When Lance woke next to say he was confused would be an understatement, looking around he recognized his room on the castle. So, they found me good. However, something seemed off, the room was much darker then he remembered. He tried to get up and move to his door, but something was stopping him, he thought it might be his blankets but he was on top of them not under. So, what was stopping him from moving?

"They don't want to see you."

"Who's there?" the thing stopping him pulled him closer, wrapping its arms around him like a hug.

"you're worthless to them, a sorry excuse for a paladin." He tried to pull away but it kept a tight grip on him.

"Don't you believe me? They don't really like you, it's all lies."

"Prove it." Suddenly the pressure stopping him from leaving let him go, so he moved to the door.

When he left his room, he was suddenly in the dining hall, his friends were laughing and enjoying dinner. Never once did they notice him, then Keith spoke.

"He never listens, and he talks so much. Are you sure we can't replace him?"

"I would love to, but where would we find a new blue paladin around here?" Allura stated like it was frustrating that she even had to look for another.

"If he just stopped joking around and was serious for once we'd actually get our mission done. His training is so far behind the others." He could hear the disappoint in Shiro's voice.

Lance was shocked by what he heard Pidge and Hunk weren't defending him either, they were absorbed in their latest project.

"They left you on that planet, so they could get rid of you."

"I'm hindering the team. Why would they leave me there, then come back for me? Why am I on the ship if they don't want me around?"

"Someone has to pilot Blue in till the new paladin is found." The voice reasoned

"Allura should pilot her then, she's the better paladin. I'm useless, a waste of space." Lance was back in his room curled up in his blanket. The thing warping itself around him once more.

"I always knew. That I was the weakest link, I'm just a replacement, a placeholder. I'm not a real paladin, I'm just a cargo pilot. Worthless, Blue deserves better than me." Lance drifted off again as a pressure was applied to his chest. Something soothing, and relaxing.

"Someone as useless and worthless as me doesn't deserve to be relaxing." Unaware the words left his lips Lance closed his eyes again. Feeling like he the forgettable person he is, he allowed himself to drift off.

"No, you don't, you shouldn't even be breathing."

…Meanwhile…..

They knew he'd be delirious once out of the pod, they just thought it wouldn't happen quite this quick. Hunk had caught him when he fell out, he tried to move away but Hunk didn't let go as they tried to move him to the med bay for his first treatment. His eyes opened and Shiro tried to speak to him, to coax him into walking where they wanted.

"Who's there?" They stopped trying to move him. The fear he might be blind scared them for a seek.

"Lance? It's us, buddy, how are you feeling?" they waited a few more seconds before his replay came.

"Prove it." It came out in a defiant whisper, but they all heard because of how quiet the room was.

"He must be seeing things." Pidge's quiet statement was met with nods, he was more willing to move now so they migrated him to the med bay and he seemed to just stand there for a while, Coran was fetching the cream he had shown them day's earlier. Lance looked ready to cry, whatever he was seeing no one liked it. Lance moved himself to the bed in the room, Keith put a blanket over him knowing full well just how cold the pods were.

"I'm hindering the team. Why would they leave me there, then come back for me? Why am I on the ship if they don't want me around?" Everyone stopped moving as his words sank in.

"I'm sorry Lance." Pidge replied, her voice shaking aware he probably couldn't hear right.

"Allura should pilot her, she's the better paladin. I'm useless, a waste of space." Allura had just walked in at that moment, and she froze in the doorway. The words she was going to say died before she breathed life into them. They watched as Lance pulled the blanket closer to himself.

"I always knew. That I was the weakest link, I'm just a replacement, a placeholder. I'm not a real paladin, I'm just a cargo pilot. Worthless, Blue deserves better than me." Allura turned around and left the room, Hunk and Pidge were reduced to tears, and Keith looked ready to murder someone.

"Coran the cream?" Shiro own voice was shaky but he had to hold it together, one of his own needed him right now and that was what he was going to do. Once Coran started applying the cream Lance drifted off he was laying down and Hunk, at some point, went and hugged him. As he drifted off one final sentence left his lips, causing Shiro's blood to good cold

"Someone as useless and worthless as me doesn't deserve to be relaxing."

"You have every right to relax Lance. You're not worthless." Somehow Coran's words didn't ease, the team at all.