Chapter 3. EPOV
Bella. My Bella. No, she wasn't my Bella anymore. She had stopped being mine when I left her, all I wanted was to protect her, from everything - from me. But after talking to her and seeing her crying in Felix's lap over me, that was almost as painful as when I left her. I've totally screwed up my chance of being with the only person that I have ever loved or will ever love. Stupid Edward, how could you do that? I kept asking myself these questions and I can't find an answer.
I had just seen Bella crying over me in her room, when Alice and Rosalie force me away. I knew I never deserved her, but I wanted to explain. So here I am being forcefully taken out of Voltura by Emmett and Jasper, and yelled at as well. I deserved it. How could I break her heart? How could I leave her?, I should be the one holding her when she's upset, I should be the one there.
"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER?," Emmett yelled while Jasper through me against a tree. "HOW COULD YOU BREAK BELLA'S HEART, EDWARD... TELL ME HOW?."
"I don't know, I made a mistake," I whispered as Emmett punched my stomach again and again. "A mistake, a mistake," Jasper questioned, "You broke the only person that effected your life in such a way, that loved you no matter what's heart, and all you can call it is a MISTAKE?." It was Jasper who attacked this time, but all I could do was let him. I felt horrible, if I could cry I would be balling. I didn't deserve anything or anyone... especially Bella.
Finally they stopped. They just stared at me with such hate and pain. "We should kill you right now, you know that Edward?" Emmett said as he collapsed on the forest floor. Yes, I did know that. "But, we should let Bella and the girls decide." He concluded.
"Edward, do you know what you've done," Jasper asked as he stared me in the eyes," you have not only broken Bella, but you have lost our respect and love as brothers for you too. The girls, I know, feel the same way. They will tell you soon enough. But, I know that I had almost killed her," Jasper said with a pained expression. Yes, he had but I had forgiven him.. He couldn't help it. "And I know you forgave me, but i feel as though it was part my fault."
"No Jasper, this is all his doing. You, me, no one but Edward is too blame." Now when Emmett said these words it hurt, but like most things here... he was right, I broke her heart and I would never be able to take that back.
"C'mon, lets head back... you stay and blame yourself," and with that they left to leave me to wallow in pain. Pain I deserved.
Oh Bella.
How could I do this?
Yeah, it short but I'm not good at Edwards but wanted something about how he's feeling.