AN: BellaMadonna is the world's sweetest and best beta a writer could ask for! Patient and utterly the friendliest person around. I 3 you, Momma! Go read her story, Bella the Lioness… NOW!

This chapter was fun for me to write, and I think you will se why. Enough of my banter, enjoy!

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BPOV

Tossing and turning had become a nightly ritual for me. For the past couple nights, Alice had been forced into the guest room as a result of my sleep deprivation. I couldn't help it, the second I closed my eyes my mind would race. Visions of me and Edward, dancing in the most intimate way possible, and the fear that was invoked in me from the thought of it were all I could think about.

The guilt on my conscious was heavy. I found myself smothering Alice during the times we were together. I had to drown myself in her very existence before I would commit to the ultimate act, all in the name of baby making. All in the name of making my woman happy and giving her what she wanted.

It's just a body. I will not give my mind to him, just my body.

I had given myself serious pep talks since the day I decided to give in to Edward. I had tried to convince myself if I believed it enough, that I could use my body and somehow separate it from my heart and soul. If I didn't do this, any type of relationship with Edward after this would be impossible.

My eyes snapped open, and I looked at the digital clock on the nightstand. It read 5:18 am. Way to early to be awake, but way too late to try and take anything to help get some Z's.

I rolled out of bed and made my way to the bathroom. Once inside, I opened the drawer and grabbed a pee stick, calling them a OPT just seemed to technical to me. So I called it what it was, a stick to pee on.

Settling on the toilet, I passed the stick through the stream as per usual and set it on the counter. Rubbing the sleep out of my eyes, I waited for the sink water to heat up and looked at myself in the mirror. The reflection revealed a sleepy woman with a heavy heart. My eyes showed the struggle I had been giving in to for a week now.

I had given myself enough grief! Now, I had to make myself a promise to that I would be strong. Feeling the sleep in my head, I felt myself get silly as I started singing to myself.

I'm every woman,

its all in me.

Anything you want done, baby,

I'll do it naturally

"Yeah, that's right Whitney Houston," I said into the mirror, pointing to my reflection. "You've got nothing on me and my moves!"

Wow, I have really lost my mind.

A quiet knock on the bathroom door snapped me out of my concert for one, causing my cheeks to burn instantly.

I opened the door, and found a smiling Alice on the other side. Clearly tired, but seemingly amused from my impromptu a cappella karaoke performance.

"Hi Whitney," she teased, her eyes searching the bathroom. "You wouldn't happen to have seen my girlfriend around here have you?" Somehow managing the words before a fit of giggles consumed her.

"No, I don't see her," I teased, reaching to her and pulling her into a tight hug. "But I'm more than willing to take her place while you look for her," I taunted, feathering kisses along her neck.

"What are you doing up so early, baby?" She questioned, her eyes closed as I continued my kiss attack.

"I couldn't sleep," I answered truthfully. She didn't need to be concerned as to why. "So, I got up, used a pee stick, and felt like giving myself a pep concert," I said, pointing to the counter where the accused stick lay.

"And?" she said, requesting to know what answers the little plastic stick held.

"And," I said, rolling my eyes out of mock annoyance and walking to the counter, "I have yet to check." I reached my hand for the alleged pee stick.

She walked closer to me, and reached for the stick.

"Ah ah!" I said, raising my free hand and wagging my finger at her. "Patience. We can look together," I stated, lifting my eyebrows at her to show her I was teasing.

I flipped over the stick, and we both peered at the little lines in the little 'window', or so it was called. I gasped as I looked at the result. Dark, purple almost, darker than the control window. My heart sped as the realization came upon me. I was ovulating. It was time.

"Oh my GOD!" Alice squealed, jumping up and down as she clapped her hands in excitement. "You're ripe!" She exclaimed, wrapping her little arms around my waist and pulling me into a bear hug.

"Alice, please," I pleaded; she was cutting off my air supply with her exuberance. "You're going to kill any chances of having babies if you continue to squeeze me so hard!" I said in an amused tone.

"Call him!" she demanded, patience was not her strong point.

"How about his," I reasoned, trying to keep my mind off Edward at this very moment. "Lets lie down and try to get a little more rest, and when it's a better time of day, we'll call him." I looked her straight in the eyes, suddenly feeling the weight of the situation and desperately needing to sleep a little longer.

Sighing heavily and clearly put out for me even thinking of waiting, she nodded and walked toward our bedroom.

I followed her lead and crawled into bed next to her. Spooning her little body and wrapping my arm around her waist as I willed sleep to claim me.

My heart betrayed me.

"Bella, honey," she spoke just barely above a whisper. "Your heart is pounding so hard and fast I can feel it beating on my back!" She reached for my hand that wrapped around her waist and began to rub soothing circled on my palm. "Relax. We are going to do this together."

Closing my eyes tight, commanding any tears that might come to stay in check. If only you knew, baby, just how wrong you are.

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I woke up close to nine and decided it was time to get the day going. I reached behind me, patting my hand on the bed looking for Alice but found only an empty bed. I walked to the kitchen to make some coffee and found that Alice had already done that for me. I could hear the shower running; mystery solved on Alice's whereabouts.

Deciding to use the opportunity to talk to Edward alone, I took a seat at the kitchen table and grabbed my phone. Scrolling through the contacts and highlighting Edward's name, my thumb shook a little and my heart sped as I pushed the send button. I closed my eyes as I listened to the phone ring, willing myself to not be awkward towards him.

Edward picked up on the third ring.

"Hello, Bells." His velvety voice helped ease my anxiety.

"Morning, Edward," I replied, struggling to keep my voice even though not doing a very good job of it. "Can I come over today?" I asked, not believing what I was doing but trying my hardest to at least sound unconcerned.

"Well, I have to go into work for a couple hours this morning," he said, his voice even and hard to read. "How about you come over around two?"

"Ok, I'll be there," I managed to say, my voice was quieter than I intended. Nerves were taking their toll on me. "I'll talk to you later." I had to get him off the phone.

"Hold up, Bella!" Oh shit, I knew I was going to forced to tell him why I needed to come over. "Will you be with Alice when you come?" Nice way to ask, Edward.

"No, Alice won't be joining us," I said matter-of-factly. I decided I might as well blurt it out. I hated beating around the bush. "It's time," I stated. I knew he would know what that meant.

The phone went silent, making me wonder if I lost connection. I looked at the face of my phone to make sure we were still indeed connected, and brought it back to my ear when I was sure the call was still there.

"Ok, I'll see you soon." He finally broke the silence, his voice undiscerning.

I hung up the phone and pushed it away from me as if it was on fire. My mind was tired of racing and fell blank as I laid my head on my crossed arms on the table. I could hear Alice walking down the hallway toward me, so I readied myself as a vision of happiness, forcing a smile and ready to declare my plan for the day, leaving out one little piece.

"I called Edward," I said making sure my smile reached my eyes. "I'm going to go there around two."

"Ok, baby," she said, her smile matching mine. "Do you need me to go with you?"

"Um… no." Even I was convinced I was happy about this. I should try my hand at acting; I was good! "Don't worry about it; there won't be anything exciting to see." A blush rose to my cheeks.

She giggled at my words, amused by the thought of Edward doing his thing into a cup for us.

"Alright, well get dressed and we can go to the farmers market and get some berries." She said, as she turned toward the bedroom to get herself ready for the day.

I walked into the bedroom and picked out a simple jeans-shorts and tank-top outfit, matched with a lovely pair of flip flops. No need to dress up today, I decided.

Alice and I walked the ten blocks to the local farmers market where we picked up a half flat of blueberries and a large bundle of sweet pea flowers. The scent from the flowers was divine. We walked around the market, eyeing plants and ogling over hand made crafts. By the time we got back to our house, it was past one. As I eyed the clock willing it to go faster, the butterflies in my stomach decided to make an appearance.

"Oh God," I said to myself. Not realizing I was in hearing range of Alice, who was quickly by my side rubbing soothing circles on my back.

"Would it help if I went with you?" she asked, love shining in her eyes.

"No, I'm not worried about that," I lied, hoping she wouldn't see through my façade. "I was just thinking about the fact I have to drive home with Edward baby juice in my car, what if it spills?"

A look of amusement fell on her face.

"Well, why don't you use it while you're there?" She said, not holding back the giggles very well. "It's probably best to be done fresh anyway. You can just go in his bedroom or something." She seemed to know what she was talking about. "And when you get home, I'm giving you the best orgasm of your life. I read it helps the sperm swim." She stated, without even the hint of sarcasm.

I looked at her for a moment, trying to read whether to buy what she was saying or not. Instead of finding any answers, she moved in for a kiss. A kiss she eagerly deepened, showing me how serious she meant her statement. Pulling back from me, her hands cupped my face.

"Now go make us a baby," she commanded as her eyes were piercing my soul.

"Your wish is my command," I breathed, slowly blinking and smiling at her.

I waited until ten 'til two before leaving our house and driving to Edward's. I pulled up to his house and found that he was already home. Taking a deep breath, I opened my car door and slowly made my way to his door.

Letting myself in, I quietly closed the front door but was startled when I turned around to find Edward standing right in front of me, crooked smile in place and one eyebrow raised.

"Sneaking in?" he chuckled as he leaned against the wall, crossing his arms across his chest.

"No, I was just… I…" Yeah, well I had no good answer for that. I was clearly sneaking in.

He chuckled once more, turned and headed toward the kitchen. I walked up behind him, and placed my hand on his shoulder wordlessly asking him to stop. He did as I silently asked before turning to look at me. No need for words, his eyes said it all!

"Can we just," I closed my eyes as the words threatened to stick in my throat. "Can we go upstairs?" I looked up at him, my eyes pleading my case. I had worried and fretted the whole week for this very day. I needed to just do it now, or I would chicken out.

His eyes narrowed as he searched my face. "If that's what you want, Bella," his eyes flickered with an emotion I couldn't put my finger on.

"It is," I whispered as I took hold of his hand and led us up the stairs towards his room.

As we entered his room, the silence was almost too loud for my ears. I turned to face him and closed my eyes. I had worked toward this all week, mentally preparing myself for this very moment. I knew I needed to disconnect myself from anything outside of this room. While I was here, I was not Bella. I was not Alice's lover. I was a woman and he was a man, preparing to intimately dance like billions have in the past.

The feel of his hands on my arms brought me out of my thoughts, as he pulled me toward him and his bed.

A part of me screamed to stop my decent toward him, but I put her in check and decided to just go for it. I needed to stop thinking so much.

No words were spoken as he reached his hands to my face and slowly brought his lips to mine. His lips were soft and gentle. Moving next to mine, instinctively I opened my mouth to his and he slipped in his tongue. The taste of him was exquisite. I loved kissing my Alice, but this kiss was somehow so different. This thought was too much for me, and I pulled my head away from him.

"What's wrong?" he inquired, confusion shining in his eyes.

"I don't think we should kiss," I said firmly. Kissing was almost more intimate than the act we were about to perform.

His eyes went from confused to understanding and finally to reason.

"I think it would be easier on the both of us if we did kiss," he quietly said, his soft voice causing my eyes to close as I absorbed every word. "Easier on your body… from the stimulation that it… brings." His eyebrow cocked, and he licked his lips.

I thought for a moment what he meant by those words. He meant helping me get wet! I hated to admit it, but I didn't need any help with that. And for that I was almost ashamed. I pushed those thoughts out of my head, and nodded in agreement.

His lips met mine again, and our tongues entwined. A moan escaped from my throat, as I felt his hands caress up my back as he pulled me closer. I didn't realize we had been slowly making our way to the bed until I felt it hit the back of my knees and he carefully sat us on the bed.

I pulled from our kiss long enough to pull my shirt over my head and he followed suit. I had seen his chest before, but feeling his strong masculine chest against mine caused a sharp twinge in my already wet sex. I ran my hands up his chest and the feel of my hands on his defined muscles caused goose bumps to rise on his body.

Without breaking our kiss, he gently pushed me to lie on the bed. His tender hands moved to my back as he unclasped my bra, pulling his head back from me allowing me to take it off all the way.

Placing soft kisses down my jaw, to my neck, down my chest where his lips met my breasts. My breath caught as he took my nipple in his mouth, swirling his tongue on the end bringing it to a tight peak as he rolled my other nipple between his expert fingers.

I tried to rub my legs together to create some friction, unable to do so with him between my legs. Instead I ground my hips against him. He groaned from the sensation, and I couldn't help but blush at his reaction.

I reached down and pulled at the button on his jeans, releasing the button and pulling down the zipper. Raising his hips to help me, I pushed his jeans down as far as I could reach and he kicked them the rest of the way off.

I was like a woman possessed! I shouldn't feel as aroused as I felt. The enjoyment I felt as I ground my hips into his hard cock should not be there. But I was so wet for him and ready to feel this. I knew I would regret enjoying this later, but for now I was content with forgetting anything but the feel of him as his hands went to the waist of my shorts and quickly undid the clasps. I lifted my hips as he pulled them off me, along with my panties.

I lay before him completely naked, panting with desire that twenty minutes ago I didn't know I had.

He sat up on his knees and pulled off his boxers, his heavy erection springing from its confines. It was glorious. I had had many sex toys that Alice and I played with, but none of them had hypnotized me like the engorged member that I saw before me.

A moan escaped my lips as my hands moved on their own accord toward his rock hard shaft. Spreading the pre cum around the head, I gently tugged on his cock causing him to moan loudly.

His lips assertively found mine, and we kissed passionately as I moved my hands to his back. I pulled him closer to me and instinctively wrapped my legs around his hips. He pulled his head back to look me in the eyes, silently asking permission to enter me. I looked into the green pools of his eyes and pulled him back into a kiss, tracing my tongue along his bottom lip. Trying to show him my approval with my actions, I felt his cock rub against my slick folds. My pussy was on fire, waiting for him to enter me was torture.

I didn't have to wait long. He slowly pushed his cock into my heat, letting out a groan that matched my own. I pulled back from his lips, and closed my eyes trying to relax my body so I could stretch to accommodate his large size.

Feeling him stop his decent, I opened my eyes and nodded at him requesting him to keep going. His thrusts started out slow and gentle, carefully introducing my body to his cock.

I desperately tried to withhold the moans and gasps that escaped my lips, but this was in vain. The feel of him inside me was so much different than I had anticipated. The velvety softness of his cock was vastly different from the silicone and plastic cocks that I was accustomed to.

His breathing hitched as his thrusts sped up. I felt the entire length of his manhood sink further, faster, and harder into the center of my being and making me wetter than I had ever believed possible.

The moment he started circling his hips I felt my orgasm ripple through my body, starting deep within my heated sex and spreading all the way to the tip of my toes. I felt him speed up as I rode out my orgasm and I felt his warm seed spread inside my body.

He collapsed on top of me, breathing heavily into my ear. My effort to keep myself disconnected from the sex was altered the moment he spoke.

"Bella?" he urged me to respond. My head snapped up, and my eyes met his. The entire world as I knew it felt like it had suddenly crumbled.

"Fuck!" was all I could manage to say. My stomach was in knots as I threw my clothes on as quickly as I could and ran out the door and down the stairs.

I could hear him calling my name as I fled his house, finding my hands shaking so hard I could barely hold the keys to my car.

Never looking up as I felt terrified of seeing him at this very moment, I managed to get the keys in the ignition and frantically backed out of his driveway, knocking over his trashcan before I sped away.

I drove towards my home, where Alice waited for me: My loving, adoring, trusting, non-cheating girlfriend. Feeling myself slowly falling apart, I pulled onto the freeway and sped towards an unknown destination. Tears filled my eyes as the sobs began. My body shook violently with my tears. I had never been more terrified than I was at that very moment.

What have I done?

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AN:

So there you have it, my very first boy girl lemon. Please let me know if it was hot, warm, or just plain blows (no pun intended…) Review and I will send you a teaser from chapter 4!

A lot of you asked for EPOV, and I have decided I will go ahead and do it, but in the form of a companion story. I don't know if it will have many chapters, but it will get inside his head. Put me on author alert if you want to read EPOV.