Chapter three

If I had to do things I would later regret tonight at least I would sleep easier then I had in years...

Tig and I rode to the Sons club house. I thought it was a good omen that it was on the back lot of a garage . Cars were always a passion a mine. They were one thing I know I had control over They never betrayed your trust or pretended to be something they weren't You can call me jaded if you must but I don't think I am that bad considering the cards I have been dealt.

Tig's bike came to a stop in front of a large gate a little south of the auto shop. I looked up as Tig dismounted the bike and saw him pulling the gate apart. I assume that his "brothers" would have helped with the gate had it not been so close to five in the morning at the moment. The House was made out of graycement and had an American flag outside it. The October breeze making the flag move like a tweeker itching for a fix..

Tig finished with the gate and reappeared swinging his legs over his bike. "So who is Teller-Marrow and why is the house on the back lot anyway?" I asked knowing I would most likely not get an answer. I also knew that I was opening myself to trouble later on but I sometimes can't stand silence it gives me room to think and I hate thinking. My mind is my own worst enemy.

"That's need to know sweetheart and you currently don't need to know." Tig turned his head to face me as he smiled with a flash of his white teeth and a wink of his eye. I mean wasn't I expecting this kind of reaction. Still I found myself trying to play coy and use my inner sexy to extract the information I was after. I bated my long brown eyelashes at him and give him my best sexy smile.

"Come on Lace. You honestly think that shit is going to work on a man like me baby girl? I am a biker I can have any woman I want. Pussy falls from the sky in the club house." I could feel the frustration building a bit. Why wasn't he doing what I expected of him? It had me on my toes once more. I like to think I can read peoples intentions but with him I couldn't predict his moves and it had me scared shit less.

"Well if that's the truth then how come you were after me so bad at the club all night Tiggy boy?"

"Well for one you're hot as fuck and for two your like half my age it makes my dick hard even at the illusion of fucking you sweetheart. Not that I want to actually try and fuck you." He added quickly as he kick started his hog again.

"Oh why don't you want to fuck me Tig?" I said a little bit hurt. There was no way I would ever fuck this dude in a million years but I still wanted to know why he wouldn't fuck me. I mean almost every man pays top dollar for just seeing me shake my tits in his face and walking around in g string fucking a pole. It was insult to me as a woman.

"It's simple you look a lot like my daughter Dawn. I also know that you have been through some heavy shit baby girl. I can tell by way you carry yourself. Now will you please let me take you inside the house? So that you can sleep you look like you haven't slept in years"

Little did he know how true that statement was every time I closed my eyes I would either see Roy on top of me or watch my brother pull the trigger. I will never forgive myself for putting my only protector in jail If I thought things at the house were shitty with Roy around I was sadly mistaken.

My mom blamed me for everything. She even started to get physical with me. I stayed with her because I loved her and wanted her to love me too. I took all the abuse Roy dished out because he was a great husband and worker. He provided for all of us. Gave phe and I job skills. Not that it mattered much Phoenix was locked up and I certainly wasn't using my skill set shaking my ass for dollar bills. It's just hard for people to take a woman mechanic seriously. I mean I think I know my way around the inside of a car just as much as any man. Since I am hot guys tend to think with their dicks instead of their actual heads and see me for ass instead of a good worker.

I heard Tig turn off the bike and looked and saw the same reaper logo that Tig wore on his cutt. "That's a nice patch you guys wear." I said as I dismounted the Harley He gave me a what the fuck look and then smiled

"How the hell do you know all this shit?"

"Simple I am from right around here and I watch Gangland" I saw him throw his head back with a hearty laugh as I spoke.

"You can't believe all that shit you see on television baby girl. Next thing you know you are going to be quoting from that dumb show Prince's of freedom or some shit" I rolled my eyes at him

"That show is stupid as shit. I only watch it because the main guy is hot as a mother fucker"

"If you like George on the show you are going to love Jax he looks like George's Twin"

I am ashamed to say thong got a bit wet at Tig's words. I mean almost every woman in America wanted to bang that guy and I might have a chance at his doppelganger. Not that I would even try. He has his choice of pussy galore. I know about hang arounds and shit . I laughed as I thought over Tig's last statement. "For someone that "Doesn't " watch the show you sure know a lot about the show and the main character." I said making air quotes around the word doesn't.

"Fuck you pretty girl. Fuck you right in that tight pretty ass of yours." He said wiggling his brows at me.

"Tig you are so fucking disgusting man I have never let anyone knock at the back door and I never will."

"Laci I was fucking with you lighten up why don't ya ? We have been over this you look to much like my Dawn for me to fuck you. Eat that sweet pussy of yours but not fuck you." He said with another trademark wink.

I honestly didn't know what to feel grossed out or turned on. The fact that I was even contemplating the later had me wanting to throw up my guts. I shock my head to clear it my hair bouncing on my shoulders as I did so.

I looked to my left and spotted a man that looked like a real life Goliath. I was a little scared as he towered over my small frame. As we approached him I noticed something odd; His eye shape and color were the same as mine. It unnerved me even my own brothers eyes were nothing like his. I started to feel myself pulling out of my own body.

I knew a flashback was coming and there was nothing I could do to stop it. The sounds around me got very echoed like I was inside a tunnel. I could feel Roy's breath on my neck his hands on my breasts. I felt the bile rise in the back of my throat as my body continued to be racked by the sensations of the memory. Before I knew what hit me I throw up all over the tall guys shoes and my body began to shake as tears fell down my face. I knew I shouldn't be unraveling in front of total strangers but I couldn't stop myself. I felt the presence of someone behind me. They didn't touch me they just spoke to me in a calm voice. "It's okay sweetheart. It's not really happening now. You're safe . No one's going to hurt you. Open your eyes. You have to open your eyes sweetheart."

"God God no daddy No daddy please don't hurt me daddy. Daddy please." I had no idea I was saying any of this out loud I was caught between present and past and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Couldn't pull myself out of it. I couldn't wish it away.. "Daddy please Phe is going to be home soon." No daddy no." I threw up again this time the world faded to black...

A/N I am sorry I haven't updated in a long ass time. I got distracted with rematching SOA to be better able to write this fic. Real life got complicated and I lost my muse but it is back bitches I promise to update at least twice a month. Can you guys please review this... thanks