Twelve Hands
Decided to make this a series because my school day sucks and it sometimes brings me to tears how much I hate my life. I am changing my schedule because I just am paranoid like that.
Caitlyns POV
Tick , Tick , Tick
Its my science class , this at least isn't as bad as history , math , or English.
Tick , Tick , Tick
The last minute in my first class of the day , I just feel numb. I like numbness.
The hand passes the one
I smile when my teacher begins to make a fool of herself , its a nice feeling happiness.
The hand passes the two
I close my eyes and remember back to when I was in second grade and the teacher would tell the kids to laugh at me because I was different .
The hand passes the three
I remember how in 3rd grade I found out that I had an emotional problem and that I can't handle stress that well without having a breakdown.
The hand passes the four
I remember how I always wanted to fit in , but back then I was fat and different. Two very bad mixtures , trust me.
The hand passes the five
I remember how my parents aren't together and how my dad wants me to be the perfect daughter. How no matter what he can find something imperfect about me.
The Hand passes the six
I remember how I met Mitchie , how we were the best of friends and then she turned against me (if ur reading this Molly know that I never hated you) . I remember how she took all my friends , and I was alone.
The hand passes the seven
I smile , but it is only fake. I am tired because I cried myself to sleep last night. I remember the fight I had with my mom , at least she can relate to me.
The hand passes the eight
I can hear people whispering about me , Caitlyn Gellar. I wanted to stop looking at the clock I really did , its just a way to block out the world.
The hand passes the nine
I remember how I met Tess , she was best friends with Mitchie. She was new in 6th grade , and everyone liked her. She still is popular-ish , people atleast like her.
The hand passes the ten
I look at my phone and see a missed call from Nate , he is probably worried about me . I have been in a crying mood lately.
The hand passes the eleven
I now feel the tears about ready to come out , I need to stay strong . I have not one person completely on my side besides myself. I always wondered if suicide would be a way out , but I just push the thought away. My life isn't that bad.
The hand passes the twelve
The bell rings and everyone leaves , I wait a minute to see Tess , smile , and when I walk out into the halls I feel something touch my hand.
The hand passes the one
Dana squeezes my hand "It will be ok." she smiles . She is dating Nate now and I am happy for her .
"Are you going to study or Spanish today?" I ask her , she nods. Her and Nate always go to the other ones study .
"Caitlyn just know you always have a friend in me." She says and I nod.
I would like to dedicate this chapter to the combination that makes up Dana. I want to thank my friend Steph and my friend Paige. I also want to thank my friends that are here for me right now , it isnt easy and you know how I have been acting lately. I love you 333