The next morning Meredith lay in bed thinking about how she failed to break up with Finn the night before, he told her that he had an emergent call out and was going to take a rain check on their date; they had agreed to meet around noon. She knew that breaking up with Finn was going to be hard but she had to get it over with, she wasn't sure how he would take the news so she played it safe and invited him to her house. As she got out of bed she felt a sudden rush of nausea; she glided straight into her bathroom and hung her head over the toilet bowl. Once she finished emptying the contents of her stomach she decided to get change for work and head downstairs.
"Hay George, Hay Iz" she said as she surveyed the kitchen.
Izzie was still baking, after the hard night she had they where both surprised she was not back on the bathroom floor, from listening to Denny's phone message and opening an $8,700,000 cheque, so she had a right to be damaged.
"Hay" George replied taking a quick sip of his coffee, "We better go, you ok here Iz?" she didn't reply she just nodded and carried on mixing what ever she was baking this morning. After refilling their coffee cups the Meredith and George headed out the car.
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All the interns were getting changed in the locker room when Dr. Bailey walked in.
"Ok people we got a busy day today, George and Alex get down to the pit, Cristina you're with Dr Roberson he's filling in for Dr. Burke while he's on leave and Meredith you're with Dr. Shepherd...Derek Shepherd" she ordered quickly.
"Great!" Meredith said to herself.
"Hey don't complain! He asked for you, go!"
Once the interns finished getting ready they made their way out of the locker room to start another hectic day.
"Ok so did you do it?" Cristina said grabbing onto Meredith's arm trying to catch up with her.
"No" Meredith replied walking towards the elevator,
"What? Why not?"
"He cancelled the date, but im meeting him for lunch so..." Mer replied as she stepped onto the elevator
"You'll do it then?"
"Yeah!" the doors closed leaving Cristina behind.
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On the ride in the elevator up to the third floor Meredith was trying to work out what she was going to say to Finn in under 7 hours time, she sure as hell was not going to tell him she was pregnant! There was not reason for him to know that. Her thoughts soon disappeared when the doors opened and she heard a voice that she knew to well,
"Dr Grey!" The male voice said,
"Dr Shepherd!" She replied looking up into his soft grey eyes, she stepped off the elevator and started walking at his side.
"Here is our patents chart, get you're self court up on his case and then take him for an MRI, page me when you get the results" she smiled at her.
"Ok" she replied
"You look beautiful today" he whispered in her ear while handing her the patents chart, he then walked away with a big old grin on his face. Meredith couldn't help but giggle, that man always made her feel all tingly inside, and even though they hadn't been a couple in a long time she always got a fuzzy feeling when she was around him, something that she new she would never have with Finn. She made her way the patients room, reading through his chart as she went along.
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At around 12:00pm Meredith had made it to her house just on time to meet Finn, he hadn't arrived yet so Meredith thought she would investigate her kitchen. As she made her way through the doorway she froze and was shocked by what she saw. Nothing! Absolutely nothing, the whole kitchen was tidy.
"Looks like Izzie has given up on the baking once and for all" she thought to herself. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. "Ok this is it!" she muttered to herself. After taking in a deep breath she made her way to the door.
"Finn hay" she smiled.
"Hi" he said kissing her on the check. "So you wanted to talk?"
"Yeah...Erm...do you wanna sit down?" Meredith took his hand and guided him to her living sofa. They both sat down and she began her speech that she had long dreaded "Ok so...so..." she tried to say something, anything, but her words would not come out.
"Meredith, I don't want to pressure you. You have a decision to make and I want you to take all the time you need. Ok" he said smiling at her. He placed his hand on her jaw line and leaned in to kiss her. His lips touched hers lightly, but within a second it ended. Meredith just sat there completely dazed by what was happening. She invited Finn here to break up with him not to make out, this had to end now!
"Look Finn!" Meredith said moving away from him! "I like you, I really do. It's just..." She could feel the tears creeping up in her eyes, "stupid hormones" but I wasn't just hormonesshe really did have feelings for him. But she knew in the back of her mind that she could never have the same magic with him that she once shares with Derek.
"He's the one" Finn finished off her sentence. Somehow he knew this was coming.
"And I wish he wasn't" she replied, a tear started to creep down the side of her check bone.
"You know, he's going to hurt you again. And when he does, I won't be here" he said staring at her in disbelief,
"Im so sorry Finn" Meredith said, Finn smiled at her in reply, and placed his hand on the side on her head and ran it down to the back of her neck, he leaned into her lowering her head and kissed her softly on the forehead.
"I know, take care of yourself Meredith." He released her from his gentle grip, stood up and walked out of her front door. Leaving her sitting alone on her couch speechless.
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Meredith could not believe what had just happened she broke up with Finn. She tried not to think about it to much all the focus must go on Derek and their baby. Just thinking of Derek made her shiver, she loved him such much even though she had only told him once before, but it was time for a change, time to put her self first for the sake of her baby. Thinking about her next step, she pulled into the SGH parking lot. She stepped out of her car and made her way towards the hospital. Once she entered the building she heard a familiar voice call her name.
"Meredith!" Cristina shouted from across the lobby, she quickly ran over to her "Are you ok? You look a little..."
"I did it, I broke up with Finn" she replied with heart-rending look on her face.
"You did it?"
"Yeah!" she said as they stepped onto the elevator
"Does it feel good?" Cristina asked as she followed Meredith inside.
"I don't...know" Meredith replied as the doors closed.
For the first time today she and her person where alone, in an elevator, the one place in the hospital where anything can be said out load and stay secret. "Who ever created this wonderful means of transportation is amazing" Meredith thought, "and not just for the main reasons in which people use the elevator for, but for all the others to. The elevator is like a rollercoaster once you get on it you never want to get off, especially if there's a hot dreamy doctor standing behind you smelling you're hair...shut up you're rambling again... in you're head!" Away in her own world Meredith did not even notice that Cristina was trying to get her attention.
"So have you made an appointment? Mer? Hello"
"What?" Meredith replied, just by looking at her face you could see she had her mind on other things.
"An OB/GYN appointment?"
"Oh, no not yet!" she replied coming back down to earth.
"Are you going to have them here?"
"Yeah, yeah" she replied still looking pretty dazed.
"Want me to make it for you?" Cristina offered,
"No im fine I can make it myself, I'll be ok as long as it's not with..." the moment Meredith was about the say her name, the elevator doors swung open and the lady herself appeared before them.
"Addison" Meredith said moving to the back of the elevator.
"Meredith!" Addison replied giving her a brief smile,
All three doctors stood in side the elevator in an awkward silence, as soon as the doors opened Cristina and Meredith stepped out and made their way to their locker room.
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It was around 7pm and Meredith was nearing the end of her shift; she was standing at the nurse's station filling out a patents chart, the hall was empty, a little strange for this time of night but what the hell she wasn't complaining. Today had been a stressful day for her, breaking up with Finn, making her first OB/GYN appointment, next task telling Derek, the love of her life that she was carrying his child, her mind had a thousand things running through it all at once, "What I am gonna tell him, how am I gonna tell him, when am I gonna tell him?" Over and over again she thought the same questions, the nerves in her body made her feel like a crazy person.
"Hey" someone whispered from behind her.
"Oh my god Derek...you scared me" she spoke out in shock,
"Sorry" he replied, his head was buried in the crook of her neck sensually kissing her neck and small light pecks. He loved the smell of her hair "Lavender" he thought. He had crept up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist resting his hands on her stomach, "If only you knew" she thought. Then she realized she was no longer freaking out, it was just enough, the way Derek held her it was just enough to calm her; he always had that effect on her. "If only you knew that it was not just me you where holding! Dam hormones!" Tears started too built up in Meredith eyes and she began to pull away.
"Is everything ok Mer?" he asked while unwrapping his arms from the tight but safe grip he had on her.
"Erm...yeah...im just thinking"
"Thinking? About what?"
"Nothing... I'll see you tonight? Pick me up at 9:00?"
"Sure" he answered as he placed his warm hand on her check, she knew that she had to tell him soon, she couldn't go on like this forever, it wasn't fair on him, and he had a right to know she was carrying his child. "I have to tell him tonight! Just rip of the stitches, no anesthesia!"
"I gotta go see you later" he said kissing her on the forehead before walking away.
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Finally the day had ended. She'd been home for about an hour now; and she had to get ready for her life changing date.
"What can I wear?" Meredith say to Cristina while rummaging through her wardrobe.
"Something hot, but not to sluttish" Cristina replied "Something that says im totally hot, but im a totally hot-momma-to-be"
"Right...thanks..." she said raising an eyebrow, trying hard not to laugh at the sarcastic jokes her person was making, she knew that Cristina understood what she was going through after all she had been through the same kind of situation before with Burke, well in away, but that was a different time, she was a different person back, then even though she doesn't like to admit it.
"What do you think?" she asked walking from her bathroom and heading towards the mirror.
Meredith had on a beautiful strapless knee high black dress with black peek toe heels. It really brought out her slim but still curvy posture and her hair was all beautifully curled.
Before Cristina had the chance to express her opinion they heard another voice sound from behind them "You look amazing" Meredith and Cristina looked at each other in surprise and turned around, Izzie was standing in the doorway wearing pink Pyjamas, and her hair was thrown back into a messy bun.
"Hay Iz...you ok?" Meredith asked politely,
"Yeah, I...I'll see you guys later, im going to bed. You do look great, he's a really lucky guy" she smiled Meredith smiled in reply before Izzie turned and left the room.
"Im scared" Meredith protested while still staring herself up and down in the mirror.
"You'll be fine" Cristina said with a chilled out tone.
Suddenly Cristina's cell started ringing "Well you know you can't run this time, you have to do this!" Cristina pointed while looking at the caller ID "It's Burke!" she flipped it open and signalled to Meredith that she was going into the hall.
Whilst Cristina was talking on the phone to Burke, Meredith could not help but stare at her thin abdomen, she could not picture what she would look like in few months time. She begun turning to her side, and raised her hand to her stomach, it was the first time in the pregnancy that she had done this, to just stand there looking at her self and to think about the future, that she will hopefully have with Derek and her child. It made her so emotional just to think that there was a tiny life in there, a life that she would have to bring into this world, raise and care for. The more she thought of her baby the more she thought of Derek and how much she loved him, he helped her create this little life, she didn't do it alone. And now it was time to tell him that he was going to become a father. Tears of joy started to well up in her eyes, but she whipped them away when she saw Cristina's reflection in the mirror coming up behind her.
"It's going to be ok Mer, you can do this!" Cristina whispered while walking up behind Meredith placing her hands on her shoulders, their moment was interrupted when there was a knock at her bedroom door.
"Come in" Meredith shouted
"Der...Wow Meredith you look...Wow" George said gazing at her in amazement,
"Thanks" she smiled, staring at George. But she noticed that he hadn't blinked in over a minute, "George!" she shouted, trying to break his gaze.
"Sorry... Erm... Derek's here" he stuttered
"Ok, thanks" she told him before he headed out of her room.
"Ok here I go...it's the beginning of the rest of my life," smiling anxiously "Crap"
"Yeah, good luck"
And with that Meredith walked out of her room and made her way down to Derek. As she descended down the stairs she saw him standing there near the front door with his hands in his pockets, he was wearing black trousers jeans with a white shirt with a few buttons undone, no tie and black jacket, just how she liked him. The moment he saw Meredith, it was like prom all over again, she looked so beautiful. He stood there watching Meredith's every move as she made her way towards to him. God he loved this woman more than anything in the world.
"This is it, oh my god, this is it!" She thought
"Hey...you look so beautiful" he said, tilting his head to the side, gazing steadily into her beautiful grey eyes.
"Thanks...you to" she smiled. They exchanged looks for one moment before he held out his hand, taking it she followed Derek and headed out the door.
She shut the door and stopped to lock it behind her, thinking... "THIS IS IT!"
Im really proud of this chapter =p i dont know why, i love the bit where she breaks up with Finn, and also the part where Derek sneaks up behind her! i think i've written it pretty well...what do you think? Eh? Review Thanks Everyone =D