Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.
Warnings: Angst, OOC, possible death/deaths.
Pairings: L/Raito
Summary: Only if things were different, L and Raito could have a perfect relationship. What will be their choices when they only want to be together?
Notes: Here is the second alter ending. Hope you enjoy. Please tell me what you think.
The entire task force was back in action, hunting down the final Kira; they would ever have to deal with. However, there was dead silence. No cheerful voices. No arguments. No insults. Nothing at all but silence. And that drove some of the team members crazy.
L stares at the empty seat beside him, missing the one person who fulfilled his life with some kind of meaning. It didn't take long for him to pin point the whereabouts of the third Kira. Raito did a lot to give them the information needed for it. This tears down his walls he built around himself. As he glances around the room, he sighs out, "I have informed the government."
Without lifting his head to look at the lead detective, Yagami mumbles out his question, "What do they want to do?"
"They wish to give the death plenty." L answers with that emotionless voice.
No one could say a word about the decision. They all agreed that would be the punishment for Kira when found. It hurts to find out one of their own is Kira. Only if time could be altered. It can't no matter how much people wish for it to be. And two young men will suffer the most.
"Then I resign of being chief of police." Yagami retorts. "I no longer have the right to be an officer of the law when it is my own son who has done these evil acts."
L doesn't say a word but stands up. Anger, pain, betrayal raise inside of him. Too many emotions all at once for him to handle. Leaving the members alone, he heads back to his own peace; to Raito. When he stares inside, he wants Raito to take back those words. Honey eyes look over at him and the teenager gives him a tired smile. He can tell it is fake. Opening the cell door, stepping inside, he inquires, "Who would have won if Raito did not confess?"
Their world is crumbling. Their rivalry is strong that breaks them apart. Only if one of them would falter. But that happened and they are broken. Their hearts can never mend after this. One of them will die and the other will live with the guilt of taking their loved one's life.
Raito answers, "If I am piecing my plan together correctly, then I would have won."
Pushing Raito down hard onto the small cot, L leans over the one who he loves but also hates. Those eyes stare up at him blankly, letting him have anything he wants; pleasure or pain. His choice. His control. As he caresses the soft features on Raito's face, he mutters, "This was doomed from the start."
"Doomed to failure." Raito finishes the thought L withheld.
Yes, one of them will die soon. It is in each other's eyes that show the other it will be final. But their heart cries out in pain even if their minds are fighting down the emotions. Memories are just part of a past and they both hate their past. It was another thing they had in common.
Raito asks, "Did my father resign?" There really isn't a reason for that question to be asked since he already knows the answer. His father would chose work over him; he always did.
Seeing the trance of hurt, L leans down and kisses those sweet lips. He will not answer since he is aware his young lover already knows the answer. When their farewell kiss is broken, he sighs out, "This is L's final case."
Life is cruel. How can two people so much in love be separated so easily? It is not fair, but it is happening before their eyes. Their love might be strong but not strong enough to over come the world. Only if they could end their deadly rivalry. Only if the world was perfect. Only if they met differently.
"Watch it." Raito whispers. "Take it with you."
Standing up to stare into his enemy's eyes, L nods his head in full understanding. They never had to explain things to each other. They knew the answer. When he turns his back, he sees agents. It is over. The court will decided Raito's fate now. He watches his lover not even struggle. There is no fear in honey eyes at all. After they leave, the detective collapses onto the floor with tears falling and sobbing, "Raito."
A beautiful lie was destroyed. Lies don't last long even though they both knew how to do it so well. The best in that field. They hid the truth behind masks full of deceits. Is it possible their love was another fib created to hide? Maybe or maybe not. It would never be easy to tell. Neither ever said those three little words that would mean everything to someone else. It was just never them. Only if they could have said those words to each. Only if this wasn't the end.
Three days later, the third Kira is caught but dies suddenly. Everyone wanted to know answers but no one had any to give. How could they explain if they weren't sure themselves? Now L sits in a hard chair, legs pulled up close to his chest and eyes wide to not miss even one little detail. The rest of the task force is in the same white room and he sends a heated glare at the calm Yagami. It upsets him that a father would not even show an expression of pain for his son.
A man asks, "Any last words?"
Never dropping his mask of deceit, Raito mumbles, "I'm sorry, Ryuu."
Eyes meet between a two-way mirror. Raito who can't see the other but can feel his lover there. L who stares into unmasked eyes to find the answers he always sought. They were in love. That was real for both of them and it wasn't another fib to add to their many.
L whispers even though Raito will never hear him, "I believe you."
That was the closest they will ever say 'I love you' to each other. Death is something they both feared but also welcomed. Now, Raito has his final wish; his demise. L is alone once again. Only if they could have been together sooner, long before Kira appeared. Maybe, just maybe they would still be together.
The death of his first friend, his first lover is pronounced at 12:10 am. It is all he could do without letting his sorrow flow through his face. Standing up, L walks out of the room to only have a hand land on his shoulder. When he sees it being Yagami, he growls out dangerously, "Do not touch me."
Like burned from the touch, Yagami pulls back with shock on his face. He asks, "Was it true?"
"I have killed my first friend and my first lover." L states evenly. "Now I will have to live with that."
The special task force on the Kira Case couldn't say a word. They just let the greatest detective in the world walk away. Somewhere inside of all of them they felt pity for their leader.
Hours later, L stares out the large window of the hotel to watch the sun raise. How many times did Raito and he watch it together? When he notices Watari standing there, he whispers, "Back home it would seem."
Watari responds, "That would be a good idea. I am sorry L."
Dismissing his care taker, L sits down on the couch and stares down at two black books.
A dark chuckle rings out, "Hyuk. Hyuk. Can't believe this is how it ends. Humans are truly interesting. Don't you agree, Rem?"
Tilting his head back, L answers for Rem, "Interesting indeed. To have a perfect normal person to become a killer is something interesting. To have his own lover be the death of him."
10… 9… 8…
"What going to happen next?" Ryuk asks while floating around. "Will you carry on Raito's plan?"
7… 6… 5…
Rem sneers out, "Forfeit my death note. I do not wish to stay here with a filthy human like you, L Lawliet."
4… 3… 2…
Dropping a lighter onto the death notes to watch them burn, L chocks out, "My Raito. It would seem we have the same fate."
1…
While the death note burns to ashes, L crumbles to the floor in pain. Only if it could have been different. Only if Raito and him were never enemies. Only ifs… Now the end is here for two brilliant minds who only needed each other. Their fate is the same; death. And they will be together, since when a human uses the death note neither can go to heaven or hell, only nothingness.
The next day, Watari finds L deceased. What he finds in L's pale hand is something surprisingly. It is a piece of the death note with only two names.
'Raito Yagami dies a min before the lethal injection.'
'L Lawliet dies at seven in the morning the day after Raito Yagami dies, watching the sun rise.'
Only if everything was different. Only if right?
Notes: Here is the second alter ending. Please tell me what you think.