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Chapter 3: Assumptions
She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's
Gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry
Push
By Matchbox Twenty.
BPOV
I felt the repulsive vile burn up my throat as I raced up the stairs into the bathroom.
I got there just in time. I felt the cold sweated spasms run violently through my body as I got rid of everything I could possibly have in my stomach.
I laid my head on the toilet seat and fought to swallow the sobs that tried to escape from my mouth. My mind was at a loss for what had just taken place not less than minutes ago.
He saw me and not just some fabricated pretense of me either..
No, Edward Cullen had witnessed the me that lies under the surface. The me that no one saw because this vulnerable broke person exist only after a dreaded black out.
And I was furious!
Who the hell was he? He had no right to gawk at me from his window like I was some kind of fucking show...a freak show!
And I just knew somehow that he had seen everything...heard everything.
Dread filled my body. What now? What would he make of this? Would he go tell all his friends about the ridiculous girl who broke down in her front yard? Would he know how I got hurt?
No.
He couldn't possibly know how...
He would never even think of it. To everyone Phil was a well-rounded family man that co-owned the body shop with Billy black in La Push.
He worked hard for his girls, picking up the pieces after Beloved father and husband passed away, trying to give them the best he could...
But didn't they see? That beneath the surface was a disgusting excuse for a human being? Can't they tell, that his late nights working at the shop are really private meetings with a bottle of his favorite poison? Don't they know, that he comes home piss drunk and violent..Seeking out defenseless victims to take out his anger on?
Do they know that, that person is me?
No. People are oblivious and gullible.. They believe the lie. It's the easy way out.
No one believed he was capable of doing anything harmful his troubled step daughter... And after news broke out that I had attempted suicide the chances of being taken seriously were doubtful.
So what happens now?
The sound of my phone beeping brings me out of my thoughts and up to my feet. My alarm tells me its 6:30 now.
I have to get myself together. Nothing's changed. Edward seeing me broken is nothing less than humiliating, but I'll get over it. He won't say a word and I'll find a way to make sure of that. Even though no one had believed me...things might be different if they hear it from Edward, they would take his words seriously. And I can't have that.
Getting ready for school took less than five minutes...let's just say I don't dress to impress. My abdomen was still hurting and it was starting to turn a light purple... Pain killers were my savior. Relief filled me once they settled in my system.
I quickly but carefully go down to the kitchen and get breakfast started. Eggs, bacon, toast and waffles. I get the coffee going and set two plates full of food on the table. I look around frantically wondering if there's something I missed...
"Bella don't just stand there make yourself useful...get me some syrup." Phil grunted as he sat down at the table.
"Yes Phil.I'm sorry." I hoped he would hear the sincerity in my words...because I honestly was sorry...sorry that he was a worthless piece of shit..
"Good morning Isabella! Did you sleep well dear"? I turn to look at my mother...With a blank face I face her so the bags under my eyes and fizziness of my hair and my drooping eyes will hopefully answer her question.
"Well...everything looks delicious Bella. Why don't you come eat something with us"? Her voice full of regret...I can only imagine it's for everything that'd endured in this house..She feels remorse for what I go through...but yet she never does anything about it. She uses that same tone very morning.
"No. Go to school." Phil said giving Rene a pointed look.
I wasn't about to argue with him...I wasn't above taking orders..I nodded picked up my backpack and left without a goodbye.
The purr of Edwards Volvo could be heard from here and I kept my head down at all cost . Once I got into my rustic truck I did not hesitate to leave quickly. Only realize that a shiny Volvo was behind me...yheaa what a coincidence we left at the same time.
I pull into my usual parking spot at the back of the lot where no one ever parks and shut of the engine..
I open my door and hit hit a car next to me.
I look in horror at the car door I just hit...the door of a shiny Volvo
"Ohmygod I am so sorry...I didn't see you pull up and no one parks here, I'll fix it! It's just a scratch no dent..."I rambled like a dumbass, it's probably the most I've ever said to Edward Cullen .
I look up to see him watching me with a look of disbelieve in his eyes
He didn't say anything and neither did I, this was uncomfortable and the humiliation of him seeing me last night reminds of why he followed me anyway.
"Let me just say..."
"Do you want to..."
We both started talking at the same time... Edward chuckled nervously. But I wasn't amused. Whatever conversation he wanted to start I knew would not end well...
"You first," he said quietly.
I took a deep breath closed my eyes and crossed my arms.. When I opened my eye I knew they would be blank and empty. I had mastered this skill to perfection.
"Let me just say that just because you saw me last night don't think you can hold this over my head forever. How dare you just watch me like I'm a freak show? Did you get a good laugh out of it?. Don't answer that..but I will ask that you not say anything to anyone. I don't know what you want from me. But I do know you want something, you didn't come park next to me just to say hello..so what is it gonna take to make you forget last night ever even happened"? I breathing hard mad sure to let him know what my eyes just how much I disliked him at this moment.
He seemed shocked by my outburst and his mouth opened and closed about a dozen times...
His features then turned into one disgust...
Wow. I know I wasn't liked, but the fact that he found me disgusting hurt more than it should.
"You done even know me"! He blew up! My eyes widened at his outburst.
"You just fucking assume I enjoyed watching you that way last night? You think I was going blackmail you with this? I know i rarely talk to you and when I do I tease you a bit- I'm sorry for that- but what did I ever do to make you think I'm a fucking monster like that"?
I was taken aback by what we said...I felt regretful of what I had said, because he really did look hurt at my assumptions of him.
And then I felt angry again. Angry that intentionally or not. He still saw what he saw…He could have looked away…But I didn't tell him that. I was done talking about this. I was letting myself feel too much. It's always safer to hide behind empty eyes.
"look I just assumed... Just forget it then. Forget what I said And forget last night." and with that I walked away. Because really where was this conversation really going? I believed that he wouldn't say anything, so if he was half the guy he claimed to be he would respect my wished and let it go.
Once I got into the building I made sure to keep my face blank and my head down.
I reached my locker and pulled out my English book but It was knocked out of my hand. I looked up to see mike with his face in his locker laughing...
I slowly bent down to pick it up but as I went to stand up he knocked it back down.
This time his hand hit the side of my jaw just before he hit my book.
I stood there frozen...I felt my mind shutting down slowly and I Frantically tried to stop it! This can't happen here! My eyes stung with tears that I fought back quickly...but the words that came out of mikes mouth were my lifeline.
"shit! I'm so sorry! I..didn't mean to I swear! It was an accident sawn I swear"! And accident...
It was an accident..
He didn't mean to..
I could hear it in his voice.
A small smile played on my lips and I nodded.
"yhea..and accident not intentional. It's fine..thank you mike." I said quietly. I close my locker and walked away..
"thank you...For what"? I heard him call after me in confusion.
My smile grew.
My jaw was numb.
There was no pain.
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