Denial
By Kimmy
It's been six months since I've updated. Forgive me.
Lily Evans is not in love.
So if she spends a second too long gazing at James Potter, you know it's only because he's got a bit of potato stuck to his bottom lip.
And, of course, if she hasn't told him so, it's only because he's in the middle of a conversation – not because it gives her a reason to stare at his bottom lip.
Lily Evans is not in love.
So when she turns up at the Quidditch pitch during practice, it's only because she knows how much the team's success depends on the support from their fans.
And if one should notice how her eyes follow only one particular person, it's only because that person's wearing the distinctive robes of the captain – not because that particular person is James Potter.
Lily Evans is not in love.
So when she spots James walking alone with a pretty Ravenclaw prefect, and she suddenly feels very moody, it's only because she knows this will almost definitely make him late to the prefect meeting.
And when he shows up to the meeting, followed shortly by a very disappointed looking Ravenclaw, she's ecstatic – but only because they were on time – definitely not because she was jealous.
Lily Evans is not in love.
So, late in the evening, when her friends tease and prod and joke about Lily and James sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, she rolls her eyes and chucks her hairbrush at them, flippantly replying, "Yeah, in a million years."
And when James Potter smiles at her during dinner, and she has to remind herself of her oath – in a million years, in a million years, Lily, remember? – she brushes it off as a lapse in her usually sound judgment, and swears to herself she won't let it happen again.
Lily Evans is not in love.
So when James Potter turns up at her table in the library just to stare at her for five minutes, and her cheeks flare and her heart jumps and her stomach flips and her mind's telling her lies [you're in love, you're in love] – she stands up and storms out, throwing a biting, "Leave me alone, Potter," over her shoulder.
Because Lily Evans is not in love.