Tragic Loss
(Wesley's P.O.V.)
I never truly got to know you and I'm sorry for that, but what I did get from you was very important to me. I learned a lot from you as I spent time with you. You had a unique view that others did not, you knew from experience that life wasn't always pretty. When talking about this you didn't come off as if you were scolding me for my naivety or as if surely I knew more. From you I came to realize that one can balance seriousness and fun. I learned when it was worth fighting for a cause and when it was worth backing off. You never wavered in your convictions and always did your duty. When armus got in your way you put the others lives above your own. Then armus killed you for no reason. I may not be very old and I may not have much experience, but I believe your death was the story of your life. For you to have done anything other would not have been you. That a creature would choose to strip your life did not occur or if it did, did not stop you from performing your duty. I only hope that when I am older that my ethics of duty are as strong as yours. I am sad that you are gone now, all the above rationalization can't help me deal with this. As I said before I didn't know you as well as others, but I did know you. I try to tell myself that you would want me to be happy that you could die in what you loved, but those words sound empty. The adults try to brush it over as duty and that's what happens in a Starfleet life, but I can see the grief. I ask about how to deal with it and get answers like you have to remember her as she was and let her go. The truth is I'm scared now, when I make a new friend they will die at some point. Is this what's to come, constantly meeting new people making new friends only to be torn away from them. If that's what this life leads to then I'm not sure I want to be a part of it. I know that that's not true but somewhere inside me tells me that it is and it makes me sad. I guess your death sparked these questions and concerns, but at some point I would have had to deal with it. I know that I will be alright if I just press on like you would have done. If I hold my head up and do my duty like you would have done then this will pass in time. That's another lesson I learned from you, don't let life get you down, live it to the fullest. So I guess I'll say one last goodbye and thank you.
AN: I've been on a Wesley role lately so I thought I'd update it with what to the best of my ability he would be feeling, which since I mostly think of him post season one was a bit harder.