizzy and I couldn't breath. My heart was being ripped out of my chest, and there was nothing i could do to stop it. I woke up screaming in Jacobs arms. He pressed my face to his chest trying to comfort me, his hands smoothed my hair.
"Shush, Bella baby its gonna be okay. Baby shush." he cooed gently.
I continued to cry until i couldn't cry any more. When I had finally calmed down enough he pulled away and looked at me sadly.

"You said his name."

I stiffened.

I played it stupid, "whose name?"

"At first it was my name," He frowned, "but then you said 'Edward' and I knew you were dreaming about him."

Pain ripped through my chest as he said his name. It became difficult for me to breath. I took a shuttered breath "It was a nightmare not a dream,"

"Its okay Bells really, I love you. And in the end it doesn't matter because I'm the one you chose." He kissed my forehead.

I angled my head back. I wanted him to kiss me. I mean really kiss me. I wanted to forget the beautiful cold lips and the man who owned them. I wanted to feel the heat of his lips on mine and the promise of forever. He lowered his lips until they were a breath away from mine. My body tingled with the idea of him kissing me. He smiled as he pressed his lips to mine.

Kissing Jacob was nothing like kissing Him. With Jacob it was like slow moving heat, powerful and unstoppable, like molten lava. It rolled over me, consumed me. With Him it didn't make sense, unstoppable fire engulfed me. Burning hot and fast, never able to control it.

At first the kiss was sweet and gentle. Our lips danced in perfect harmony. But I wanted more, I bit his bottom lip lightly, he growled.
This time he kissed me fiercely, demanding, and I gave everything I had. Our tongues entwined, each giving and taking. Slow scorching heat, consumed me. I tasted every part of him, greedily taking. My arms were wrapped around his neck, my hands entwined in his hair, tugging slightly. He pulled away gasping for breath. I struggled to breath evenly. He kissed along my jaw line, and back again. Then his mouth met mine with a force unknown to me. His hands which were rubbing my back were now searching for bare skin. He hovered over me, so that every curve of him was pressed against me. My hands fumbled with his shirt. Skin met skin, I rose over the wave of sweet ecstasy. He whispered my name as he kissed my hair.

I buried my face into his chest. A silent tear fell down my cheek.

Later on that morning Jacob got out of bed reluctantly to take a shower. I followed him into the bathroom, washing my face gently with my washcloth, rubbing over my eyes, and mouth. I rinsed out my wash cloth and splashed cool water on my face. I felt warm arms wrap around my waist.

"Love you Bells." he whispered in my ear.

"Love you too." I said smiling.

He walked out of the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror with both hands clutching either side of the sink. Tears rolled freely down my cheeks.

"I love you Edward." The hole where my heart had been ripped open, sucking the breath right out of me. I could not stop the sobs from coming, to silence it I shoved the washcloth into my mouth. I managed to stop crying and took a shower, gently working the conditioner into my tangled hair. When I walked out to the kitchen, pancakes were on the table and the boys were digging in.

"What is this?" I asked amused, " Daddy knows how to cook?!!" I laughed.

He frowned as he placed another pancake on my plate. "ha ha ha yeah laugh it up Bells."

The boys giggled at us. I sat down and poured syrup on my pancakes then I scoped it up with my fork.

After breakfast, Jacob kissed me and hurried off to work. I got the boys dressed and ready for preschool.

"Hurry up Caleb!" I yelled as I opened the door.

"Your going to be late for school!" he walked slowly towards the front door, with a smile on his face.

Errrr kids!

I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the car where Charlie was waiting patiently. He was such a good boy.

I dropped the boys off at school and headed for home.

So whatya think, my very first steamy part but not the last to be sure!
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