'This will not end well,' She thought as she took a deep breath.

Slender fingers ran along the keyboards as she nervously typed the web address. She could feel her heart beat loudly inside her chest, she was damn nervous and although she knew the result would be harsh she still hoped that hers would be included in the rare cases where people actually got great result.

Black background greeted her as soon as she clicked 'enter', its corners were decorated with Lycoris flowers, some black roses and other flowers that you usually see at funerals and stuffs.

Why does it feels like she just opened a customized 'Hell corresponds' web instead?

She sweat dropped.

On it's middle were two boxes labelled with 'Senpai' and 'Kouhai'.

She took a deep breath.

It was now or never.

She started typing.

Senpai [Sphintus Carmen] | Kouhai [Full Name]

Enter.

'Please wait while we process your result ~ span lang="hi-IN"١ • /spanω • )span lang="hi-IN"١/span'

She sighed. Now there was no turning back. All she could do now was to pray, she thought as she clasped her hands together.

She waited.

She waited.

And waited—

Why is this site taking too long?!

An hour later, still no result, bloody hell all it did was to load. She was seriously getting dizzy with all that loading so she decided to take the day off and sleep, after all she still have classes tomorrow.

She closed her laptop and clambered to her bed.

The next morning, she immediately cried out her heart with the very first thing that greeted her upon opening the laptop.

'Why the fudge brownies are you still awake at two am? You setting yourself for the record of having 'the biggest eye bags the world had ever seen' or something? Go to sleep before I permanently make you! That aside, Senpai have no slightest idea that you even existed. Go to a salon and fix that look of yours. And seriously, you like that guy? I kennot even. Ò Δ Ó )8'

Sobs, life is meaningless.

And how did it even knew how she looks or what kind of a person Sphintus is?

But still, life is meaningless.

She was gloomy that day. She couldn't even comprehend whatever nonsense was Ugo-sensei was spatting as he pace back and fort in the class. It was unusual considering that math was one of her favorite subjects even if it doesn't seemed to like her much.

She looked down to her notes and started doodling her beloved, pretending that she never access that site in the first place.

Then, reality was way painful when you face it directly.

It was no doubt that site was accurate, she thought at she gazed at a certain silver haired boy that sat five rows away. The serpent that wrapped around his head payed no attention as its master gossiped with the young oppai maniac genius beside him. The blonde one in his right would sometimes join in, catching Ugo-sensei's attention.

He really have no slightest idea about her existence, doesn't he?

On the contrary she knows almost everything about him, from his vital statistics to the name of the youngest member of the Carmen clan. She was really creepy in her own way.

A downright stalker.

One would not even be surprised if her theme song about him was 'I'll be watching you'.

Her friends (Yes she has friends. Surprise bishes!) sometimes couldn't think why she likes the guy too much, sure he was cute and all but he was also super egotistical and often times too obnoxious for their own liking.

But she knew better, unlike them she observes him 10 hours a day or more. She knows that he's kind when he would help an old lady pass the traffic, she knew the he's kind when he would help Titus whenever he would have problems with his health. She knew that he's hard working whenever he would spend almost a day in the library reading medical books and diligently absorbed the information. She knew his good sides better than anyone else.

Yet that still doesn't change the fact that she was still invisible around him.

Sob.

'Mommy has come to pick me up in the rain ~ it's so fun walking under her umbrella, splish splish splosh splosh , ah this is so fun ~ Ame ame hure hure, kaa-san da ~ And we're back to Magi channel ~ ! Today due to the sudden rain, I'm pretty sure some of you are stuck in this abomination of a place— whoa! Whoa! I was only kidding! Put that vase down, Ja'far-senpai! Don't kill me!'

She sighed as she looked out of the window and saw how hard the rain had gotten, though the usual skit of the broadcasting club had helped lighten up the mood, it didn't changed the fact that she was still stuck till the rain ceases.

She held the strap of her bag tightly before exiting the room, she decided to find something interesting to do while waiting. And almost as if God had heard her, the broadcasting club decided to break the possible boredom that might befall them.

'Earlier, I had asked senpai to allow me to host this little event! And he said Yes! Hooooo! I'm so awesome right? Go and praise me some more, hihihi! Ahh, that's right! We also have a really cute underclassmen to help us today! Make way for Aladdin!'

'Thank you, senpai. I'm really glad to be here,'

'I'm also really glad to see you ~ Ahh, what a cutie ~ Anyway, as I said earlier. We your humble yet super awesome and super cool broadcasting club had decided to hold an event. The rule is simple, just write anything you want to say on a piece of paper, drop it off on a box we'll be setting outside and we'll read it on air! Whether it's a confession or what, whether you'll sign it or not it's up to you! Easy right? Yep, we'd be reading them after a few songs so chop chop hurry up, time is ticking and we'll be right back. For now, here's VIP by SID. Laters ~!'

That's it!

This was her chance! She must do something to tell him that she existed, and now the opportunity was standing right in front of her! Ahh, broadcasting club! I love you!

She ran back into their classroom and hurriedly took a pen and paper. She wasted no time as she poured out all of her feelings on a piece of paper. Like her favorite phrase, It was now or never!

True enough, a box was sitting on top of a table just outside the room. She first waited for the coast to clear before scrambling and putting her letter inside. She left just in time for Ja'far to take the box in.

Good god was she nervous.

For you/ For me was almost ending.

She jogged around the hallway, she silently hoped he was still around or else that full of love message was going to be wasted.

The song ended. She arrived at the shoe locker catching her breath, there was no one aro around. She took her shoe then proceed on sitting on a nearby bench.

She closed her eyes and let the noises drown her whole being.

'Dear Sphintus Carmen,

I hope that this might sound a little creepy but it's the only thing that I can do to confess my feelings. I'm far too shy to even tell you directly, and you even probably don't have the slightest idea of who I am, but I still wish that one day I could approached you directly and tell you the words that I had been keeping inside of me.

I really like you!

I want to shout those words to you, I want to tell you how much I admire you. I wish you're still around to hear this, for this will be the only time I'd myself stop being a coward and be true. I really like you, no, I probably love you already! And I am wishing that you'd reach your dreams. I don't really wishes for you to like me back. Truth is although it hurts, I am fine with the way things are. It was probably better this way, and some things are just never meant to be.

Still, I will not stop liking you!

I had never felt like this to anyone before and it's kinda idiotic but I will not stop! Even if I'd fell in love with another boy, I'm pretty sure my feelings will stay the same because... because... You're my first love...

I wish you the best. And please don't ever change because you're probably one of the most kind person that I ever meet.

Sincerely yours, Invisible Kouhai.'

I tried writing fluff once, it was awful.

Sorry for this crappy and very messed up update. ; w ; ) I totally lost it half way, my mind cannot process a very good or funny one. Huhubels. Kill me now.

And my English's dying again these past days, it happens sometimes. (The other fic that I'm writing ate it all)

But yea, I love Sphintus and this wasn't supposed to end with just the letter but /Crai. I'm so sorry! I'm going to write a better one when I find the time! Don't hate me! Q A Q )|'DD

Also I saw some ppl asking for more Judal teh bish fic, I'll go see what I can do. O 3 O )/

For now, let's meet again! Bye!

PS.

I've been really busy lately but I had already started writing the next one (Kouha's next yo.) and I'll try uploading it before this year ends. O v O ) Bye ~