Finally The Chapter You All Longed For

Danny and Rachel meet again...

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MikyMcfly

-Chapter Three-

-Hard To Forget-

Two hearts beating at once… you just stare into my eyes for what seems a couple of good minutes. You keep your mouth shut while watching me… like me after all. When we were together that was the best way to speak, speak without saying anything at all.

This, however is not the case; this time we need to talk, shout, scream whatever… just talk to me.

'So that's where you've been hiding in the past year…' you finally whisper, I could see your eyes already filling up with tears. Is it supposed to be so damn hard to meet again?

'I haven't been hiding Danny.' I snap dryly; you just don't need to be so harsh with me.

'One year… it's crazy how times fly by. It all seems just yesterday to me.' You say; you just won't let that particular behind… you need once again to make me feel bad for what I did.

'You haven't called me.' I finally blurt out, puzzled myself of the reason why I told it to you.

'I never though you wanted to hear me… after all I did.' you reply, amazing me for your coolness; you're changed. I can see that because you look wearier and experienced… you're the same old Danny though.

'I never stopped loving you Danny… I just couldn't cope with what you put me through. I thought we could be at least friends or something but now it's just too late to patch things up again.' I say, a little note of stiffness in my croaking voice. It's just so damn hard speaking to you again.

'Who is telling you that I want to patch things up again Rachel? You left me heartbroken and alone… you put me through misery for months and months. I don't wanna go through that again.' You answer; repelling the urge of shouting to me in the middle of the street. I can tell you're hurting.

'You're just the same Danny… making a scene when there is no need for one.' I hiss angrily, that's the way you greet me after a year of absence?

'I never asked to bump into you Rachel…' you finally breath as I watch the little cloud exiting from your mouth. It's cold outside but the cold I'm feeling in my heart is way more painful than everything else.

I try to retort something, just blurt some insults or whatever passes through my brain but instead, I turn away and run. Run away from the pain of seeing you again so angry, of seeing you so unenthusiastic to meet me again.

I can't say that I haven't been dreaming for this moment since the day I left you; we would meet up again like old friends and drink a coffee or something… I don't know.

Of all the possible things I could have imagined I never actually believed in this reaction… this angry and resentful reaction.

I look behind my shoulders and I see that you're not behind me… you once again, didn't even try to stop me from running away. Probably you looked forward to hurt me like I did to you.

I can't blame you after all of holding this grudge to me, but after a year, it just seems exaggerate.

So this is where we part forever? This is where we decide to leave all the memories aside and forget all about each other? I'm sorry Danny I can't do this… I need to tell you how I'm feeling.

After a little moment of doubt I decide to run back to where we were talking only to find that you left, along with your footprints in the delicate, white snow.

Anxiously, I get on my feet once again and run… run to where your footprints lead me. Apparently there is no one else beside me and you on the street today.

Then I see you… you're walking slowly, umbrella in your hand. I examine your walk now… it's different from what it used to be. You're… limping.

'Danny!' I cry, pitifully trying to catch your attention… but you don't hear me, or at least you pretend not to hear me.

'Danny?!" I cry again… trying to cover my eyes from the snow storming furiously.

You finally turn around but I can't see you clearly now… you stop and seem to be staring at me.

'I'm sorry ok?! I'm sorry if I treated you bad or hurt you… I never wanted you to be miserable! I'm sorry Danny… I'm so sorry…' I sob, watching him stand still where he stopped; it's all worthless… Danny won't just talk to me.

Just when I started giving up I see your figure walking towards me… what are you trying to do?

Now we're face to face… those unsaid words ringing in our ears as we stab each other with our sharp looks.

Unexpectedly you pull me into a hug, a warm embrace to shelter me from the storm and everything… I missed you so much Danny.

We stay like this for a couple of minutes, holding each other in the middle of that furious snowstorm that seems to blow us away… but we're stronger than it now, aren't we Danny?

You gently play with my hair… I feel your breath on the top of my head; you're still bigger than me. An urgent desire to kiss you possess my brain, and I'm on the way to do it when I remember who I'm trying to kiss… you are Danny for goodness sake; Danny the guy I left.

'I'm sorry too Rach… I never had the real chance to tell you that.' You whisper, sticking your incredible blue eyes in my green ones.

'It's ok…' I breathe, not wanting to part from him; I'm getting drunk on his scent.

'I changed you know? I got some sense since we last saw each other; you woke me up Rach.' You say to me, hoping maybe to do a little more than just hugging… I can see the same glitter of desire in your eyes; but we can't… I can't do this to Jason.

'I've got a boyfriend Danny…' I finally hiss lowering my gaze more, trying not to look at you in the eyes; I know that would give me away.

You say nothing… you just gag like a fish out of water. I know Danny; I know how you are feeling now.

Your grip on me becomes tighter and tighter, you're almost trying to squeeze me now.

'Oh…' he replies after what seems hours, a gaze full of disappointment makes me feel bad.

'But we can be friends right??' I ask; a note of desperate hope in my squeaky words.

'I guess we can…' you reply now a little less enthusiastic.

'In case you're wondering… his name's Jason.' I say, reading your mind.

'I just don't understand Rachel… didn't you say that you loved me still?' you ask, searching for the meaning in the words I previously told you… I guess you mislead my real intentions.

'Loved you… until Jason came along. I know you would like him… he's a great man Danny.' I say, trying to smile a bit, trying to make it sound better than it actually is.

'He's clever enough to hold on to you for what it seems… he must be a clever guy.' You say, not a little note of sarcasm in your words. You became old… not physically but mentally.

'He is… now that I think about it I haven't asked you what you're doing here!' I say, trying to make my words sound as happy as I can.

'Have a show here tomorrow… somewhere in a theatre near here.' you say unenthusiastically; you're not even beaming about performing with your band… the reason of your whole life.

'What happened to you Danny? You seem tired of everything… this isn't the you I've known since we were a couple of teenagers.' I said, a little worried by his behaviour.

'Things change Rachel… if you wanna come to the concert tomorrow you're welcome; I have to go now…' you whisper as you walk away from me once again… leaving me in the middle of the street with this lump in the throat.

I thought I was over you Danny… your memory was just a memory but now; now you've come back into my life again and I really don't know what's gonna happen Danny… I think a little part of me still wants us to be together; even after all you've done to me I cannot let go… so hard to forget.

I guess you had me hypnotised… like in one of the songs you've written. Little did you know that would include me one day.

MikyMcfly