Sorry i haven't updated in a while, I've been worrying about my GCSE's, i didn't need to because I passed with flying colours but still its been stressful.

I know Teen Wolf is American but I'm from Wales so please if there are words that i have got wrong, such as writing mobile phone instead of cell phone please tell me.

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Chapter 3

Stiles POV

I feel like a ton of bricks just fell on me, I feel like I was just kicked in the face a 1000 times, I feel the one thing that I hoped never to feel again. I hate myself.

The rest of the session was filled with awkwardness. She had just told me that Derek will love someone or does already love someone more than me. She had told me that it doesn't matter how much I love Derek, he will never love me as much as I do him. But she had also told me the truth which is more than anyone else had done.

Derek picked me up just like he said he would but I was so sad that I could barely manage to say two words.

"Do you want me to stay tonight?, I know that you like me there on the nights that you see Sophie." He asked coming into my driveway.

"Umm… no that's okay I have a lot of thinking to do is I think it's best if I am alone tonight" I said hoping he would leave it there.

"Stiles are you okay? Did something happen in your meeting?" he said looking worried.

"No of course not, she just gave me some things to think about, and I think I would think better if I was alone" it didn't seem like such a good lie but he nodded so at least it worked.

"See you tomorrow" I said exiting the car, I was trying to get out of there so fast that I didn't give him change to so say anything back.

Luckily none of what I said or what Sophie said in that meeting can be repeated to Derek because of patient confidentiality or something. I have a lot of thinking to do, I mean what am I going to do, I don't want to lose Derek but I love him too much for him to settle for me. Should I stay with him which would make me unhappy knowing that I'm second best or should I break up with him and be alone again. Either way I lose but it's not about me it's about Derek. Should I release him so he can go find his mate or should I stay with him because he is also alone.

I got out my phone and text Derek, Sent, I can't go back now. I've decided that I'm going to decide what to do when I see him next. The next time I see him I decide either to stay with him forever or to set him free.

Derek's POV

What did Sophie do to him, he has barley said two words to me and I can feel it, he's upset and stressed out.

"Stiles are you okay? Did something happen in your meeting?" I said knowing that I probley won't get a straight answer.

He said that nothing happened and that he has a lot to think about so he wants to be alone. I don't think he should be alone when he feeling like this but what can I do, if he wants to be alone I should let him.

I grinned, Just because he wants to be alone doesn't mean I have to be.

I waited until he went into the house before backing out of the driveway and speeding home. I dropped off my car and waited until around 10.00 and ran back to Stiles house. I didn't make a habit out of it but sometimes when I wasn't allowed to sleep over Stiles because of his dad and I really needed to I would climb onto the roof and sleep on there so I could be close to Stiles and hear him breath and hear him talk in his sleep. I hear him mumbling to himself but I cant really figure out what he is saying but I do know that he's thinking hard and to stressed and upset to go to sleep. I wish I could do something to make it better but he wanted to go through whatever it is alone and I respect that.

About half an hour later I got a text from him saying

From Stiles

"Hang around after school at your house tomorrow? x :-D"

I texted back "Sure, can't wait 3 xxx"

Well at least he was feeling a little better and didn't want to be alone anymore. Maybe he'll tell me what's going on. I fell into a deep sleep knowing I wasn't far away from Stiles.

Mixed POV'S

BOLD = DEREKS POV

ITALIC = STILES POV

I woke up to the sound of my alarm. I actually slept. That usually doesn't happen unless Derek is nearby. I got up and got ready for school. I still had no idea what to do but I am just going to do what I decided last night. I'll decide when I see him.

I woke up and almost fell off the roof; I forgot I was up here. I heard Stiles getting ready for school. He seemed a bit happier but still he's stressing about something.

School was good but the pack was acting weird, they won't as cheerful as they usually are.

"Danny, is everything okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, sure why wouldn't it be" he said I'm still not convinced.

"Because the whole pack is acting weird and that's including you" I said. His face fell.

"It's nothing, really Stiles, you really need to stay out of it" he said slamming the locker door and walking away.

I pretty much asked everyone in the pack why they were acting so weird but everyone got so defensive and stormed off. What was it?, did I do something wrong?

After school I was really nervous, the times had come. Decision time. I got out of my jeep and saw Derek sitting on his doorstep waiting. Oh my god what am I going to do?

"Hey, are you okay?" he asked. No I wasn't. I looked into his big brown eyes and I knew what I had to do.

"Yeah, Derek we need to talk" I said I can't believe I was doing this.

"About what?" he asked.

"About us, I can't …. I can't do it any…. anymore. I think… think we need to bre… break up" I choked out. I had to do it, I loved him too much to let him settle for me. I want him to be happy with his mate, the one he truly loves.

"Stiles, you don't me….. you don't mean that" I hear him say under his sobs.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to be in….. your life anymore" I said walking backwards towards my jeep. I was holding back the tears. He needed to believe me. I took off in my jeep and waited until we were far away from each other before I burst into tears. I did the right thing, I'm not his mate.

My day was okay but I was looking forward to spending the afternoon with Stiles. I waited on the doorstep for him and found that I was grinning when I saw his blue Jeep pull up the driveway.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked. He didn't look happy. I didn't get an answer straight away, he was just staring at me.

"Yeah, Derek we need to talk" he said looking at the ground.

"About what?" I asked curiously.

"About us, I can't …. I can't do it any…. anymore. I think… think we need to bre… break up" he choked out. What, this cant be happening. He was my mate, my soul mate. I looked at his face, he meant it.

"Stiles, you don't me….. you don't mean that" I said unsuccessfully holding back my sobs.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to be in….. your life anymore" he said walking backwards towards his jeep. He drove off. I was going to stop him but I was so weak. His words were so painful. I could barely stand up anymore. He was my mate.

A few pain filled hours later, the whole pack and Sophie piled into my house urgently.

"What are you lot doing here? Leave now!" I shouted, yeah I was a bit harsh but I just lost my mate, I was allowed to be.

"Dude we got something important to tell you" Oh fine, whatever. I gestured my hand to say carry on. "It's about that weird smell that we have been smelling, we figured out it's Victor, the one that tried to kill you two years ago" He spat out.

"What no that's impossible" I said. We killed him.

"Well he confronted Isaac and told him that he's coming after your mate, Stiles" What he's after Stiles.

"Where is he anyway, he told me he was going to be with you this afternoon" Danny said looking confused.

"Oh I don't know, he came here and stayed here for just enough time to tell me that he doesn't love me and wants nothing more to do with me" I said hoping none of the pain realised how painful it was just to say that.

"Dude that can't be true he loves you more than anything" Scott said not believing what he heard.

Sophie was about to say something but then stopped and started again "Oh no, this is all my fault, Derek don't listen to what Stiles said, he does love you" She said holding her head. What did she mean by that?

"Oh yeah how do you know?" I asked crossing my arms across my chest.

"I'm going to lose my job for this but Stiles believes that because you never mentioned it to him that he's not your mate and that …. You were settling for him, Why would he think that?" she paused. "Derek don't you see he broke up with you because he couldn't stand the thought of you setting on him. He loves you too much for that"

So he really does love me, "Wait did you say that Victor is going after Stiles?" I panicked.

"Yeah so we got to go fin ….." Allison got cut off by my cell phone ringing.

It says Stiles

I answer It "Stiles we…." I got cut off.

"Well, well, well, I haven't heard that voice in about …. Two years, I have Stiles here, im sure he would love to say hello but hes a little …. tied up right now" a mans voice spoke, Its Victor.

"If you have hurt him in anyway, ill rip your throat out with my teeth" I screemed into the phone.

"Ha ha ha okay, but first you've got find me. I see you haven't claimed your mate yet Derek, why ever not he so cute. Ill give you an hour to find us because I'm feeling generous. Ask me what happens if you don't find us in time" he said in a manly voice.

"What?" I asked. I already knew the answer. He was going to kill him.

"Your mate becomes my mate, and when the hour is up im going to claim him so you can't, if you late he will never be your mate. Hey that rhymed let me try another, im going to fuck him to claim him and because of the werewolf law you will never be able to touch him again, well that didn't rhymed but it sure hurt didn't it?" no I cant let him claim Stiles, its true I wouldn't even be able to shake his hand again. That's why I never metioned about mates to Stiles because it means he wouldn't have the choice to leave, he would be mine forever. Even though I want that I wanted him to have a choice so that he could leave if he wanted to.

And now I'm going to lose him forever.