A/N: And if any of you got an e-mail that there was a new chapter a little while ago... something weird happened, I don't know, but this is still Chapter Three :) Thank you to everyone who reviewed last chapter! You are all so kind! :)

Disclaimer: I don't own House of Anubis

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Chapter Three

"There are a lot of things that can cause stillborn death." Mara looked over her paper covered clipboard again. "Did you sleep on you back at all during your pregnancy?"

Patricia turned her head towards Eddie. He shrugged, but she was still pretty positive that she hadn't. "Don't think so."

"Okay." Mara wrote down a few notes. "And there aren't any running diseases like diabetes, or obesity, or even stillbirth history in your family?"

"Not that I'm aware of." Patricia scratched her arm, giving Mara an odd look, "are there any other things that could have led to it?"

"The most common things that lead up to stillborn death are problems with the mother, body or addiction wise, and seeing that you have no medical issues, and your family isn't prone to any fetus death, than it could stand unanswered."

"Unanswered?" Eddie questioned.

"Well sure," Mara flipped through a few more pages of information pointing to a line on page four. "A lot of times that's common. There isn't always an explanation to fetus death. Stillborn death is commonly unanswered, because a lot of times it just happens." Mara bit on her bottom lip looking up at her friends. "I get that it can be a bit upsetting that you don't have answer, but in reality, it can also pose as good news."

"Good news?" Eddie immediately placed a relaxing hand on Patricia's arm as she sat forward, spilling out her question. Soothingly, and quietly, he got her to sit back in his arms, and listen instead of argue with Mara.

"See, if you don't have an answer for your first stillborn death, than the risks are a lot lower for the next time. Because it doesn't seem that it was originally caused by any medical issue, than there is a much lower chance of it happening again, only because the baby won't be at risk of picking up the same disease or disorder. So, if you're planning on trying again, than let me know. I promise that this time, we'll be sure to check the baby's growth more frequently."

"Will that be safe?" Eddie questioned.

"Of course you doof." Patricia elbowed him with an a eye roll.

"Yes, Eddie." Mara shot Patricia a look. "It should be perfectly safe. This way we can look for absolutely anything that could point to sings of stillbirth, and be sure to so whatever we can to prevent it."

"Thanks Mara." Eddie rubbed Patricia's back, urging her to say thank you too.

"Thanks Mara." As forced as she had been into giving a thank you too, Eddie was surprised to hear the sincerity in Patricia's voice.

"Of course, and since that's really all we have to go over, do you guys want to join us for dinner? Maybe we can talk about something completely unrelated. We haven't done that in a while."

"That'd be great."

"Great," Mara smiled and then added sarcastically, "Jerome will be so excited."

***o***One month later***o***

"Hey I'm home!" Patricia hung up her coat, and walked through the downstairs of the house. "Eddie?"

"I'm upstairs!" He finally called back.

"Oh, you okay?" She asked. It was surprisingly odd for Eddie to not be at the kitchen or in front of the TV.

"I actually need to talk to you."

"Okay…" Patricia responded warily, stomping up the stairs. Her eyes went wide as she stepped into their bedroom and found the bathroom light on. Her own personal drawer of stuff was open, its contents strewn across the floor.

"Why do you have these?" He held out a few pregnancy tests.

"I thought I told you not to go through my uh, 'feminine products'?" she urged, trying to get off of the topic.

"Seriously Patricia. Answer me."

"The- They're left overs." She caught her breath. "From Logan?"

Eddie rolled his eyes. "Then why does the receipt say you bought them three weeks ago?"

"Precaution!" Patricia protested. "…And I thought I was pregnant" She added after seconds of awkward silence.

"Really?" Eddie's eyes lit up, "why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know," she grabbed at the bottom of the receipt, but he kept the top in his hands. Their eyes met, and he could tell immediately that she wasn't lying. "I guess I just wanted to wait until I was sure."

"And?" His growing curiosity urged him to walk closer towards her, and for Patricia to walk away in an attempt to get off of the topic again.

"Hey what do you want for dinner?"

"Patricia." Eddie drew out. "I might not be the smartest person ever, but you purchased the pregnancy tests a while ago. So I know you tested it out already, because you are incapable of not knowing something. So, what happened?"

"The stupid test came out negative, alright?" She snapped. "I didn't tell you because it's just such an unimportant thing."

"Unimportant? Yacker, I need you to tell me about anything."

"You sound like my dad." She muttered under her breath. The two of them walked downstairs, her trying to escape the conversation, but Eddie was close at her heel. "But honestly, if I had told you first and then it ended up being negative, that would have been extremely disappointing for you."

"Well yeah, but how did you feel when you found out on your own that it was negative?"

"I don't," Patricia shrugged lightly. "Actually, a little relieved."

"Relieved?" Eddie sputtered.

"I know." Patricia sighed. "It sounds crazy, but we just got our lives back in order. Maybe the truth is we really don't have time for kids right now."

Eddie let out a groan. "You are sending me so many mixed messages. Last year you wanted a kid, and now that we lost him you want one again, but then tonight I come home to figure out that you went behind my back because you thought you were pregnant, and you're relieved that you're not?"

"It's not as confusing as it sounds." Patricia rationalized. "Everything's been a lot to deal with recently. And there are moments when having a family seems like this impossible, miraculous dream, and then something happens, and all of the sudden, it's something I don't want. Plus, I'm still completely insecure about Logan. I don't know if I can trust myself with another kid, I don't want this one to die because of me too-"

"God dammit Patricia." Eddie ran his fingers through his hair. "It's not your fault that he died! How many times do you want me to say that?"

Patricia shook her head. "I'm never going to stop blaming myself. And don't say you understand how I feel! I mean, great for you, you went into the freaking nursery. Applause all around!" Patricia scowled. "Well in case you weren't aware, I was rushed to the hospital, thinking to myself that in a few days we'd be coming home with our new life. Well guess what Eddie, we didn't!"

"Don't you think I know that?"

"Of course you know that, the issue is that you don't get it! I don't want his death to be left unexplained, because somehow, in some way it was my fault! He didn't just die like that." Patricia snapped her fingers. "There are a million reasons that no one is going to think of, but that I feel like I did wrong when I was pregnant."

"I guess you're right then." Eddie gave up with a sigh, as he sat down on the arm of their couch.

"What?" Patricia asked quietly.

"You can't handle defeat. You're giving up on yourself because you're blaming yourself. And now, there won't be a way for you to ever trust yourself with another kid."

"What?" She repeated.

"Let's just get a dog or something."

"What has gotten into your head?" Patricia hit the side of his head.

"You have!" Eddie burst, rubbing where she hit him. "All of your, 'I don't trust myself' crap has gotten into my head Trix. If you're going to be so undecided about this than maybe we rushed into trying for a family again." Patricia felt at a loss for words. "We'll just wait a few years I guess." The disappointment in his voice matched the sinking feeling in her heart. She watched him stand up and trudge into his office. She sat there for a few minutes, completely dumbfounded. Sure, she had been nervous about trying to have a family, but now that Eddie was officially giving up she wasn't sure what to do. She knew that if she had happened to get pregnant again, than she would have accepted it, and been happy about it eventually. And she had known before that he would've been thrilled, but now it seemed like he had given up entirely on the thought. It was as if they were traveling back to the Eddie and Patricia before a family was even a possibility, and he had once said that he had never wanted that to happen. And now, a year later, she realized that she didn't either.

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But really, Eddie's words had been her only issue for the rest of the night. She barely slept, and she had thought nothing of it really. The sickening feeling in her stomach she assumed was from all of the thoughts running through her head. She figured it would pass, just as all of her crazy emotions had been doing.

But later, at 3 A.M, on the tiled bathroom floor connected to the master bedroom, she figured out what her real issue had been for the past few days.

She listened to Eddie in a deep sleep a few feet away, but she could not have been more awake with nervousness. It was as if the pink positive sing was glaring right back at her.

A/N: Oops… this is going to be longer… ;) I just keep getting all of these random ideas for this story, and continue on with them. I'd say to expect one more chapter, but we'll see how that all works out. But please let me know what you thought!

~Grace

P.S. Did you guys love the amount of Peddie in last episode? I know they didn't get back together, but they were still cute, right?