V e g a s skies
chapter two.
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When I awoke the next morning, I realized that I actually had plans. For a week, I had come to the conclusion that no one would want to hang out with me. But, they don't know of my pregnancy, so I have a feeling this will all change: their kindness, friendship, and hanging out. It will all fade away. Standing out of bed, I looked out the window. There was a considerable about of clouds in the sky, so I figured it was going to rain. I went into my closet and pulled out a pair of gray sweatpants and a hoodie. I slipped on the white tank top and pulled up the sweats, then pulling the hoodie over my head, which was black. Now that I think about it, I should go shopping. I'm running out of clean clothes. I turned for the bathroom and pulled my hair into one big french braid and brushed my teeth. Was I supposed to go to the neighbor's house, or would I meet them somewhere? Then again, they are at class right now, so it doesn't matter.
"Aunt?" I asked as I walked downstairs. The house was big enough for me to get lost in, so I wanted to make sure I was near someone who knew this house well at all times.
"In here dear." She replied. I turned the corner and I saw her sitting at the island with tons of paperwork scattered around her, as she was on the phone. Leaning to her side, I saw most of the documents had my name on them. The top of the paper was labeled: Wesmere Prep Student Transfer: Namine Sato.
"What are these for?" I mouthed, even though it was pretty obvious. She pointed to the name of the school, and hung up the phone.
"You are transferring. We can't have you with no education." She said, filling out blanks on the paper.
"It's not as if I will have time for school anyway." I muttered, sitting down. She rolled her eyes and threw a banana in my direction.
"You will. I'm going to help you. Now eat. You are meeting those kids around three." She said, adjusting her reading glasses. I sighed.
I could already feel that this was going to be a long day.
The door bell rang around three, as my aunt had said. She had run to the doctors' to make an appointment for me. Just to double check on everything.
"Coming!" I said. I had been laying in my room the past few hours, just staring at the ceiling. I was trying to predict the future, just to see if I will actually be alone. Every time I pictured it, I was. Opening the door, I came face to face with the auburn haired girl from yesterday: Kairi.
"Hiya, Namine!" She said, bouncing on her heels. She looked like she changed out of her uniform before she ran over here. She was sporting a pair of light blue faded jeans and a pink hoodie. Obviously she didn't care if it was going to rain since she left her hair down.
"Hi, Kairi, right?" I said. I would truly be alone if I couldn't even remember names. She nodded.
"Yep! Hey, if you don't mind, my friend Selphie won't be joining us. But we have to go there." She pointed next door. "We are going to meet Sora there and then we will be on our way." I nodded, slipping on my ugly clogs. To be honest, the less people the better. I locked the door behind me and followed Kairi across the lawn, making sure not to ruin it. It looked like my aunt spent a lot of time on it. She rang the doorbell to Sora's house and you could hear lots of yelling on the other side. I couldn't make out any of the words, though. Finally the door opened to a smiling Sora.
"Hey!" He said, motioning for us to come in.
"What was all that yelling?" Kairi asked. I silently asked the same question.
"Oh, you know. My brother being stupid again." He said as we followed him up the stairs. He was still in his uniform, so we were going to wait till he changed. At least, that is what I guessed. Their house was as amazing as my aunts. It had more of a cooler feel, though. The walls were lighter and it was more open. My house had more of a warm feeling. "Hold on. I wasn't finished with him yet." He joked. He went over to a door that was next to us and the door flew open. "AS I WAS SAYING--!" He began.
"Sora, I told you. I DIDN'T DO IT!" That voice. I recognized it. Inching ever so slightly to where Sora was, I peeked around the door.
"Roxas, come on. Who else would do that? Besides, we have that twin thing. I just KNOW you did it." Sora said, proudly.
"Sora, you know that twin thing is bullshit." Roxas. It was Roxas from yesterday. I looked around the door frame and I saw the blond sitting on his bed, acoustic guitar in hand. He was dressed in the same clothes I had seen him in yesterday, and he looked like he had barely slept. I looked at him and almost at the same time he looked at me. And once again our eyes connected and I got that same feeling that I had yesterday.
"Oh, Roxas. This is Namine. Kairi and I are showing her around town. She is our new neighbor." Sora said, pushing me a bit forward. The water bottle that I had in my pocket had fell out and rolled out toward Roxas's bed. Attached to the bottle was a checklist of things I was allowed to eat. Roxas picked it up and looked it over before handing it back.
"Here." He said, and there was a slight smile on his face. I took the bottle and pushed it back into the pocket of my hoodie.
"Thanks." I muttered, looking to the floor. I heard Kairi giggle behind me and I backed up a few inches before looking at her. "When are we going?" I really just wanted to leave. Roxas made me feel uncomfortable.
"Ah—we should get going. Sora get dressed or we will miss the train to Sunset Terrace." Kairi said, making a motion to get him into his room. Roxas looked over at Kairi. He was now leaning on his door frame.
"Why are you going there?" He asked.
"We are showing dear Namine around town! Wanna join us?" Now, I guess I should be worried. I didn't like the vibe Roxas gave off. He had a bad boy look, but he also looked like he hung out with the wrong crowd. But that is just my opinion, but he also makes me feel like I'm in danger or something.
"Ah, just for a bit. I'm going down there anyway." He said. "Just let me change." And he closed the door. After waiting for the brothers to change, Kairi showed me their secret exit from the neighborhood. It took us outside the main gates, through the back, and we ended up right near the train station. Apparently, we had to take a train to Sunset Terrance. The train itself was small. It seemed that the prices were cheap, too, so it must not get much business. Kairi told me that most people who go there are teens, because the adults don't travel there unless they live there. The train ride was short and the whole time I was trying to avoid eye contact with Roxas. He and Sora would fight every so often and Kairi would giggle. All of them seemed so close and I was the outsider. The fourth wheel. I didn't enjoy it at all. If I had my way, I would be sitting in my room listening to music or drawing. It got my mind off the fact that I was pregnant. But, hanging out with them, I always thought about it. I thought how they would react when they found out.
"Namine!" I snapped my eyes to the source. It was Kairi. We were standing outside some small cafe and Sora and Roxas looked like they were looking for a table.
"Y-yeah?" I said. How long was a spaced out?
"Are you coming in?" I nodded. She lead me to where the boys were. They picked a table in the far corner. Sitting down, I pulled the sticky note off the water bottle and looked at it. I had to eat a certain amount off food to make sure I was healthy.
"Why are you reading that?" Sora had asked me, scanning through the menu.
"I have to eat healthy." I stated simply. I didn't want to tell them too much. He raised his eyebrow, but dropped the subject. The waiter eventually took our orders. I said I wanted a simple salad while everyone else seemed like they wanted a full course meal. He placed our orders on the table and Sora quickly scarfed down his burger. "Is he okay?"
"Yeah. Sora is always like that." Kairi told me, laughing. She was taking small bits of her burger. I attempted to smile at Sora, but failed as per usual. Looking down at my salad, I felt something. I felt a fluid starting to come up my throat. Covering my mouth, I quickly stood, abandoning the table and dashing for the bathroom. Pushing the stall door opening, I heaved over the toilet, making sure everything got in there. It tasted nasty and most of it was stomach acid since I barely at anything that day. After a few more moments of puking, I sat back against the wall of the stall, wiping my mouth with toilet paper. I threw it into the toilet and flushed. "Namine! Are you okay!" I heard Kairi's voice echo through the bathroom.
"Y-yeah! I'm fine!" I replied. I knew all too well why I was puking. It was morning sickness. And it wasn't even morning! Thinking to myself and making sure I wasn't going to puke anymore, I unlocked the door, showing Kairi where I was.
"Are you sure? Are you sick?" She asked, coming down to my level. "You look a little pale." I shook my head.
"No, I'm okay. It was probably just something I ate." I said, trying to cover it up. She seemed unconvinced, but agreed anyway. Helping me stand, I went to rinse my mouth out in the sink before I followed her out of the room. As we got back to the table, I saw that Roxas had left.
"Where is Roxas?" Kairi asked Sora.
"He ran off with Axel, as always." I could tell there was annoyance in Sora's voice. From what I could tell, Sora wasn't too happy at all.
After a while, we left the cafe. I never ate my salad. Kairi showed me around the town, telling me where the good shops were. Sora told me stories about the town and about some people we ran into. It was nearing six, and Sora had run off to a game store down the hill. You see, all three of us made it to Sunset Hill and they were showing me the fantastic view. There was no sunset to see since it was about to storm. Kairi told me to wait there while she got Sora so we could go home. As I waited, I started to hear the sky roar with thunder. I didn't think much of it since back at home it always thundered for a while before the rain came. But I was wrong. It was different here. I saw a bright lighting blot followed by a cackle of thunder. Then, before I knew it, it was pour rain. I lifted my hood over my head, and turned around. I tried to backtrack, seeing if I could figure out where that store was or where the train station was. I didn't have Kairi's number so I couldn't call her. Walking in the rain, I saw store lights turning off, so I was expecting this storm to be a big one. It was getting dark and I tried to see where I was walking, but I kept tripping over my feet.
"Are you lost?" I heard a voice from behind me say. Turning around, it was a boy. I saw him earlier with Sora, though he said nothing about him. That voice sent chills down my spine and I didn't know I could feel so scared. "Girls like you can find yourself in a lot of trouble, being out like this." I saw him reaching for me, so out of reflex, I stepped back to find myself bumping into someone else.
"Leave her alone, Seifer." The person said. My eyes widened as I looked who I had bumped into. His blond hair matted his head, and he had a horrible look on his face that scared even me. It wasn't even directed at me.
"Aw, this girl hangs with you?" The boy, Seifer, said. Roxas grabbed my shoulder and shoved me behind him. With that movement, I felt my stomach start doing turns again.
"Just get the hell out of here." Roxas said. My hands went to my stomach and my mouth.
"Look at her. She is so scared she looks like she is sick." Seifer cackled. He and Roxas began to glare at each other once more before Seifer turned away and began to walk in a different direction.
"What are you doing out here?" Roxas asked me. I tried to answer him, but I ended up puking all over the sidewalk.
"Ohh--" I moaned. I hate puking, and knowing that I would be doing it almost every day just made me even more sick. "W-where is Kairi?" I managed to ask. He point a bit behind me and I saw Kairi standing on the platform on the train. It looked like Sora was trying to stop the train from leaving. I muttered a quiet thank you before turning and running off to Kairi and Sora.
"Namine!" Kairi said, wrapping me in a hug. I flinched. "You are okay! Where were you! Never mind! Let's get you inside!" She pushed me on the train and moments later Sora followed.
I groaned and closed my eyes.
Back in the neighborhood, the rain seemed to have stopped. I walked up the cobblestone pathway to my front door. Kairi said her goodbyes to Sora and I and she left. Sora and I had a quiet talk and eventually we made it home. Opening the door to my house, I stripped myself of my soaked hoodie and walked upstairs. I passed my Aunt's room to find her passed out on the bed. I hung my stuff up in the shower and changed into a pair of shorts and a over sized t-shirt. I fell back into the bed, a towel around my hair. I closed my eyes.
What made me so terrified of Roxas? Every time I see him I get a feeling as if he is going to hurt me. The only time that feeling subsided is when he saved me from that freak. But, why did he care? I was a stupid girl who got lost. That is what happens to stupid, pregnant girls like me. There was such fury in his blue eyes. That fury was directed towards Seifer and that was the only moment I felt safe. I shook my head of the thoughts of Roxas and tried to focus on more important things, like school.
What was Wesmere Prep like? Would I fit in? I would probably get in trouble since I have to keep running out and puking all the time. I could still taste it in my mouth even after I brushed my teeth. But, every time I tried to shake my thought from what happened, I kept thinking about what happened. My thoughts flicked from Sora, to Kairi, to Roxas. Even to Seifer. My past experiences with people weren't all too good and I didn't want to form any bonds just to have them broken.
I bet that Sora and Roxas have a great family bond. I see them fighting but in the end they always seem to smile with each other. Will my baby and I ever be apart of a family? Will things ever turn out for us or will I turn out like those single moms living in a run down apartment? I want to change things. I want to start thinking of the future with my baby.
'As if I will have one.' I thought. And I was right. No one in my family supports me. I have no support whatsoever. Even if my aunt says she will help me, I know she won't. She is only trying to make the impression and then things will go downhill once I start to show. When I start to show--
What am I supposed to do when I start to show? People will find out then and I will turn to be an outcast. I mean, I don't even know who the father is. I'm so stupid. How could I have gotten knocked up? Sighing, I stood from my bed and grabbed my iPod, turning on some classical music. I wanted to be free from my thoughts.
I hope I have a dreamless sleep.
JEEZ! So depressing. Anyway, I might not update for a few days. I have to update RTTTB and then OTR, but school starts soon. This whole weekend I am full so I might no be able to write.
I'll try my hardest!
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