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Charlie went and got an aspirin for her headache while Joey got dressed. Charlie decided to take a chance and see if maybe Joey wanted to have lunch with her today. "I would… but I already have plans." She tried to hold her composer but knowing that Joey could tell she was disappointed. "Rain check?" Joey gave her a smile and Charlie returned the smile.
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Charlie took a bite of her toast as Ruby came in the kitchen. "Where were you last night?" Charlie's cheeks burned red, she wasn't sure what to say. "I… um…. I….I drank just a little too much last night and passed out on Joey's bed. My bed wasn't made so she left me there." Ruby gave her a sympathetic smile. She knew that Charlie had been acting strangely lately, like she was only half there, like her mind was always somewhere else. Ruby, truthfully had been really worried about her. "What would you do without Joey?" Ruby asked. If only she knew…
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Joey was running late for her lunch with Tracey. She was meant to be there 10 minutes ago. After arriving, apologizing and agreeing to have lunch on the beach, they walked to grab lunch from the diner before heading to the beach. As she ate her tuna salad sandwich, Tracey grabbed a hold of her hand. It didn't send tingles through her body like when Charlie held her hand. Joey wished more than anything she could feel what she feels with Charlie, with Tracey but she didn't.
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Charlie couldn't take her eyes off the clock. She knew where Joey was and she knew who she was with and more than anything she knew that they could be doing what she wished she'd done with Joey. Kissed her, held her, made love to her. She couldn't take it any longer, as much as she didn't want to run into Joey and Tracey, she had to get out of her office and clear her head. As she grabbed a salad sandwich, and headed to the beach, near the docks where Joey had taken her on Alf's boat for their picnic. She stared at the ocean trying to figure out what was going on inside her head. She had feelings for Joey, didn't she? Her head was telling her that that was stupid and that she was just acting on Joey's feeling for her, but her heart was telling her that she was in love with Joey.
She stopped dead in her tracks when she Joey and Tracey together on the beach again. Was this de juvu? There they were talking and laughing. As much as she wanted to turn around and run the other way, she wouldn't, she couldn't. She walked up to them giving Joey a smile before asking to join them. Joey agreed quickly, she looked happy and relieved to see her unlike Tracey who was sending her glares, while she sat next to Joey on the sand.
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Joey was glad that Charlie had interrupted her lunch with Tracey; truthfully Charlie was all that had been on her mind. She noticed that she was still holding hands with Tracey.
She quickly retracted her hand trying not to seem rude. Charlie looked deep into Joey's eyes and for a second everything felt right, but she quickly glanced at the sea.
Did she really want to give up on Charlie? Had she really broken her heart so badly that she could never be with her? She loved Charlie wasn't that enough?
Trying to make small talk for the next hour was awkward but it was better than not being with Charlie at all.
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Charlie was making an effort to be friends with Tracey, she was but all she could think about was Joey, there first kiss, the time on the boat, the kiss that morning. All this time she was spending with Tracey though, made her sad. She seemed nice enough, even though she did give her the odd glare, she would have been great for Joey but the thought of Joey with anyone that wasn't her made her want to throw up. Charlie excused herself and started to walk along the beach. She was devastated, it was so clear now. Joey had moved on, moved on with Tracey.
She sat on the beach, crying for hours. Forgetting all about work, her mind was consumed with thoughts of losing the love of her life. She headed towards the Surf Club.
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Charlie drank for hours, trying to fill the void; Joey had left in her heart. Hugo asked to join her after the first three beers. Hugo talked for an hours and Charlie just nodded not listening to what he was saying. She was getting more and more tipsy. She had already drank another two beers since Hugo started talking. She grew more and more tipsy as the time wore on. "Do you want to know a secret?" She giggled to Hugo. Before he even had a chance to speak she said, "I'm in love," Hugo was a little taken back. They gone out a couple of times but it always felt as though Charlie was pushing him away. Charlie started again, "I'm… I'm… in love with Joey." Hugo looked at her in shock, unsure of how to react. Charlie was gay? Hugo looked at her blankly as she started to ramble, "Joey… loved me….. Ashamed……… Tracey," Hugo could barely understand what she was saying. She started crying, sobbing. He hugged her, "She'll never love me now." She sobbed into his shoulder. He steadied a distraught Charlie on her feet as she continued to cry. She sobbed and sobbed as he put her in his car and drove her home. She continued crying, "how did this happen? How did I lose her?" When they pulled into Leah's he tried to calm her down and walked her into the house. It was late, around 12. No one else was up. "Joey… Joey…" she started to call.