"She got pregnant at this age?!" "How unsightly!" "She MUST be a slut or something to already be pregnant." "What a disappointment." The hurtful words of my peers and family kept me tossing and turning throughout the entire night, I almost never got any sleep, on the rare nights that I did I had to get up early in the morning for classes. This on top of the baby and my deteriorating health was proving to be quite an issue.
They gave me a day off work for working extra shifts and so I decided to surprise Shizuku with some cake that I bought. As I entered the door I felt something off, Shizuku wasnt up and about like she normally is. Usually I'd find her hard at work, foolishly over-studying for her exams and skipping over dinner. I leave the cake on the table, forgotten, as I go check the bedroom because I hear whimpering coming from under the sheets. I approach as I would a scared animal. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I hear Shizuku sob into her pillow. Guilt creeps into my bones like a sickness, it takes root and overwhelms me. If only I had not had all those drinks, if only I had restrained myself. I sink to my knees in despair, but then I hear "I'm sorry for running away, but I love him, more than...anything." This steadies me and I rise to my feet. I slowly crawl onto the bed and lay beside her, I then put an arm around her as I whisper into her ear, "Hey, they don't know what they lost when they pushed you away, it isn't anyone's fault but theirs." I feel her stabilize under me and her breathing gets into a normal rhythmic beat. I comfort her best I can until I fall asleep practically on top of her.
I wake up to a warm feeling pressing onto me, I open my eyes and see Yamaken draped over me, sound asleep. I slowly raise my hand up to his face and stroke his cheek, his smooth skin, warm to the touch, such a contrast to the cool pale color it has. I lean forward and tuck my face into his neck, I start nibbling on it gently but then realize what I'm doing while he doesnt notice. Well...I start to think to myself...would it really be all that bad if i did this without his permission or knowledge? I mean he DID get me pregnant, not that I blame or resent him for it but this could be some payback...