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I hadn't realized Sasuke-kun and I wouldn't be joining the academy for a while. Naruto had to start going, since he was an orphan and it was pretty much free baby sitting, and yeah Konoha was an amazing place and I was so grateful to be born here, but they treated their orphans like dirt. Since Sasuke-kun and I were no longer able to hang out with Naruto-kun as much, we both started to learn chakra control from Father. We were only four, but since we were clan children it only figured that we would start young. I had actually started before that, and it was apparent that I was ahead of my twin when Father started us out with fundamentals.

He wanted us to meditate, which I easily did, but Sasuke-kun seemed agitated every time he tried to sit still at first. After a few weeks he got it, and I was glad, because I had gotten to the point where I could feel the chakra in the air around me as soon as I shut my eyes to meditate. If I kept my eyes open, I could see it swirl around slightly, but not a lot.
After that we worked with forming chakra to our hands and basically just getting it out of our cores. I wasn't as good at that, but that's because I had been afraid to work on something that could cause me to pass out without our parents knowing we were working on it.

During all of this, Sasuke-kun and I didn't see Itachi-nii a whole lot. But when we did well, he brought a friend. And we both immediately latched ourselves onto him. I knew who he was, and I knew what would happen, but I couldn't help but get attached to him.

"Itachi-nii! Who is this? Is he a ninja like you?! Can we play with him?" My own excitement was visible, and Sasuke-kun was bouncing around with me. The joy of being young again.

Itachi smiled at us both and patted our heads. "Sadly not now. We both are off on a mission, but when we get back, I promise we will both help you train." And fwish, they were gone.

I pouted and Okaa-san promptly distracted me by asking me to help her make supper. I couldn't help but be excited my mundane things like cooking, because in my old life, I didn't get this. To be happy. Not really safe like I was before, but I was happy. As we worked on food, Father came home from whatever it is head of clans do. I was watching the rice (because heavens no, don't actually trust a four year old to cook), and he actually seemed to smile for a second, but then it was gone.

Time can fly fast when you are young. And since for me it was a real childhood, I was startled when Sasuke-kun and I had yet another birthday. We had both gotten closer, as you would expect twins to do, and we kept trying to be stronger everyday. Sasuke-kun easily outlasted me stamina wise, as he was a boy and had boundless energy, but I had much better chakra control than he did. I could actually very easily recognize people by their chakra, and if I closed my eyes I could kind of sense where people were and how far away, but not very far. That was probably just because I knew how different chakra was, since I had been used to it not being there. I wasn't sure when Sasuke-kun had learned jutsu, before, but we hadn't learned anything that advanced yet.

Naruto-kun came over pretty close to every single day, and at first it continued to bother Father, but he eventually seemed to be neutral about it all. The times I was in town with Naruto-kun, I noticed people still seemed wary of him, but they didn't seem to be mean to him anymore. Mother made sure he had food for lunch and dinner, and clean clothing. A lot of it was Sasuke-kuns, and I knew that made Naruto-kun mad, but he seemed more happy than anything else about not standing out.

Since he came over so often, he actually got help with the work that I knew he wouldn't have understood otherwise. Sure he wouldn't have the best grades, but he would at least be able to say he did his best and that there were people there for him. He also trained with Sasuke-kun and I, and while we seemed a bit faster and a bit stronger, he wasn't too far behind.

That seemed to be how time went for a while. Itachi-nii-san was on a lot of missions, but he and Shisui-nii-san would come back and help us out every once in awhile, and the first time Naruto-kun was over when they both returned, it couldn't have gone any better than it did.

"Naruto-kun! Don't focus your chakra like that, you're wasting it." I scowled at him. He needed to get control down and not use as much as I knew he had in the future. Control can amount to power, and he needs to be strong. I watched Naruto-kun frown deeply with his eyes squeezed shut, as his hands were clapped together in front of him. I was trying to convince him that meditating was helpful, and not just napping sitting up.

Sasuke-kun had gone inside to get a snack, and I heard him yell out with joy, and at that moment I opened my chakra to figure out what was happening. Naruto-kun looked alarmed and scared, because he rarely heard Sasuke-kun yell, and I realized then that Naruto-kun didn't know we had an older brother.

There was a grin across my face right away, and I grabbed Naruto-kun's hand and helped him sit up.

"Come on Naruto-kun! There's someone you should meet. He's not home often when we are, he goes on a lot of missions, but he helps make us stronger and better and you'll love him!"

By this point Naruto-kun looked very, very alarmed but he stood up and let me drag him behind me anyway. We both ran through the back door and saw Sasuke-kun hugging Itachi-nii-san. Naruto-kun froze, he didn't like new people very much. He still couldn't tell if they would be nice to him, just ignore him, or be cruel.

Itachi-nii-san looked at us both, and I wasn't shocked to see him smile. He helped Sasuke-kun and I defend Naruto-kun to Father many times, and he knew we were friends with him. His eyes closed, and I knew he was genuinely happy to see Naruto-kun here.

"Hello Naruto-kun. My siblings have told me a lot about you. I'm glad to finally meet you. If you would like I can train you with them after supper.

Naruto-kun's face had gone from slight fear to down right joy. He didn't have a family, but since we had met him it seems like he knows what having one felt like. I felt a pang in my heart, because I had once been like him. I had been unable to have a childhood in my old life, mostly because of my circumstances. Being able to give another child a chance, to know what family could be, made me happier than even existing in this world.

I had plans of course, I had wondered before I was born in this new world what I could try to do to help. Right now the only thing I could plan on though was existing. And as time went on, I knew that would become harder to do. I didn't want to fall in love, I didn't even know if I could really change anything. Just being here was good enough for me.I figured I could try to stay on par with my new twin when it came to taijutsu, possibly ninjutsu when we actually started to learn it. I knew too well that trying to learn the jutsus before my own chakra stores were large enough. I could read books about jutsu, especially since the clan books in our house explained some theory and gave me the hand signs, which I could at least memorize until I could perform jutsu.

It was frustrating though, because getting stronger really wasn't as easy as it seemed from the show. I knew I was young, and it would take time, but I knew there were prodigies out in the world who were younger than myself but could defeat jounin in the village. Realizing all of this, it's what pushed me forward after Sasuke-kun and I turned six. I found myself getting restless a lot more, and it seemed like the only thing I could do to stop being restless was train. Sasuke-kun trained just as hard with me, but he never seemed to want to know why. It was like he trusted that I wanted to get stronger to prove myself, and he was right by my side.

Itachi-nii-san saw both of us trying even harder, and he and Shisui-kun both tried to help us when we could. I knew we would be entering the Academy soon, and I didn't want to be passed up and separated from my brother. I didn't need to be stronger than him, just strong enough that he couldn't be on any other team than one with myself.

Father saw us both striving hard, and he seemed to have already noticed that I was reading a lot of the jutsu books that were my level. I don't recall from before when Sasuke-kun learned the great fireball jutsu, but it seemed like Father had decided that we should start on it. I remembered from before that Sasuke-kun had a hard time completing the jutsu, and getting it strong enough for his father to be happy with him. Maybe me being here, getting him to be better with chakra would help him do better.

Father made sure we could both do the handsigns and that we could channel chakra to our hands. It was actually a rather important day. Sasuke-kun and I were taken to a lake near our clans training grounds and Father told us we would have to practice here, because anywhere else would be too dangerous. Sasuke-kun went first, and as he performed the handsigns, I focused my chakra sense to see how much chakra he was using. When he blew outward, I felt my stomach clench in anticipation. A grin flew across my face as I saw a decent size, to me at least, size fireball. I saw Father smirk in the corner of my eye, and I myself was proud for my brother. From what I could tell of Sasuke-kun, he spent at least half of his chakra. We both had similar reserves, and I honestly wanted to see if I could get a larger fireball. Mostly because I knew how Father viewed me being a girl. It still stung that when I was young he didn't like the fact that I existed the way that I did.

I walked forward and closed my eyes to focus. The chakra in my center was getting excited, I wanted to prove that I was just as good as my brother. I let as much chakra as I felt Sasuke-kun use, then I added a little more chakra and started to perform the handsigns. It's hard to describe how it feels to use a jutsu. It was like a flop in my stomach, butterflies, and as I opened my eyes and blew out, I saw the fire, I felt it make my face sunburned, but I couldn't tell how big it was. I knew that I had used a decent chunk of my chakra, and that I should feel tired, but instead I felt elated. I could actually do jutsu. I had been terrified that I would try to do it, and find that I didn't have it in me.

I could feel my heartbeat in my ears, and there was still a lot of chakra around me. I felt overwhelmed by its presence suddenly. Sure it was everywhere, but this chakra had heat to it, and that when I realized I was feeling my elemental chakra that I just used.
When Sasuke-kun and I got back home, I suddenly felt tired. I knew I had used a lot of chakra, but until now it hadn't really registered. I needed to start working on other things, because having one jutsu and doing it once didn't mean I mastered it, but I could do it. That was better than what some of the Academy kids would be at when we finally started.

Shisui-nii-san had become like an older brother to Sasuke-kun and I. He came over to eat dinner with us, and made sure that yeah, we were Uchiha, but we could have fun. That's why I felt myself getting scared when it was getting close to time for Sasuke-kun and I to join the Academy. I knew what was going to end up happening, and I knew there was nothing I could do to fix it. I wanted to talk to Itachi-nii-san about it, but it would be hard to explain. Telling him what was going to happen would probably just make it all worse.
I didn't know what I was going to end up doing, because I didn't want Sasuke-kun to get hurt like I knew he would, but I could effect nothing in the situation. I didn't realize how bad my fear was getting, until it was too late.

Hello everyone! I am still alive, and yeah I realize how long it has been since I posted on this website. Although I do have good news, I have them next ten or so chapters already written, just well, on a different website.

I'm going to correct some grammar I noticed in them and post them here though, so the story will continue! I do like where it took this story, but I might change a few things here and there so it makes more sense.

Like, you can go read the other version, but it shouldn't take me more than a week to get it all on here I think.

I also want to say thank you to those of you who reviewed, because I honestly look back and all I've written and I can't believe I did it. Its on AO3, same title and same username, but I'm probably going to move it to FF simply because I don't have to use html to format it. Blah.

Anyway, if you do much as exist in this world, you better have an awesome day and be happy, because people who want you the suffer will suffer themselves! :p

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