"I used to think about only getting strong and faster. I didn't care about anything but strong but now it's different and I finally understand."

Chapter 3: regret

Arisato-san…

I don't know what happened or how we got into that hotel room together but at the same time I didn't care. Just being there alone with her was enough for me. Being alone with her? How did we get to the hotel? Why did we come here?

How come I can't remember?

Desires…

"What?"

"She is your Desires…"

"y-yes…"

That was right. I like Arisato-san a lot so I was fine with this. I don't care how we got here together as long as I am here with her. Yes that is what I thought. But I couldn't think clearly then.

But once she pushed me off her it all became clear. "Ouch what the hell was that?!" She blinked at me looking hurt and before I knew it I looked down to only see a towel around me, "WHOA! I…what the?" I stared toward Arisato-san her face was bright red. Oh no…what did I just…? As I thought that I knew what I did I kissed her? Oh god…no. No no no! why the hell? What is wrong with me?!

No…maybe I'm wrong I didn't really do that right? Right?

"A-Arisato-san?! What was I?" I started to ask her but I saw her staring down at the bed she couldn't even look me in the eyes. Oh crap I did? No…No I didn't! "What did I just…do?" She didn't answer me. She didn't even open her mouth.

I couldn't take this. I really did this to Arisato-san? "Wh-What the hell?! What's going on here?" I asked her, "I-It's an enemy's trap!" she quickly told me, "What? I mean yes of course! Uh…I'll go get dressed!" I quickly ran into the bathroom. How will I ever live this down?

"Sanada-senpai, can you hear me?" Fuuka voice asked, "Y-Yeah loud and clear!" I couldn't control the volume of my voice. "Um…did something happen?" Fuuka voice asked but both of us didn't answer her. I came out of the bathroom looking toward her, "A-All right, let's go!" She only nodded to me not looking toward me. This is horrible.

"U-Um, and about what happened earlier…I don't know what really happened but I wasn't in my right mind but I'm sorry. It was still me doing t-that…I'm sorry Arisato-san. But could we keep it a secret? Please…?" She sighed before speaking up, "We should hurry to the others." Was all she said back to me.

"I'm sorry…I never expected there to be another shadow. I'm pretty sure it's in that one room you were in before…But, it somehow sealed the door, so I don't think you'll be able to get in. I'll try to find out if there's a way to break the seal…Please join the others. They're on the floor above you." Fuuka voice told us we're both silent as we headed up to the next floor where we found Junpei and Yukari. "There you are! I didn't know there was another shadow…anyway, you guys okay?" Junpei asked us, "eh, okay…" Arisato-san whispered looking to the side away from all of us. "…H-Huh? Of course we're okay!" I couldn't control the volume of my voice again.

"I got it! It's the mirrors! They're giving off the same energy as the shadow! Maybe the seal will vanish if you break the mirrors…" Fuuka voice spoke up.

Thank god…you are a life saver Fuuka. What timing she had.

"I remember this one mirror we saw on the 3rd floor was different from the others…When I stood in front of it, I felt kinda strange…" Yukari said. She was right I remember a big mirror in that room we fought that shadow. We found a mirror on the second and third floor that didn't have a reflection we broken both of them. We hurried back to the same room on the third floor again, "The shadow is waiting behind this door! Are you ready?" Fuuka asked us; we all nodded and when inside the room.

"How dare you pull shit like that with us…I hope you're ready to die!" I yelled at the shadow, "We can defeat it this time! Hang in there, everyone!" Fuuka voice cried as the shadow came toward us. Arisato-san did a critical hit to it and we all group attacked it and it when down.

Later outside the hotel, "I'm glad you're all safe." Fuuka greeted us outside, "Thanks for your help. The enemy was sly, but you did well." Mitsuru-san told Fuuka, "I did what I could. And you too, Arisato-san, for withstanding the enemy's metal assault." She nodded to Mitsuru-san still not willing to look at me. She must be mad right? "Alright let's call it a night." I guess it best to leave her alone night I'll apology again tomorrow morning before school. I left with Mitsuru-san.

I got up early the next morning perhaps I could talk her into walking to school with me as well. No I shouldn't get my hopes up. Apology to her and go from there. I headed down to the second floor and knocked on her door, "Arisato-san?" I called as I knocked on her door. I got no answer from the other side of the door. Perhaps she wasn't up? I tried again. "Arisato-san? It's Sanada are you up?" I asked knocking again. No answer again.

Well this isn't a good sign.

"Sanada-senpai?" a voice down the hall asked. I saw Takeba heading toward me, "Can I help you with something? I don't see you on the second floor that much." Perhaps she has seen her? "Have you seen Arisato-san this morning? I was looking for her." I asked her, "Minako-chan? Oh she left for school about 20 minutes ago I believe." You got to be kidding. She got up early as well? Was she just trying to avoid me?

"I-I see…"

"If you need something from her we are in the same homeroom. I can always ask her for…" I quickly cut her off, "N-No it's alright I'll just try to talk to her at lunchtime. Thanks anyways Takeba-san…" I felt defeated. I'll have to try again at lunchtime I hope she isn't just trying to avoid me right now.

I headed to school alone well plans didn't work out as I had planned in the morning I hope I can fix this by lunchtime.

Before homeroom…

"Did you hear?"

"Hear what?"

"I hear that new second year is dating that Lori in the same homeroom!"

"no way really? Damn she is cute too."

What…? Was all I could think about when I entered the homeroom. Arisato-san dating Lori Junpei? Is that why she left earlier today? No…this could just be rumors right?

"It's Sanada-san!" a group of girls quickly surrounded me. "It is true Sanada-san? That new girl lives in the same dorm as you?" I blinked at all the eyes staring toward, "I-I don't really…" I started to say, "you mean it isn't true?" one quickly asked, "well I guess it could be…" I started to say again. "So it is true?" I couldn't really get a word out. Were the rumors right? Or wrong? I want to say they are wrong but I couldn't say for sure.

The bell rang. Save again thank goodness…

But my mind wasn't thinking about any of this. I couldn't think about anything but the rumors. Could that be why she was avoided me this morning? Or did she just have something to do before school? I wasn't even sure what reason was right. Or could it be she was just embarrassed by what happened.