*Rin's POV*
I want to get up, tell everyone I'm here, I'm ok, stop the tears, but no matter how hard I try, I cant move a muscle ... I'm trapped, ... I can smell, I can feel, I can hear, I wish I could speak too, or at least see ... this is worse then death, the world is happening around me and all I can do is sit here trapped, ... people keep on coming and going, but instead of talking TO me like the nurse tells them to, they talk AT me ... I suppose they don't believe I can really hear them ...
I wish I could ask people what's happening ... I want to know, what are all these tubes for, what is that beeping? ... I hate being so helpless ... I wish I didn't run from Len ... I love him so much ... but I can't tell him ... can I? I should have told him, ... I'm pregnant, I should have told somebody ... now I don't get fed the supplements I need to feed a child growing inside me ... will it die? Is it already dead? Well I suppose the car crash wouldn't have hurt it, right? My head got hit, only my head ... I guess it was for the best though ... I can't look after a child, I'm 14...
Why do I even have this child? It's so stupid ... I hate this ... I wanted to tell somebody I got raped but... I couldn't bring my self to say ... I'm so stupid ... so very stupid ... why?! Why me?! Lord up high, why do you do this to me?! I have tried to be good ... maybe I'm destined for death ... well okay, I'm not afraid ... I'm not ready, but if its my destiny then I am not afraid ... but I don't want to die yet; there's so much I have to do ... I want to put on pretty expensive clothes and go to London; London looks like an amazing place ... then I want to climb the Eiffel tower ... I want to dance in a Spanish ball room, I want to go all around the world ... visit all the exiting places ... but I suppose that's just a dream ...
Hang on what's going on? The hospital gown is being taken off. What's that ..?! Oh ... I'm being washed ... that's nice ... I feel cleaner... I wish that person who is washing me would talk to me ... I'm so lonely ... only one person actually talks to me and that's Len, but he got forced to come out ad I think they shot him with a tranquilizer ... I don't think he's allowed back in, I haven't heard him since ... I really miss him ... I'm such an idiot! I caused him pain and suffering ... he loves me ... not in the way that I love him, but he has always been there for me... he must be devastated ... what if he blames himself? It's my fault, not his ... I want to tell him that ... but I can't ... will telepathy work? I haven't tried it before, but twins are supposed to be able to use telepathy, right? oh never mind, it's stupid ...
I really do love Len though, but not sibling love, more than that ... I feel so stupid for trying to keep away from him ... why?! I'm just ... stupid ... so stupid ... I hate myself ... I wish Len would come back to talk to me ... I want to listen to him rambling on for ages about different things, I want to hear him laugh, I want to have him close to me ... I want to know he's safe ... Len, where are you? I miss you already ... I need you ... other wise life isn't worth living ... please come to me, Len ... please ... I'm tired, I'm going to sleep ... I hope I wake up to have Len speaking to me ... I wish ... I wish he would come ...