Bellamy

I didn't even know my thought process in the last few seconds. Her lips were still on mine. I just felt a magnetic pull when I caught her and saved her from falling. But why did I decide to kiss her?! I just couldn't contain myself for one more second and I let my body take over. I felt her hands on my chest as she pushed me away. She was dazzled and confused; I think...her puzzled expression was hard to read. Right before she turned away I could see a slight redness in her cheeks. She ran back to camp and vanished. I was alone in the woods with only my thoughts.

I don't even like her and she constantly hates me. I know there wasn't any chance that she would like me back because I mean she has obviously made it clear. But at the same time I could feel there was something between us even if it wasn't said out loud. The actions Clarke made towards me never added up. She would say one thing to me but I could tell I made her nervous. Hmm...but I guess that could mean anything though. I need to get myself together, of course she

doesn't like me. Still, she was blushing when she pulled me away. I guess that could just be a natural response. My mind kept fixating on the details. I just wanted to shove my thoughts away and never think about them again. I'll just pretend it never even happened. If she brings it up I will just act like a jerk about the whole thing. I slowly made my way back to camp.

When I got to camp, Clarke was nowhere to be found. As I carried the deer into camp my followers came up to congratulate me. I felt great again...everyone looked up to me. I liked having control. The problems of Earth were finally starting to solve themselves. Maybe, just maybe, we can actually survive this. I'm glad I shot the chancellor to get on down here. I've never felt freer in my life. I went into a hut that we built to check on my sister.

Octavia was taking care of that one boy who was attacked by the grounders. I forget his name...wait I remember now it's Jasper. I don't like the way he looked at my sister. He obviously wanted her but there was no way I was allowing anyone to be with me sister. She is so special...I just need to protect her from harm. People might think I'm weird but no one else can understand because no one else has a sibling. I just want what's best for her.

Octavia watched me and said, "What do you want?"

"Just checking on my sister. Aren't I allowed to do that?" I spoke.

"Ugh...fine but what you don't understand is that I don't need your protecting. I'm old enough...beside I can take care of myself!" She spoke obviously annoyed and somewhat upset.

"I'll take that into consideration," I explain. After that I exit the hut and see what else happened. I tried to make myself busy to get my mind off Clarke.

Clarke

So yea...Bellamy kissed me. I never saw it coming...but there was no way in hell I was going to let him see me vulnerable. Of course I loved it...my heart felt like it was going a million miles an hour but I pushed him away. I looked at his face staring at me one last time as I turned and fled back to the camp. I wanted him to think I didn't want him. I needed him to believe that there is no chance between us that it could never happen and it never will happen. Bellamy is not the right type of guy I should be going after. Finn... now Finn is sweet and understanding plus he always goes out of his way to give me gifts. Like pencils because he knows I like to draw. I'm pretty sure that he has feelings for me but obviously I'm not as good as I thought when it comes to reading guys. I just don't know anymore...

One thing is for certain Bellamy is not for me. When I arrive at the camp I can't seem to find Finn. I look everywhere in the camp for him, there is just no sign of him. I mange to find Octavia, "hey, have you seen Finn anywhere?" I ask.

"Why do you want to know where he is?" She asks as if she knows the answer.

I blush, "I don't know I just do, but have you seen him?"

"Well I saw him going to the woods a little while ago," she points to the direction that he saw him go.

"Thanks," I smile.

"Anytime," She smirks back.

I set off into the woods to find him. About a kilometer outside of camp I tripped off a metal square on the group. I really need to stop tripping; I make a metal note of that.