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AU: Set after Zelena gives her daughter up and is alone in the farmhouse. WARNING! TRIGGERING CONTENT SELF INJURY! If this subject matter bothers you don't read this.
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Slamming the door to her hell hole which is the farmhouse. Zelena collapses to the ground in heartbreaking sobs. Her daughter is gone. She's gone and Zelena is very, very doubtful that she will ever see her precious sweetpea again!
This is just what they wanted. Robin and Regina. They wanted to take her baby away from her. This is everything they wanted! Yes they probably didn't want the child's life to be in danger and due to that fact and that fact alone Zelena allowed them to take her. Due to this hell hole, filled with way too much danger for her young, innocent defenceless daughter to face. All because of Hades. However, he wouldn't hurt her baby. He wouldn't do that to her. Would he? He wouldn't harm her daughter. Yes he'd probably take both Robin and Regina out to take the child. Yet he'd return it to her. He would do that wouldn't he? Right now though Zelena really doesn't care! The only thoughts running through her head right now are her daughter. Her beloved daughter who she may never see again.
The first thing the Wicked Witch Of West does is move quite quickly toward the cabinet of drink. Alcohol. Just what she needs right now to calm her. It will calm her. She tells herself as she pulls a glass out. Staring at it for a moment before throwing it across the room, watching it shatter into millions and millions of pieces. Before her hand wraps around the bottle, drinking straight from it. It tastes bitter, a good bitter though that burns and take her mind off all the hell for a moment.
That moments doesn't last long enough though and it isn't long before the bottle is long finished and she's started on her second! Her thoughts returning to her precious baby. She's with Robin now. Robin and Regina. With Regina of all people! Another example that her sister gets everything she can never have. Someone who loves her dearly and a family! Who would ever want a family that includes her? Her mother rejected her so she could be royalty and send her to a family who never cared for her well being! Regina and Robin would never trust her enough to allow her into the family they have created. Face it Zelena! She tells herself. No one will ever love you. You will never have that family you crave. You are destined to be alone for all eternity and that's just the way life is for a wicked villain like you!
Ripping the top off the third bottle Zelena paces the room drunkenly, staggering ever so slightly as she ponders. When she said no one would ever love her. She left out one small detail. Hades… He once said he loved her. He does love her. Well he said he does, he probably doesn't. He's just using her to win her heart so she will kiss him. Allowing his heart to start which subsequently would then allow him him to leave the Underworld behind forever. He wouldn't care about her then and just like everyone else he'd leave her. He'd leave her and as a consequence her soul would honestly and truly be destroyed.
Throwing her empty bottle at the wall Zelena breaks down into more sobs as she collapses to the floor, falling onto the broken shards of glass which slice her legs up. She watches as the blood pours from several wounds on her legs. Remembering something she used to do when she was alone in Oz. When he father would abuse her and mistreat her. It helped then. Ohh it really, really did help then. So why shouldn't it now? She wonders as she wipes her eyes, not caring that mini shards of glass get tangled in her hair as she rubs her head. Not caring in the slightest. She thinks as she heads for the kitchen.
The moment she enters the kitchen she sets to work searching around the room for the sharpest knife. The sharpest the better Zelena believes as she takes the knife in hand from the kitchen counter, moving back into the living room where she sits and slowly slides the knife across her skin, watching with a slight smile as the blood pours out of the wound. She adds another, ignoring the already previously scarred skin. The thousands and thousands of scars that her long sleeves always help cover up. Not right now though. She thinks as she sobs, slicing her wrists as she does so with more power behind it, slicing deep wounds that will remain there forevermore. However, this time she goes deeper then intended. In fact she has never gone this deep before! It doesn't matter though it really doesn't matter… But if she loses too much blood and she dies she is no longer a visitor in the Underworld. She really will never see her precious daughter. No, she'll be fine! She tells herself as she continues to mark her almost porcelain skin. Yet a feeling of tiredness like she's never felt before threatens to overcome her and it's like she can almost feel her heartbeat begin to slow… She hears the door flying open.
"ZELENA!" A voice. The voice of Hades filled with fear, worry, horror, pain yells her name as the knife falls from her hand…
Authors Note: Thank you so much for reading again. This idea came to me late at night so sorry if it's terrible! I might do a connecting one shot to this one, tell me if I should continue it and what you thought of this. Thank you so much for reading.