Chapter Inspired by Thinking Of You by Katy Perry
(Comparisons are easily done You said move on, where do I go? 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh! 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you You're the best, and yes, I do regret 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Oh, won't you walk through?
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed
I guess second best is all I will know
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay)
Chapter three.
Ever since the death of my husband Jacob life has been difficult. I feel alone even with my children , and Jacob's family. They can't fill the void he left in my heart. It's been a few months since I've taken the children somewhere so today we're going to church , then the Christman show.
"It's not going to be the same," Jayline said. Being the oldest she can feel my depression.
"Why not Jay?" Paul asked.
"Daddy won't be there," Jayline hissed.
Paul just looked down.
"Jayline please don't ruin anything for your brother," I begged.
"Okay," Jayline promised.
We went outside to get into the SUV as fast as possible. The snow wasn't very tall, but it was thick. I started to drive when I realized that it felt akward being in the driver's seat. It brought back memories of Jacob teasing the kids while we headed out. The kids looked outside to see the snow falling down.
"Jayline what do you want for Christman this year?" I asked my daughter.
"My daddy,"she hissed. I tensed up.
"I want that too," Paul said.
"Guys please something else," I said.
"Nothing," Jayline sighed.
"I want a puppy," Paul smiled.
We made our way into the church , and took our seats. Church went by slow , but maybe it was because I hadn't been there in a while. I hadn't noticed that Paul had crawled under the bench.
I took a breath through my teeth. When no one was looking I bent down.
"Paul, get out from under there!" I hissed through my teeth.
When he didn't appear to move I dragged him by his feet out.
"Need any help there?" A man asked.
I looked up to find a man about my age, with bronze hair, a crooked smile, and light skin.
"No , but thank you," I smiled getting up. People began to exit as church ended.
"Your children?" He asked.
I nodded.
"They look nothing like you," he said.
"They look like their father," I said.
"Is he here?" He asked.
"My husband died at war just a few months ago," I said trying not to try.
"Then your Isabella Black?" He asked.
I nodded.
"Sorry, I'm Edward. Edward Cullen," the man smiled.
He extened his hand out , and I shook it. His grip was hard, but easy.
"Life is quite the adventure. Never knowing when it will end," he said leading out. I followed him with Jayline , and Paul in hand.
"Yes," I agreed.
"So these your kids huh," he smiled.
I nodded , and smiled.
"That's Paul , and that's Jayline," I said.
"Jayline? Never heard nothing like it. How do you spell that?" Edward asked.
"J-A-Y-L-I-N-E. It's basicly the same thing as J-A-Y-L-E-E-N. My husband came up with it," I said.
"It's a very pretty name that belongs to a very pretty girl," Edward smiled at Jayline while she blushed.
Edward chuckled.
"Paul huh," Edward said looking down at Paul.
Paul nodded.
"I met Jacob once a few years ago. I have to say that little boy is his spitting image," Edward said.
I nodded.
"You don't say much," he smiled.
"No," I smiled.
"It was really nice to meet you Isabella," Edward said.
"Call me Bella , and it was nice to meet you too," I said back.
"I'd like to take you out if thats possible Bella?" Edward asked
I blushed , and smiled, but then Jacob popped into my head , and my smile was short lived.
"I- I- don't know," I said.
"Call me if you change your mind," he said giving me his number.
Then he left.
During the Christmas show I couldn't stop thinking of Edward. He was so nice , sweet, and caring to the kids. Just like a.. a... Father. That almost made me smile. Later that night after we got home I put the kids to bed , and went to the masterbedroom. It was so alone without my Jaocb. So empty.. I sat on one side of the kingsized bed, and looked over at the other side. He wasn't there. He'd never be there again...
That night my dream made me consider a new life, but at the same time never having one.
I was standing nowhere surrounded by trees, but I felt danger. I looked to the left to see Jacob in his army uniform covered in scar, and blood. He came over to me looking hurt.
"So I've been dead for a few fucking months , and your already thinking of another! Didn't I mean anything to you! Don't you love me! So is this new asshole going to raise MY children! Huh!" Jacob hissed.
"Jacob I-," was all I could get out.
"You what! Huh? YOU WHAT!" Jacob demanded. Then like the wind he was gone.
"Jacob!" I called out.
Then to my right I saw Jacob came out but different. He was wearing jeans , a dark t-shirt, and a warm face. He came over to me , and cupped my face in his hands.
"Isabella, I missed you," he said before he kissed me. Even if it was a dream I felt his love. Then I realized I'd began to cry. He pulled away , wiped my tears , and hugged me.
"I miss you so much," I said with a cracky voice.
"I miss you too, but I want to to have a happy life. And from what I can see your not having one. Bella there are more great guys out there. I want you to find one. Jayline , and Paul need a dad , and you need someone there for you. Always remember I love you. Always, and forever," he said before he disappeared.
I woke up to find myself in my (our) bed covered in sweat. He'd felt so real. I looked around the room , and looked around for my cellphone. I walked over , and looked for Edward's number. I clicked.
Ring... Ring.. Ring..
"Bella, well what a suprise,"Edward said with a warm voice.
"Hi, I was just wondering if that date still stands?" I asked.
"Always," he said.
"What about today? Around seven at the italian restaurant?" I suggested.
"Okay, I'll see you there," I said while I hung up.
I looked for Sarah's number.
Rin-
"Bella?" Sarah answered.
"Yeah , I was wondering if you could watch the kids tonight. I was asked on a .. date," I said expecting the worst answer.
"Of course. What time?" She asked.
"Sevenish," I said.
"Sounds great," she said , and hung up.
I made my way downstaires to find Paul , and Jayline watching television.
"Hey guys tonight you guys are going to Grandma's okay?" I said.
"Why?" Jayline asked.
"I'm going to go see a friend," I said.
"Who?" Paul asked.
"Edward," I said.
"Oh , he's nice. Can I come?" Jayline asked. Paul smiled , and nodded.
"Another time I promise," I smiled.
After dropping the kids off I made my way to my date. I was so nervous.
Calm down Bella! I told myself over , and over again.
I parked , and got out to find Edward in a black tuxedo with a silver tie. I was wearing a simple black v-straped with a little sweater over it. He made me feel selfcatious right away.
He smiled at me. I smiled back.
"You look beatiful," he smiled.
"Thank you," I smiled back while he lead me inside. We walked over to our table in the corner. We sat down , and looked at the menus.
The waiter came over to take our order.
"What will you both be having tonight?" He asked.
"Italian salad," Edward , and I said at the same time.
I felt my face get very hot.
Edward smiled at me , and repeated it to the waiter.
"So tell me about yourself," he smiled at me again.
"I grew up in Washington, no brothers nor sisters, divorced parents, two kids, and recently lost a husband," I said.
'So I've been dead for a few fucking months , and your already thinking of another! Didn't I mean anything to you!' Jacob's voice hissed in my mind.
I almost chocked on my own water.
"Are you okay?" Edward asked.
I nodded.
"I lost a brother in war too. Emmett," he said.
"Really? Tell me about you," I said.
"I grew up in Alaska with parents, my sister Alice , Rosalie, and brother Emmett , and Jasper. I graduated from Alaska Unversity with a bachelor degree. Nothing much," he smiled at me.
"I went to college to be a nurse , but my daughter had other plans when she was born," I smiled.
He laughed.
"Tell me about your brother.. Please?" I asked.
"He went around four years ago , but he was gunned down in his second mission. We alys knew he'd go war. Growing up he was a rebel you could say," Edward said.
"How did your family deal with the loss?" I asked.
"Like anyother. Grieving. Fighting. Just like that. His death tore our family apart, but I find it wonderful that Jacob's didnt," he said.
"I suppose. So weren't you in any other relationships before?" I asked.
"A serious one.. With this girl named Tania, but she married my brother Emmett. She became a widow early , and just left. I've heared nothing from here since. So tell me how did you meet Jacob?" He asked.
"We kinda of grew up together in a way, but we never really talked. It was until I was 17 , and he was 19. My car broke down , and he went to fix it , and from there we began," I said.
"Wow, that's interesting. You don't have to answer this if you don't want to ,but I'm wondering. Would you ever take another chance at love?" He asked.
'I want to to have a happy life. And from what I can see your not having one. Bella there are more great guys out there. ' Jacob said in a sweet voice in my head.
"I- I don't know," I said.