A/N: Yay! Finally Internet! I'm on vacation and Internet is not something to take for granted :S Which is also why I haven't be posting lately
Anyway,I got a request for this song, and actually wrote it right away, because since I already knew the song, the idea just popped into my head as soon as I saw the request.
It's the song Highway Don't Care by Tim McGraw feat. Taylor Swift and Keith Urban. I actually like this sing(well, a little. And maybe because Taylor Swift is in it) and also based this fic on the music video.
I hope you like it, there'll be more coming when I get home in a couple of days :)
I do NOT own the lyrics or the characters!
Highway Don't Care (by Tim McGraw feat. Taylor Swift & Keith Urban)
Bet your window's rolled down and your hair's pulled back
And I bet you got no idea you're going way too fast
You're trying not to think about what went wrong
Trying not to stop 'til you get where you goin'
You're trying to stay awake so I bet you turn on the radio
And the song goes
Magnus sat at the edge of his bed. Where was he? How was he doing? What was he doing? And who was he doing it with?
But how was he supposed to answer all those questions, when he had trouble knowing the answers for himself? Where was he exactly? How was he actually doing? What had he been doing? And who was he doing all that stuff with?
A place he'd been before, not that good, nothing, no one. He was only aware of one fact.
Alexander.
Alexander wasn't with him. That's why he wasn't doing good at all, that was why he hadn't been doing anything, and that was why he had not been doing anything with someone else.
Magnus dried his eye with the back of his hand. It's been a long time since he'd last been crying, so why start now? There was no reason for that, it was himself who had walked away. But it was also himself who sometimes regretted it.
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby, baby
Slow and steady the window rolled down. Alec sat in the drivers seat. He had no idea where he was going, he just drove. The wind blew his hair into his eyes. With an angry gesture he tore it away.
Everything just went wrong at the moment. Well, it was fine that Sebastian finally was dead and all that, but nothing else was right. Except that Jace was happy with Clary, and Izzy had finally begun to date Simon for real. So everybody was happy. Just not Alec.
And it wasn't their fault everything went wrong, it was his own. It was his own damn fault.
The highway won't hold you tonight
The highway don't know you're alive
The highway don't care if you're all alone
But I do, I do.
The highway won't dry your tears
The highway don't need you here
The highway don't care if you're coming home
But I do, I do.
With a sigh Magnus got up. No matter what, it wouldn't help to sit as a statue on his bed.
In the living room someone was waiting for him and signalized it by meowing.
"Okay then," Magnus said and scooped Chairman Meow into his arms. Right now the Chairman seemed like the only constant thing in his life. Except for annoying clients and depressing thoughts.
With another sigh Magnus dumped onto his divan. He'd used a spell to change the furniture and decoration in the room every week, just to get some excitement in his life. Right now it was his old flat he'd had in Paris. A gently rubbing of a head against his hand bought him back.
"What do you think Chairman?" Magnus asked and lifted the cat up over his head in straight arms. "Do you think it's to late? Or should I just forget it?" The Chairman meowed.
"I thought so," Magnus said. "You miss him too, don't you? He was the only one where you could be sure he would pet you."
I bet you got a dead cell phone in your shotgun seat
Yeah, I bet you're bending God's ear talking 'bout me.
You're trying not to let the first tear fall out
Trying not to think about turning around
You're trying not to get lost in the sound but that song is always on
So you sing along
The speedometer still moved higher up the scale. Alec reminisced the way the way Magnus lips would curl up in a smile. It had been weeks since he'd seen that last, and he knew time would erase the memory if it didn't soon happen again.
His shoulder ached. They'd been hunting a greater demon yesterday, and his shoulder was still stiff. It was nice to do something, set your mind on autopilot, so Alec had used every chance to go hunting for demons.
And Magnus probably had his own demons, an they probably all looked like him.
So would Magnus ever forgive him?
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby
I can't live without I can't live without you baby, oh baby
"Kiss me." That was what Alec had said and what Magnus had done. Sometimes he wondered why he'd done it. Wouldn't it had been easier to walk away if he hadn't? But, the other part argued, it was nice to have a kiss as a last memory.
Magnus just wished it hadn't been such a sad kiss to be the last. He didn't even think much of the reason why he'd walked away, the fact that Alec had thought of taking away his immortality, controlling his life. But Alec hadn't done it. So what had he actually been angry for?
The highway won't hold you tonight
The highway don't know you're alive
The highway don't care if you're all alone
But I do, I do.
The highway won't dry your tears
The highway don't need you here
The highway don't care if you're coming home
But I do, I do.
What was he going to do? Was there anything he even could do, to make Magnus forgive him?
He reached out and rolled the window up again. The sun had begun to go down and with it the heat.
The sunset was beautiful. But not quite as beautiful as if Magnus had been sitting beside him.
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby
I can't live without I can't live without you, baby, oh baby
The highway don't care
The highway don't care
The highway don't care
But I do, I do.
Magnus woke up when his phone began to ring. What the hell? Who was calling him at 2 am?!
Alexander.
It didn't say Alexander on the screen. Magnus had once deleted his number in anger and to prove for himself he was moving on. It hadn't worked, because the number on the screen was without doubt Alec's. he'd try to call so many times where Magnus hadn't picked up, just let it go to voicemail.
"Alec?" he said questioning into the speaker.
"Ma-Magnus?" Alec sounded scared and surprised at the same time. "I-" a wheely noise flinched the line as it broke.
Magnus stared at the phone. Had Alec hung up? And what was that noise? Magnus didn't know, even though one thing was sure. There was something wrong.
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby
I can't live without I can't live without you, baby, oh baby
(The highway don't care
The highway don't care
The highway don't care
But I do, I do)
[x3]
A hand collected into a fist hit the steering wheel as tears started to blur his vision. The lights of the car lit up the way, and Alec didn't think of driving, just dod , he reached for his phone in the shotgun seat. In the second try he succeeded to dial the right number. For a long time the phone just rang. Rang and rang and rang. He questioned if it'd been a good idea to call at all. Alec was just about to hang up, when someone said his name.
"Alec?" Magnus said. There was something over his voice Alec couldn't define, but it sure felt nice hearing him say his name.
Because he had not picked up before. All those times Alec had called before, he had not picked up. But he'd picked up now. He'd picked up!
"Ma-Magnus?" he said as the first tear silently fell down his cheek.
I can't live without you, I can't live without you, baby
"Magnus!" It had only been an hour between Alec had called till his sister did. "Magnus, you need to come. I-... We-... She started crying again, the sobbing sound reaching Magnus' ear through the phone. He'd never heard beautiful and strong Isabelle like this.
"Isabelle, calm down! If you gotta wake me up at 3 am, it better be for a good reason." She stopped sobbing and just breathed heavily. "Now, try again, one thing at a time."
"Okay," she said. Still crying. "I- it's Alec. He-." She began to cry out loud again. He could sense through the phone someone was holding her. Magnus was alarmed now. Alec? Like in Alexander Gideon Lightwood, the Shadowhunter?
"What Isabelle? What did he do?" he demanded.
"He... Drove of the road," she almost whispered. "They said there was no - no pain."
The phone landed on the floor with a bump.