Meredith soon arrived at Seattle Grace, and entered through the glass doors and headed for the locker-room to get ready for the day. If she were late for rounds, Bailey would stick her in the pit. Meredith sat on the bench in front of her locker. She was trying to figure out why she was feeling so drained lately it had started a few weeks ago after a long day at the hospital when she had gotten home that night her body felt like it was being weighted down by a weight vest.
She knew that it could not be the stomach flu because it was not flu season. She just did not know what it could be. She searched her head. She asked people. She just could not think of any logical reason why she was sick.
As she was headed to the Chef's office as she promised Derek it hit her. Could she be pregnant? Could she be pregnant? She kept asking herself repeatedly if that was a possibility. She could not be pregnant she promised Derek that they would wait until they are married to have sex again. However, with her luck fate was not on her side.
Meredith rushed into the chief's office...
"Meredith, hold on one second and I will be with you. I have to finish up this file."
"I think that I need a pregnancy test."
"What?"
Meredith stopped with a wide-eyed look on her face and tried to process what she had just said to the man that was basically her father. Richard waited for her to regain her bearing and let her speak.
"I think I need a pregnancy test."
"You think that you are pregnant?"
"Yeah. I just really am confused because Derek and I had not sleep together since we talked about not having sex until we are married.
"Meredith I wouldn't panic until we know for sure ok?"
"Okay"
"I'll run down to the pharmacy and get the test and to be safe I'll run a blood test as well."
I just can't think of possible way that I can be."
"Meredith it will be ok. We do not even know yet if you are. So sit down and calm down"
"Do you want me to page Derek?"
"No, it will be fine I don't want to worry him before I have too"
The Chief walked out of his office and to the pharmacy to get the test and came back…To Meredith curled up on the sofa with tears in her eyes and trail of dried tears on her cheeks. She could not think of anyway. Any possible way that this was true. That she was pregnant. That she was expecting a baby. Richard's heart broke for his "daughter" but the sooner they knew the truth it would be easier to deal with.
The test beeped...Meredith's head popped up. Her whole body began to shake and she stated to hyperventilate.
"I can't…I just can't"
"Meredith we have to know...you have to know...Derek has to know..."
Meredith was in her own world Richard's words did not break her from her trance. Finally she spoke.
"Can you look for me please?"
Richard looks over at the test. He picks the test up and looks at it... he was not shocked at the results he was happy for them both.
"Meredith it's positive."
Meredith's world seems to crash around her. She cannot be pregnant but fate has dealt her this blow.
"Richard Derek can't know not yet."
"Isn't this supposed to a great thing...A blessing...?"
"Richard please he can't know. He would leave me and that can't happen please"