Letters to the Dead

By: Fiona55

Criminal Minds

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or any characters on the show.

Rated: T

Summary: J.J.'s letters to her sister over the years. First letter takes place on her first day with the BAU. OC J.J./Will and some Hotch/Haley and a smattering of Garcia/Kevin.

A/N

I'm putting more space between letters because I know that they need to be longer. This one is about the episodes and time between 1X02 and 2X02

Please read the A/N at the end of this chapter, too, because there's something else I need to say.

Chapter Three

Dear Annie,

SPENCER AND I WENT ON A DATE! He took me to see the Washington Redskins! I mean, how did he know that I love them? We had fun, but sadly, I don't think anything is going to really happen between us.

I haven't written in awhile, so I'm gonna catch you up. I moved into a new apartment, and I think I like it. There's a guy down the hall that's cute but creepy, so I let it slip that I work for the FBI. Think that'll scare him?

I'm carrying a gun now. Never thought I would ever carry a gun, much less work for the FBI. It's a Glock 26. I haven't actually had to shoot anyone yet though. It is fun to scare Ray (the cute but creepy guy) with it though!

Mom said she's going to donate your dress. I could hear the tears in her voice when she told me, but I know that she needs to make the decision. I wonder how you'd feel about it.

David Alexander called me the other day. He always does on the anniversary of your death. He asked how I was doing and I told him about the job with the FBI. He said he was proud of me. He's working as a crisis counselor now. I think you had a lot to do with that.

He has a son and daughter now. He married someone from my grade, Crystal Summers. Their son's name is Connor and he's five. Their daughter's name is Courtney and she's three. He said he's happy now. He said he still misses you.

I still wear the necklace, you know. I would have done anything for you to still be here. I'm sorry, but it's not like you had cancer or something that you couldn't help. You did this. You killed yourself. You didn't want to be here.

Why didn't you want to be here?

Love,

JJ

A/N

I'm seriously thinking about doing four more chapters and being done. I'm not getting the reviews I'd hoped for, so…I don't know. I may, actually, not continue even the next four. If you want to see more chapters, let me know, otherwise, I'm done with this story. I'm writing another that is Prentiss centric called Saving Grace that I think may do better. Who knows? Review if you want.

Ciao!