Alright dudes and dudettes, here's chapter 3! Hope there are still some people that were looking forward to this :|
DISCLAIMER: WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!
Raven: just say the stupid declaimer, Storm! wait, why am i here again? i did the disclaimer for you oneshot Me and You!
Me: becuz we couldnt get Amy Lee to do it, so youll have to do!
Raven: cant u say it?
Me: NEVER
Raven: FINE! Storm, once again, does not own the Teen Titans
Me: (whispers evilly) yeeeettt.....
Raven: o_O
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Chapter Three: Shedding Some Light
Storm walked blindly into the main room. Everyone else had already woken up, even Beast Boy. No one paid much notice to her when she came in, for which she was grateful. Feeling numb, she sat down and stared at the table. She unconsciously lifted her hand and traced her scar. Why couldn't she ever just have dreams? They were always nightmares, memories, visions. No, she could never just have a dream.
The nightmare had been perfect. The worst memory of her life, thrown back at her, all those old feelings resurfacing. Forcing her to re-live what she hated most about herself, burning into her mind the event that led to where she was today...where it all began...
Yes, the nightmare had been perfect. Perfectly cruel.
She was temporally pulled out of her dark thoughts when someone placed a cup of tea down on the table in front of her. Storm looked up to see Raven turning away from. The young girl noticed the strange look in the empath's eyes before she could turn away, however. Understanding? Pity? Whatever it was, Storm felt to dead inside to care what she saw.
She grabbed the cup of tea Raven had given her. It was boiling hot, but she lifted it anyway. A normal person would have blown on it and taken a small sip, but Storm downed nearly the whole cup in one gulp.
Slowly at first, then rapidly faster, a terrible, agonizing burning sensation coursed through her chest. She winced and clutched herself to try and subside the unbearable feeling. ((A/N: this actually happens if you drink or eat something really hot to fast. It's happened to me. Trust me, it's really painful o.O)) When it finally began to ebb, Storm let her hand fall limply back to her side, her breath coming slightly faster than usual.
It hadn't been an accident. She meant to make herself burn inside. Now, as it cooled, she no longer felt as numb as before. That was what she had planned on. The feeling of fire in her chest was better than just feeling dead.
But it still hurts, a voice informed her.
No shit Sherlock, Storm thought back bitterly, drinking what was left of tea in her glass.
I know the nightmare scarred you, but pain doesn't solve anything, the voice said back, trying a different angle.
Anger and agony are better than misery, Storm replied mentally, smiling slightly as she quoted one of her favorite songs.
Storm, I'm serious
So am I
Storm heard the voice sigh.
Look, this is hurting me, too.
I know, Storm thought sadly, but what can I do? I can't help the nightmares, there's nothing I can do. Storm lowered herself down in her seat, feeling defeated at her own words.
You can tell them.
Storm froze. Icy chills rushing down her spine and her blood went cold. It was a good thing her tea glass wasn't being held too high, because it slipped through her re-numbed fingers and hit the table without breaking. When her mind finally started working again, she managed to think back a reply.
W-why would I tell them? Storm mentally stammered, They...they wouldn't be interested in some stupid nightmare I had.
You know I'm not talking about the nightmare, the voice thought back, slightly irritated.
No..I...I can't
Why not? You should have already, and it will make you feel better
How the hell will it make me feel BETTER? Storm snapped inside, anger melting the numbness away.
It's nagging in your mind, it's messing with your feelings, you need to get it off your chest
No. I can't...I won't
You have to
No
Please, you know that you should have alre-
SHUT UP!
Apparently Storm had thought that last demand a bit too loud, because Beast Boy turned and lifted his eyebrow slightly.
"Um, no one was really talking," he told her, smiling slightly when she looked at him with a confused expression.
"Oh...yeah...um..I'll be in my..room," Storm said, getting up and exiting, leaving the Titans looking after her with bewildered expressions.
She closed the door the her room and pressed her back against it, letting herself slide to the ground.
"Well, isn't this familiar," she said softly, remember doing almost the exact same thing just yesterday.
"Now will you please talk to me about this?" she asked, sitting down next to Storm.
"Nothin to talk about," Storm muttered without looking at her, putting her head in her hands.
"Yes there is! Storm, you NEED to tell them!"
"I CAN'T!" Storm said, panicking anger rising in her.
"Storm, please," she said desperately, "You should have told them as soon as you came here. Why didn't you?"
"Because," Storm said softly, "They wouldn't have believed me...they would have kicked me out...they would be mad or something....I-I can't tell them."
"Ok, why on Earth would they do any of those things?" she said. When Storm didn't reply, she went on. "C'mon Storm! They wouldn't, and you know it!"
Storm only shook her head and turned away from her. She didn't move when she felt a chilled hand on her shoulder.
"Storm," she said, "You have to tell them. Mom and dad told you to. You have to trust them and let them know!"
"I know," Storm whispered, "I know...I know...I know what mom and dad said....but...I-I can't."
"Storm!" she said more forcefully. "Mom and dad told you to tell them as soon as you got here. They know what they're talking about. You need to listen to them!"
Storm closed her eyes tighter, trying to ignoring the roaring of blood in her ears.
"Everything is going to be ok," she went on, trying to get Storm to respond. "But only if you do what mom and dad told you to do!"
"No.." Storm said, her word muffled by her hands as they were covering her face.
"What if things get messed up because you didn't tell them?!" she said, starting to get angry at Storm for not listening, "You might mess everything up if you don't just suck it up and tell them damn it!"
"NO!" Storm yelled, eyes flashing dangerously as she turned and glared at her. The other girl flinched back at Storm's outburst.
"I CAN'T TELL THEM! JUST GET OFF MY BACK!" Storm roared, standing up out of anger. "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST UNDERSTAND THAT I- AAAUGH!" her words cut off as a terrible burning pain exploded inside her.
"Aaaa, aaa...AAAA!" she growled in agony as the pain seared across her being. Steel sharp claws were tearing through her, an aweful ripping feeling coming from deep inside.
"H-help me...!" she begged the other girl, her words fading from a plea to a low snarl as she fell to the ground, clutching her head in attempt to ease the pain. She doubled over, feeling herself losing it.
Claws
Fangs
Anger
....blood
As suddenly as it came, the pain was easing up. The flames of rage cooling and dying out. Her mind came back to her, limbs unlocking from the tension. She slowly uncurled herself and lay limp on the ground, breath coming out hard. Her mind felt worn, and emptiness replaced her previous rage.
"T-thanks," she panted, shakily pushing herself up off the ground and leaning back against the wall. Her companion's eyes were wide with concern and guilt.
"I am so sorry!" she gasped, "I shouldn't have pushed you that much, I'm so so so so so sorry!"
"Dude, it's cool," Storm said, still slightly out of breath. "Just thanks for taking control. That's always...scary."
"Well," she said, shuffling uncomfortably, "I don't suppose telling them is still in the question?" Storm smiled slightly.
"Actually, you're right. Don't feel bad about saying what you did, you only said it because well...I am angry with myself about not telling them....and I am worried that I might mess it all up by not telling them....but I'll tell them soon...I promise. It's just," Storm let out a long breath. "At home...with the war....it's just been so stressful...and when I'm here...it's nice just ya know...acting...normal."
"I know," she said, putting a hand on her shoulder. "But...well, like you said, tell them soon." And with that, she vanished.
"I know, I promise," Storm murmured, shakily standing up and making her way over to her bed. She lifted her pillow and looked at the picture of her family again.
"I'll tell them, and I will see you all again, I promise," she said softly, putting back the picture and exiting her room.
She came back into the main room smiling, newly shed light bringing her out of her dark pit of depression.
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I know this chapter is shorter, WAY shorter, but I'm starting to make them shorter so I can have more chapters and get them done faster. The next chapter will have BB and Rae's date in it :)
I know this chapter only has Storm, but that's because I'm forshadowing, dun dun DUN!
Please review!!!!!
