LONG CHAPTER IS LONG. orz. Oops, made Judai seductive. Anyways, sorry about the long chapter ;w;
"H-Hey! W-Where are you taking me? J-Judai!"
His emotions were mixed. He was dead-scared and thrilled.
Judai was holding his hand and had pulled him away from Manjoume and leading him into an alley. Fortunately, neither the fans nor Manjoume had found out where they went: They were practically hidden.
But then again, he was in an alley. With a guy who hadn't said a word ever since Johan had told him he was the violinist. His eyes just widened and suddenly pulled him by the hand - which Johan noticed Judai's skin was soft and warm.
"J-Judai?" Johan's voice slightly calmed as Judai stopped and let go of his hand. "J-Judai? W-Why did you take me here?" He was wondering if it was alright to just call him that.
Suddenly, Judai turned and pinned Johan to the wall. His head slowly raised to his eye-level. He slightly glared at Johan with hazy eyes.
"You," He started, his voice low. Johan's heart raced. "What's your name?"
Gulping, he replied, "J-Johan.. A-Andersen, s-sir!" The 'sir' made Judai chuckle darkly, almost seductively, which made Johan's face grow redder.
"Johan, eh," A slight evil glint appeared in his eyes. "Nice name." Johan's body heated up more.
"W-W-What do you want from me.." Johan's eyes saddened. He.. He couldn't believe he just said that, but he felt.. A weird feeling in his stomach.
Judai's eyes widened. "I-I-I.." Shaking his head, he leaned closer; So close Johan could inhale his scent, which smelt so nice. "Listen. What was that song you played? Where'd you learn it?"
"I-I d-don't know.." He averted his eyes; He really didn't know. "I-I just.. Played it one day when I was really upset. The.. The notes just flowed. I-I really didn't know what I was playing, but it turned out so.. Depressing; I loved it. I played it all the time now, and I just call it my sorrowful song.." His eyes half-closed, a little embarrassed.
Judai leaned closer as Johan's eyes hazed. "I see. I wonder why.. I knew those lyrics.. Anyways. Johan," His expression became serious. "I.. I feel this weird.. Connection with you. And I'm sure we haven't met before." His grasp on Johan's shoulders lifted - though Johan was a bit upset that he did - and let go.
"Judai.. Y-Yeah, I know what you mean." Johan sighed: He didn't know why, but he wasn't all that happy, even if Judai, his love, was with him. He proposed Judai didn't feel the same way he did, that he only cared about was the song, and probably wanted to make it a new hit single.
"..Why do you even care..?" He added coldly. His eyes hazed but stiffened.
Judai's eyes widened, gasping slightly. "I-I-I t-told you!" For once, he was the one stuttering. "Look, you know just as well as I do that we have something.. Special. That song is special. I swear I've never read those lyrics or performed them ever in my life. And it's only thanks to you that I know them. Not only that, but the song made me feel so.. Sad, I guess you could say, while singing it, but it felt good. But when you stopped.. I-I thought I was gonna.." He shook his head before quickly responding. "B-But when you stopped for good and I didn't see your face or know your name, I-I.. I broke down and cried. I don't know why."
Johan's eyes widened as well. 'He cried as well..?' A few seconds later, a cold look stiffened back on his face. "Let me guess, you're going to take the song for yourself so you can make it into a song for your album, and claim it as your work, am I right?"
"What..? Why would I do that?" Judai leaned closer, gazing deeply into his eyes with a half-worried look. "Johan, I want to know you. I don't care if I'm a famous singer, I want to know you. There's something.. Different about you. Look, meet me at the hotel's lobby I'm staying at with your violin later at midnight. Okay?"
"I-I-I-"
"Okay! I'll see you later!" With that, Judai smiled a goodbye and left Johan in the alley.
Johan just stared in confusion. Was this good? Or was this risky? Either way, he had a feeling he'd spend a lot more time with Judai, which made him happy. But a bitter feeling crept onto his heart saying that he'd get hurt soon..
Shaking his head, reminding himself that he was over thinking, Johan walked off, soon bumping into a short kid with blue hair and grey eyes.
"Who are you and what were you doing with Aniki!" The short one demanded, a slight angry pout on his face. His voice was high.
Johan blinked. "A-Aniki..?"
The boy nodded. "Judai! What did you do with him..?" His eyes widened in shock. "D-Don't tell me you.."
"No!" Johan screamed, a blush hardening on his face. D-Did the kid really think he and Judai..? "I would n-never do that sort of thing! I was just talking with Judai, I swear!" Thoughts of what he meant flushed through his head, making his blush deepen.
Pouting more, the shorter one added, "..Well, okay, but I don't fully trust you!" His eyes narrowed. "Don't do anything funny with my Aniki, alright?" With that, he stormed away, leaving Johan clueless and confused. Johan turned, his mind full of questions, and walked home, unknowingly even knowing he was walking.
"Confess to him,"
"Oh god, no!" His eyes widened and a silly blush appeared on Johan's face, again.
She rolled her eyes. "Johan, this may be your only chance. You've held it in for what- 3 years? I know it seems scary, but try! You never know." Asuka, one of Johan's childhood friends, smiled a soft, reassuring smile that eased his fears.
"But A-Asuka.. I don't want to. He'll think I'm a freak. I mean, think about it: A guy who's famous stumbles upon a violinist that's kind of good at playing a violin; they have a little connection and the next day the violinist comes out and says 'Oh, by the way, I've kinda loved you for 3 years, no big deal.' Yeah, that's not weird at all, Asuka." He said bluntly, an un-amused look on his face.
Sighing, Asuka closed her eyes, noting how stubborn Johan was. She looked down and saw his sapphire violin sparkling on the bed, smiling an idea to herself.
"Then use that to describe your feelings! Didn't you say you had a some-kind-of-love-song? Maybe you could play it to him and he'll understand. If he can understand your other song, don't you think he can understand any other song?"
His eyes widened more, the blush only deepening. "W-Wha-! I-I don't know! M-Maybe.." He averted his eyes, feeling embarrassed. "Asuka, we don't know why he knew the lyrics. That's what he probably wants to figure out tonight. So.. I'll tell you what happens at school tomorrow, alright?" He faked a smile, looking back down at his violin, plucking the strings ever-so-slightly.
"Alright, fine. Just don't wear yourself out tonight, okay? And be safe." She smiled a sweet smile and took her leave. Asuka had always been Johan's sister-figure in his life; She had always been by his side through good times and bad, and had always made him smile. Manjoume, whom he met in middle school, had always scold him for had never taking interest in her, though, he knew deep inside, he was happy that he didn't. Johan never.. Liked girls that way, but he never admitted it: Only Asuka knew the truth, and he trusted she would never tell. But what if Judai knew..? What if.. Judai knew he wasn't..
Mentally slapping himself, Johan fell back on his bed and stared at his clock on the wall to his right; 7:03pm. About five hours to go.
He sighed. Was this really the right choice? Well, trusting someone you just met didn't sound right.
'But I love him..' His heart kept telling him.
'But he doesn't love you...' His mind told him.
"Why me.. Why.. Why me..?" He closed his eyes and sighed sadly. True, he loved Judai, but this was all too much. Why now?
Suddenly he felt tired.. His body grew week and told him to sleep. His eyelids were too heavy to open. Johan's whole body fell into sleep.
12am.
He waited.
It was pitch black out, but the lobby was bright with lights.
Sighing, Judai sat down on one of the peach-coloured couches of the lobby, and stared blankly at the shiny tiled floor below. He wore comfy clothes; A plain red tank top and blue jeans.
He looked up at the clock on the wall: 12:13am. What if he didn't come? Thinking about it, he acted a bit.. Creepy. Pulling him into an alley? Pinning him against a wall? Smirking that way?
Judai slapped his forehead. "What was I thinking..? I probably scared him off.." He sighed again, and stood up. Johan probably wouldn't come.. What was the point of waiting? Judai turned to leave up the stairs, when he heard the Hotel's doors slide open..
"..J-Judai..?" That voice. The voice he was attracted to. Why was he attracted to his voice?
He turned to see Johan standing half-way from the door. He wore a light, short-sleeved white jacket that was open, exposing a short-sleeved black undershirt. His jeans were a grey-ish blue colour, and had a matching bracelet on his left wrist. Johan looked casual and comfortable, and Judai liked that: He didn't want people to dress up for him.
Johan also had glasses on, with a light blue frame. Since when did he need glasses…? Judai slightly blushed: He actually looked very professional and cute with them on.
He looked down and saw his violin case in his left hand. Judai's mouth curved into a small smile.
"Hi, Johan! Thanks for coming," He nodded and stepped closer to Johan. The other said nothing and just stared. Judai blinked awkwardly. "..Sh-Shall we go upstairs?"
Johan nodded, but still said nothing. It wasn't like he was annoyed or anything.. He just was out of words; What could he say to him? Nothing. He could just stare blankly and do whatever Judai said.
Judai sighed in sadness and led him up the stares. He wanted a friendship with Johan, and not.. Not this.
When they had gotten to the room, Judai put in the key and turned it, opening the door. It was dark. No one else was there with them; Judai had specifically asked to have the room to himself tonight. He closed the door behind him and watched as Johan quietly put down his violin on the bed and sat, staring up at Judai.
At that moment, he snapped.
"Are you alright? You aren't.. Acting yourself." He found himself saying. True, he didn't know how he acted casually, but the way Johan was acting was starting to annoy him. Johan blinked, half in happiness and half in confusion.
"I-I'm fine. I'm just.. Tired, is all.." He lied, but Judai didn't buy it.
"Really, Johan, I just want to be your friend, you can tell me anything!" He smiled and sat beside him.
"..Judai, why did you want me here? Especially.. Why at such a late time at night?" Johan felt himself move closer to his peer, unintentionally leaning in closer to Judai.
"No paparazzi. Just so we can have some alone time without flashing cameras. Really, a lot of people were questioning me after I.. Erm, pulled you away into an alley.." He laughed nervously. "S-Sorry, I was just really eager to talk to you,"
He looked down at the violin. "I wanted to.. I wanted to just.." He blushed hard, making Johan even more confused.
"I-I wanted to s-see you.. And hear you play it next to me.."
Johan's eyes widened, along with a blush. H-He wanted to w-what..?
"I'm sorry if it seems stupid! I-I'm sorry for bringing you out here for my stupid reason!" He curled up, hugging his knees to his chest and closed his eyes tightly. "Y-You can leave if you want.."
Johan was amazed: Judai was a regular person and didn't want to use him for anything. He merely felt a connection and wanted to be Johan's friend.
"N-No, I'll stay, I was just wondering-"
"Because you thought I was going to use you because I'm famous? No. I'm not like that. I really do wanna know you, but it's really hard to introduce myself when you're like me.. Anyways.." He uncurled himself and stared directly into his eyes. "I didn't know you had glasses."
Johan smiled a bit, feeling a casual conversation coming along. "Mm, I do. I don't like wearing them in public, and only really wear them at school."
Judai pouted. "But you look cute with them on..~" Johan blushed hard, slightly jumping aback. Judai laughed, adding, "I meant it as a compliment!"
Their conversations went on for a while, the two earning smiles and laughs from each other, to the point they were comfortable. Judai averted his eyes to the clock: 1:22am. They had been lost in talking for an hour. Even if it was an hour 'wasted', Judai loved it. He got to know Johan well and developed a friendship with him. He also noticed little things about him: How his eyes glow when he smiled, how his cheeks warmed up as he laughed, and how his voice actually changed over time. Johan didn't stutter as much anymore.
"So, I didn't ask. How old are you?" Judai blinked. He never thought about age differences between the two. Johan looked about the same age as him.. But he was taller and more.. Muscular. But Johan was very gentle and shy.
"Oh, I'm eighteen. I turned eighteen a few months ago, so I'm only in twelfth grade. And you?"
"I'm eighteen too, but.. I-I kinda had to drop out because of my career.." Judai looked down sadly. True, he was a bad student, but he still had fun with his friends.
Johan's eyebrows curved as he gently stroked Judai's cheek. "Oh.. I'm sorry to hear that.. I-It's okay, really! Now you're doing something fun you like, right..? And I bet you can make it up.. Maybe you can come to school here!" He laughed a bright laugh, but Judai didn't smile.
"No, I can't. Not enough time. I'm only here for about a week or so.." His voice held such a sad tone. He really didn't want to leave. Not now. Not when he had Johan..
Johan's eyes widened with shock and heartbreak. Now what? He was finally face-to-face with his love, friends with him, and now he has to say goodbye..? No. He couldn't take saying goodbye. He couldn't take it.
Judai turned to Johan, his eyes watering and his hands clamped around Johan's.
"I don't want to leave! I want to stay here! With you!" His eyes calmed as his shoulders slumped. "I-I'm sorry.. I-I just-It's rare for me to find someone that I can relate to anymore.. I-I don't want to let this friendship go.."
Johan stared, but gradually pushed Judai, whom was very close to him, away and picked up his violin case, opened it, brought out his violin, and held it against his cheek.
Judai's eyes darted to the sapphire violin, and saw how Johan always closed his eyes while playing. His eyes slightly widened: Johan was beautiful. And he meant that. Johan was gorgeous; Stunning. His eyes were breath-taking to him, literally, and his silky teal hair just cupped his face. His skin looked soft, it made Judai want to caress it. His heart skipped a beat while thinking about his perfection. Why, though? He was just stating facts. He didn't think of Johan in any other way.
Johan's armed moved up. A sound of harmony flowed along with his movement, but soon turned into a tearful tune. Judai felt.. Hypnotized. Watching him play it.. Felt so amazing. Johan's fingers moved swiftly but smoothly to match the strings. He felt a sting in his chest, both from the song and.. Johan. Johan just being there made his heart speed up. Why? Maybe.. Maybe it was the connection. But he felt such.. Passion in his heart when he thought about him. Thinking about him.. In such detail made his cheeks heat up, but..
When he had started singing, he didn't know. Did he care? No, he was busy staring at Johan. The teal haired one noticed this - although his eyes were closed, he could feel his look - and his playing started to shake. His hands for some reason shook, and his eyebrows curved in a cringing way. Why was he scared by a stare from Judai? No, it wasn't.. Fear, it was something different. Something.. More. It felt as hateful as a glare, but as gentle as a smile.
He opened his eyes, only to see Judai's eyes glowing in the dark with a blank stare on his face, still singing. Johan's playing became more and more unsteady, making the song sound horrid, like some kind of massacre. Judai's singing matched the tone, his voice becoming deeper and the lyrics became darker. Johan saw Judai's body.. Move closer. Or was it just an illusion? He didn't know, but suddenly the brunet seemed closer. He chose to ignore it, thinking it was just his mind. Emerald eyes closed, only to open a second later as he felt a shift of weight on the bed: Closer. He swore he was closer. Johan felt uncomfortable: He didn't like the way he was staring at him.
Johan stopped. Judai stopped. He put down his violin on the floor, and stared directly back into his friend's eyes. "Judai.. Why are you looking at me like that? It's.. creepy," The other was still and silent for a while, before he gently caressed the violinist's cheek. "J-Judai, w-what are you.." The other babbled as a dark red blush covered his cheeks.
Oh god, Johan's skin was soft. Judai's gaze stared down at something that caught his attention: His lips. They were light pink and looked.. Delicious. His own lips curved into a small smile as he cupped Johan's face with one hand, feeling how warm it was. The other opened his mouth to speak, but closed it, and closed his eyes as well. Johan could hear the bed sheets ruffling a bit, telling him Judai was moving closer..
"Johan.." The brunet breathed hot breath, his face just inches away from the violinist. "..Show me your true beauty.."
Johan twitched when he felt Judai's hot breath, but slowly opened his eyes, leaning a bit closer then he should have towards the other. "M-My beauty.. You can't see it."
The other raised an eyebrow, encouraging him to go on. Johan smirked a bit, both aroused and teased. "You'll just have to find out.." He licked his lips seductively.
Then Judai lost it.
He leaned in quickly and pressed his lips against the violinist - his violinist. Johan's eyes widen as he felt the warmth of Judai's mouth on his, but softened and slowly closed as he gradually kissed back happily.
Judai pushed Johan back down on the bed, climbing on top of him, still not breaking the kiss. He sat up on his abdomen, unknowingly rubbing his bottom against Johan's body, which caused the other boy to moan slightly, and Judai loved it.
The kiss deepened as Johan slid his tongue in the singer's mouth as his hands explored his back. He wanted control. His tongue rubbed against Judai's and covered his mouth with his own saliva. Judai moaned slightly and bit back a surprised gasp; Johan quickly picked Judai up and placed him under him, hovering over his body.
This was wrong. All wrong. Why did Judai like this? It was wrong..! He was kissing a guy. Not only that, a guy he just met. But Johan was his violinist.. He couldn't help it! Johan was.. Perfect. Flawless. And Judai wanted to be like that.
The world spun around them and they lost track of time. Judai didn't even realize they had fell asleep until he woke up the next morning. He glanced up at the clock: 6:04am. He sighed in relief: He had to be ready by 8am.
Wait, where was Johan? He looked around but couldn't find him, but then remembered last night. His eyes widened.
'O-Oh god.. D-Don't tell me we-' The brunet looked down quickly and saw he still had his clothes on, to his relief, but then noticed a pair of strong arms around his waist..
Johan. He was asleep still, holding Judai by the waist, smiling so innocently. He.. He shouldn't wake him up, but..
"J-Johan, wake up.." He gently shook his friend. "I-It's morning, w-we fell asleep.." Oh, god this was going to be awkward. Judai basically attacked Johan with his lips last night. But then again, Johan seemed like he loved it.
Suddenly, a pair of emerald eyes slowly opened, staring tiredly into chocolate eyes. "Good morning, Judai-" His eyes widened and pulled back quickly, standing up with a panicked look. "Wait, good morning? W-What? W-What happened? W-Why was I in your bed? Oh, god I'm sorry Juda-"
"Johan! Johan! Calm down, it's okay! Look, it was my fault, I was the one who randomly kissed yo-"
"But I liked it!" Did he just-oops.
Judai's eyes widened. "O-Oh, I-I see.. Anyways, can we just.. Forget about last night?" He frowned. Honestly, he enjoyed it, but.. He didn't want to ruin the friendship.
Johan frowned sadly. "O-Okay. I better go, you s-"
"No, stay, we have 2 hours before the paparazzi is around. I want to talk to you, actually. About what I was going to say last night," Johan nodded to gesture him to go on. "Okay, first of all, we need to see each other more often; Possibly every night. If this connection-thing is real, I'm staying here."
"W-Wait, staying here?" Johan blinked. Was he going to give up his career for him..?
Judai nodded. "Yes. Staying here with you. But anyways, I have a question.." The other raised an eyebrow. "Will you.. Let me hold your violin?"
Johan blinked. "Erm, okay." He looked at the side of the bed and saw his violin, still out and ready to play. He picked it up and handed it to Judai, who hesitatingly took it with two hands.
Judai's eyes changed. They hazed and became much lighter, almost daring to go gold. He gently touched the smooth surface of the sapphire violin, gliding his hand up and plucked the strings. Yes.. This felt right. He closed his eyes, having a something flash into his eyes.. What was that..? It seemed like a.. memory..? His eyes widened and burst open.
"I know you."
WELL THEN. No, they didn't have... Ehe. Everything will be -hopefully- explained in the next chapter..~
Which will be late. c': Going to write a starshipping fic~