AFTER FIVE MONTHS
Chapter 5 – Finally Mine , Saturday 19th June
Chelsea
"Lila! Oh my god, you will never guess what!" I practically shouted down the phone. I heard my best friend Delilah, groan and roll over. Oops! I had completely forgotten it was 3:00 AM!
"Shellie…" I could just as well be talking to a zombie. "What is it now? Is my house burning down? If it isn't, tell me or else I'm hanging up right now…."
"Delilah Natalie Rivers! Are you not going to ask what I did yesterday after school?" I sounded genially shocked. I am a pretty good actress when I want to be.
"Oh fuck yes! Sorry, wait" She sounded very awake now. I heard her muttering to her boyfriend, William. They've been together nearly six months now. World record. Well, five months. Whatever. Everything is pretty much as it always was, but me and Hadley have drifted. Not exactly, drifted, she just hates Delilah. No real reason actually. I've also gotten closer to Autumn. She was always my good friend, but now we're all besties. Our looks haven't really changed, either, except perhaps we've grown up even more and so gotten an ever better sense of style. I always had a kind of dark style. You'll never ever catch me wearing pink and hardly ever anything bright. I don't even like dresses that much, most are too girly. My hair is dark red. It was kind a different kind of red when I met Delilah. She convinced me to switch to this color, which is more natural and much prettier anyway. Delilah has a very mixed style, but it's usually girly. She LOVES dresses and skirts and girly things but she loves the color black as well. Her hair is also a little different. It's blonder now and is more blonde rather than dirty blonde. I only just found out her hair is dyed. It's one of her deepest secrets and only me, Christine (her best friend from New York), Satine (her ex best friend from New York) and her family now. She still sees Christine a lot. She's a nice girl. Autumn is exactly the same as she always has been. Her style is mostly casual and sporty, as she is a sports fanatic.
Anyways, going back to my conversation with Delilah.
"Well, how did your date go?" Delilah asked impatiently. She is very, very impatient. She must get it from her boyfriend.
"Well…. we did. I'm telling you that. It went amazing, really. He's sleeping now and I just HAD to call you!" I practically squealed, but making sure that Jack couldn't hear me.
"Oh my god, Shellie! I am so glad for you, really I am…. Not to burst your bubble, but do you think you are jumping maybe a tad too early?" Delilah says, sounding concerned. Maybe she's right. I shake the feeling off. I'm feeling way too happy now. I told her she was being ridiculous so we dropped it and kept thinking about the happy side. I told her something I had been worrying about, something I'd ask only Delilah.
"Dude… what if I wasn't like, good enough? He's had tones of practice and I haven't really." I'm nervous while asking. I know she won't make fun of me outright but will she secretly pity me? Lila laughed. I waited anxiously. "No baby. Don't worry, I'm sure you were great. I hadn't had much before Will to tell you the truth. I had, just not much." I breathed out, relieved.
"But you didn't do anything with Will till like one month, no?" I say.
"That's cause I wasn't ready after my relationship with Kurt. Anyway, this is just Jack. He's not your soul mate or anything, he's just one another guy you're going to do. It's life honey and it's tough, isn't it? Like, I know Will isn't my soul mate, no matter how lovely he is!" She said confidently. Maybe Delilah doesn't think Will is her soul mate but Will really loves her, but he hasn't told her yet. She hasn't said anything of the sort to me. What if she doesn't love him back? But I think she does, even if she can't admit it to herself. Oh well, I should forget her for now.
I hung up and tiptoed back to my room, so as not to wake Jack. I saw him in my bed and my heart nearly burst out of my chest with joy. Finally!
Chapter 6 – Truly Madly Deeply, Sunday 20th June
Delilah
Oh god. I think I'm falling in love with him. I've denied it for so long, but in general, I'm open to my feelings and I try and admit them, then understand them. So, yes. I am in love with William. Crap, I just said it. Seems like me and Chelsea are going to become nocturnal. She called me yesterday night, at about 3:00 AM. She told me she had done it with Jack. I have to admit, I think that was really stupid of her. They have been flirting for a few weeks and Jack asked her for a drink after school ended for the summer holidays, on Friday. Basically, she had sex on the first date. Despite my craziness, it is one of my beliefs that you shouldn't do that. Oh well, we'll see how it goes. But Shellie loves Jack. She really does, I can see it and she's told me about a million times as well. He's just playing. Thank god I didn't fall for him.
I look at my clock. 4:37 AM. I roll over, frustrated. I take my Ipod and start listening to some music which is supposed to make me fall asleep, but I can't. I want to see Will. I need to tell him. Now. What if he's awake? He sometimes is. I could just call him and the worst thing that could happen is him waking up and I'm sure that'll be OK. I frequently call him late at night, just not this late. I take a deep breath and start dialing his number, but I chicken out so I just send him a text instead saying: R u awake? I miss u. xxL. I lie down and after a few minutes, my phone vibrates in my palm. I was kind of drifting off, but now I'm fully awake. He sent back: Yea, miss u 2. Meet up at the park in 10? xxW I snort with laughter, trying to keep quiet as I text back. U r crazy! Is nearly 5. I wait impatiently. My phone beeps again. Come on. I'll be there in 10. Up 2 u. He knows I can't resist him. The cute bastard. I pull on my shorts and I stay with my PJ top. I'm not bothered with a bra. Will's seen me in a worst state than this.
I sneak out of the back door, taking my cell with me, just in case. I'm running so it takes not even 2 minutes. He's already there, sitting under the tree we sat under the second time we kissed. He takes me in his arms and I happily think to myself how I've grown. Before I met Will, I thought the best place ever was Beverly Hills. Now I know that Will's arms are the best place to be. I don't even have to think about my answer. I'm glad Will isn't one of those guys who thinks sex is everything and kisses and hugs are just stupid. If I'm sad or anything, he hugs me and instantly I feel better. He knows if I'm in the mood or not. That's one of the many things I love about him. We quietly cuddle under the stars. The silence between me and Will is never awkward, only comfortable. I do love him. I do. I'm about to say it when he gives me the shock of my life. He say's it first.
"Lila. I was waiting for the perfect time to tell you. I've been trying to tell you for the past month, just I couldn't find the opportune moment. I love you. So much. You're everything. I won't go all corny and tell you I can't live without you. I can live without you, I can. I just don't want to. So please don't leave me, baby. If you feel all pressured into this, just tell me and I'll back off and we can go back to normal and…" I silenced him with my lips. I suddenly found tears pouring down my cheeks.
"I love you too," I managed to choke out. "I love you so much. I think I started loving you from the time we first kissed on that bed in the pile of coats" I smiled weakly and then hugged him again. I was finally home.