Finn's POV
I woke up at around 11:30. I thought the timing was perfect. I was really eager to see Sam. I was all full of glee. I was too excited in fact, I knew for a fact that I was smiling like a dork. I did my usual routine. Pick out clothes, brush my teeth, shower and then obviously put on clothes. By the time I was done it was 12:30. I was known for taking a long time in the bathroom. I grabbed my jacket, my wallet, my keys and my phone. I headed downstairs to see Kurt and my Mom in the kitchen.
"Someone slept in today", Kurt said.
"Well, I stayed up for a while last night", I replied.
"You have any plans today" My mom asked.
"Uh, yeah. I'm going to hang out with Sam for a while. I'm meeting up with him at the park", I avoided eye contact with Kurt. I pretty much told him I'm gay and I love Sam last night.
"Well, just be home for dinner, okay", mom told me.
"Okay", I turned for the front door. I wanted to see Sam so badly. When I got to the door, Kurt grabbed me by the arm. I didn't know what he wanted. But he was going to bug me about this.
"What are you and Sam really doing?" He said in a whisper.
"I just want to talk to him Kurt. I need to know what's going on. This is really confusing for me", I said.
"Alright, just let me know what happens", he walked away after he said that.
Kurt means well, but I'm not going to lie. I feel like he smothers me more than my mom does. He always needs to know more information and know every little detail.
I got into my truck, and headed to the park. I didn't know what to expect when I got there. I didn't even know if he was still going. I mean, last night he seemed unsure about the whole thing. But I really needed to talk to him.
I pulled into the parking lot, today it was unusually warm. I mean there were kids everywhere playing through the little water park in the center of the park. I got out of my car and started walking through the park. I checked the time to see that it was 12:56. I had 4 minutes to think about what I was going to say. I sat on a bench, in the shade. I just sat there and waited.
People kept walking by me, but none of them were Sam. I was starting think he wasn't going to show. Was he that embarrassed about what happened? I was about to give up. It was 1:10. He was 10 minutes late. I got up and started walking to my car.
"Hey! Where you going", A voice said.
I turned to see Sam right behind me. He was wearing a Red V-Neck Shirt and dark denim jeans with Black sunglasses. He was so stylish. But anyways.
"I thought you weren't going to show dude", I said
"Sorry, I walked here, I just live like 5 minutes away", he said
"Oh, cool", I said.
"Why did you want to meet at the park? Out of all places?" he asked.
"Oh, uh, I don't know. Did you want to go somewhere else?" I asked.
"I'd prefer a place with air conditioning. We can go to my house, is that cool?" he asked.
"Yeah, sure, but can we drive over, so I don't have to worry about my car getting stolen?" I said.
"Sure", Sam turned toward the parking lot and I followed.
We got to my car, and we drove to Sam's house. He lived in Lima Estates. Quinn and Mike also lived there. Sam's house was huge. Bigger than mine. I was a little jealous. When I pulled up on to the driveway, I realized I was the only car parked. I looked at him.
"Where are your parents?" I asked.
"My parents are out of town. So I have the house to myself for a week", he explained.
Could this be any perfect? His parents were absent. I was curious what was going to happen while I was here. He opened the garage door, and led me through the house and we ended up in the living room.
"Make yourself at home dude", he said and left for the kitchen
I just walked around his living room. His family had this shelf above the fireplace that was filled with family photos. Sam seemed to have a pretty big family. Most of them were girls. His sisters were attractive. But I didn't play for their team.
"Do you want anything to drink Finn?" he shouted from the kitchen.
"Uh, um, Water's fine" I shouted back.
I sat on the couch. One of the most comfortable couches I've ever sat on. Sam walked in handing me my glass of water.
"Your house is really nice", I said to him.
"Thanks, I guess", He said. "You uh, wanted to talk to me about something."
I put my glass down on a coaster, and wiped off any wet spots on my mouth. "Uh, yeah. Sam. I wanted to talk about what happened last night."
"What happened last night? I honestly don't remember", He said. It did sound like he didn't know what I was talking about. But he could be faking and just pretending like he didn't know when he really did.
"We almost kissed dude. I don't know if you meant for that to happen. I mean, you leaned in first but I don't know", I said.
"Finn, I'm going to tell you something. I'm not gay. Okay, I'm just…", he stopped.
"You're confused? And that's okay", I said to him.
"No dude. I'm not confused. I was just, messed up from the atmosphere of the party. I wasn't myself", he said.
"But it seemed like you wanted to kiss me", I told him.
"Finn, let this go! I'm not a queer like you, just drop it!" he yelled.
I was hurt. Yes, I'm queer, but he didn't have to use that word. I got up and started to walk away from him.
"Finn, wait, don't go. Listen, I'm sorry. I'm just not ready to deal with this whole me almost kissing you situation." He told me.
"So you do you remember", I said to him.
"Yes Finn. I do remember. I just don't want to remember", he said. He sat down on the couch and sighed.
I sat right down next to him, "What's wrong man?"
"Finn, I'm not going to lie and say that I didn't want to kiss you, because, I did. I'm going through this dry spell thing with Quinn. We never kiss, hug, we don't even hold hands anymore. It's like she doesn't want to be touched. All I wanted, was to have someone take me in their arms and let me love them and love me back. Is that too much to ask for?" He said.
"No. Not at all. I know exactly how you feel", I said. "Can I ask you something though", I asked.
He turned and nodded his head yes.
"If you're not gay, then what do you call yourself?" it was a stupid question, I don't know what his reaction would be.
"That's a damn good question Finn. Back in my boarding school days, I was into guys so I pretty much called myself gay back then. But now, I don't know who I like and what I like" he said.
"So you're Bi?" I asked.
"If that's what you want to call it, then yes", he sunk his head and looked to the ground.
I poked his arm to get his attention, "You know we never got to finish that kiss", I said.
He turned his head and smiled, "I know, it's such a shame".
I moved in a little closer, he moved towards me. I stroked his face, and put my hand around his waist, I leaned in, he leaned in, right when I was getting what I wanted….
(DING DONG)
"Seriously", his words were in a whisper and his breath touched my lips.
"Just ignore it", I whispered back. I tried pulling him back for the kiss, but he got up to answer the door.
He went to the door, I heard a familiar voice. It was Quinn. She wanted hang out with him. But he told her that he had other things to do. She got mad, Sam hated when she got mad. He told her that he'd be over at her house in an hour, she left and he closed the door. He came back to the living room.
"Sorry about her, now, where were we?" He asked.
"Sam, I'm going to go", I grabbed my keys and got up off the couch.
"Don't go Finn", he said.
"I'll see you at school dude", I walked away.
"Finn", he stopped right there.
Sam looked sad when I left. It's like he really wanted me to stay. Part of me wanted to stay too but I couldn't. He had a girlfriend. I was gay. I didn't want him to cheat on her with me. I know how it feels to get cheated on, and it's not a good feeling. I didn't want to wish that on Quinn. Even though she can be a bitch at times, she does deserve someone to love her. Even if it's the person that I love. I just wanted to go home, and just forget about today, which I knew for a fact that I couldn't erase from my brain.