Baby's (POV)
It has been 3 weeks since I have got here. I see Johnny every now and again, but he seems to hold back. That first night that we seen each other , we danced all night long, we plainly conforted each other. After we danced for hour's he left and has not been back to my cabin except to tell me that Max wanted to see me and then he just turned and walked away. To much time has gone by and I really need to tell him about the baby that we would have had with one another. Being alone here has had an effect on me , a good one , there is no one here to criticize or look down on me for getting pregnant. Things here are the way that they are, given that no one knows of my little mishap, but if they did I don't think that they would say anything about it. Johnny is like a king here and if they were to say anything about me losing his baby, he would hurt someone. Thats what I love about him, he has not been mean or even hateful after that night , he just says nothing , so I will not be hurt. Tonight I am going to change everything and be honest with him.
It's now 5:00 P.M. and I have to get ready for dinner . I walked into my room and looked through the closet and picked out a peach dress that came just above the knee. It was sheer and flowing, and when I twirled around it flowed up to my waist. It had a beautiful detailed chest, but also sassy. I wanted the perfect look, for tonight Kellerman's is haveing a dance party in the main house.. A waiter asked me to go but I said no that I was taken, I lied but I wish that I was taken, taken by Johnny Castle again. I had heard rumors that he was seeing a girl here but for some reason when I was around her was never with her. Most of the time I would catch a glimse of him looking at me with loving eyes. I wanted so bad to run up to him and put my arm's around his neck and confess my undying love for him, but it was impossible. We are two different people now and he has moved on without me. Hell I don't know what I was expecting but it sure wasn't that. I kept putting it in my head that I need to try harder. Even so if he is with another woman, he still needs to make that choice and know the truth of why I came here this summer. I came here for him to make him happy and at ease with what I did to him. He will never forgive me completly but I am an understanding person. Time will tell the tale.
I hopped into the shower and washed in my favorite scented soap, washed my hair, and jumped out. I did my makeup and hair, I looked beautiful and I knew it. I heard a knock on the door, I was in a state of , didn't this happen before? I shook it off and walked over to the door and opened it , it was Billy."oh hey Billy, what you doing here and not at the main house having a good time?" I was for sure suprised to see him.
"I was wondering if you would like to go to the dance with me?" I smiled.
"Ofcourse I would." He smiled at me proudly, like a teenager with a crush. It felt good to make someone else feel good about them selves. It sure had been a long time since I had felt even normal.
"Great Baby, I knew that you would be going alone and you know, we are friends."
"I know Billy, you know you are such a sweetheart, one of these days you are going to make a little woman very happy." My heart swelled, Billy had been there for me every since I had been there. I feel like he is my best friend now, I could not live without him now.
"Well are you ready, my dear?" I turned and took a look in the mirror again and said"Yea I am ready to dance." We then began our walk to the main house, where I was going to have a good time. As soon as I walked in Max met me at the door.
"Baby, I have you a place over to the side here, I know that you like to dance and it will be easier for you to get to the dance floor. "Oh thank you Max, that is very kind of you."
"Your welcome dear, I promised you father that I would look after you up here , since all that happaned before." Billy looked at me confused, I figure that Max thought that I had told Johnny already. Billy was searching my face and I could tell by the look in his eyes that he knew something was not right about me anymore, I had lost my spirit. The music had caught my attention, they were playing When a man loves a Woman, by Percy Sledge. Billy seen that it had caught my attention and decided to ask me to dance. "Baby would you like to dance?"
"Sure Billy." We walked out to the dance floor and we danced like there was no tomorrow. He was no Johhny but he could move and he handled my just fine. I would ever noe and then glance around the room and see Johnny looking at me. Before I knew it him and a busty blond was dancing beside me and Billy, I wanted to reash over and and rip that blond hair right out of her head. He was mine and no one elses. I looked his way and he looked back for a split second, he seen the hurt in my eyes and I seen it in his as well. I stopped abruptly and walked away leaving Billy standing in the middle of the dance floor, wondering what happened. I sat back at my table and Billy walked back over to me and sat down. "Baby, listen, I know this is hard on you , but it is hard on him to. Do you two think that you are made of stone or something?" I shot him a glance. I don't know Billy, what he is thinking that is."
"You two need to get over the past and move on." Tears started to welt of in my eyes, the past was comming back to haunt me again.
"Billy it is not that easy, I had something happen to me, that is why I am here, I want to fess up to Johnny about it. I can't reach him, he has shut me out."
"I know Baby, but he don't want that pain again." I was crying now and my hands were shaking.
"Can we go out to the lake and talk, I want to tell you something." I looked at him with pleading eyes.
"Sure Baby, you know that I will always be there for you." I gave him a nodd and we walked out to the lake. We sat in the lawn chairs that they had there for the guests. I cried so hard that I felt like my chest was going to cave in. I had to tell someone, my secret was eating me alive and I was afraid I was going to die. "Billy, I want you to know that I loved Johnny with all my heart and always will."
He nodded and said. "Yes, I know."
"Well the thing is, I was pregnant when I left here and I had a bad accident." Billy's face drained of all its color. "I fell going down stairs to eat dinner, I didn't know that I was pregnant. All I know is that I had a sharp pain in my stomach and blood was going all over the floor.I blacked out and the first thing that I saw was Johnny's face."
"My god Baby, why didn't you call Johnny and tell him?" Billy pulled me to him and hugged me for dear life. All that I could do was sit there and cry on his shoulder and pray that he would understand. We sat there for the longest time, him holding me because Johnny was not there for me. I was back to square one, I was going to go home. The place where I could be all by myself. So the hurt was not as bad, where I would not have to see the other half of me in the arm's of another woman. The place where I could wallow in my loneliness. I raised my chin high and looked to Billy.
"Billy I am going to go home tonight , if not, in the morning."
"No you can't do that , you have to tell him." The unreadable look in my eyes must have been disturbing to Billy, he had a look of terror , like he tought that I was going to bring my awful pain to an end. I have to admit that the thought had crossed my mind, from time to time, but not at this moment. I only wanted to get to my cabin, there was only one thing that could take this pain away, and he was not here. I jumped up and turned to look at my now best friend and said. "I really have to go and get packed, I can't stay here one more day and live without him." I walked away, like I had done all those year's ago. I was runnng from my pain, my anger, my sadness, my one true love. I was running from Johnny Castle and his new love.
It was not long before I made it back to my cabin. I walked in and put some music on. The familiar scent was being carried by the wind , from the cabin that I most wanted to be at. It was Johnny's scent. It is awful when everthing reminds you of something that you would like to forget. There is always someone or something there meant to destroy you. I let it destroy me and my life. I was now nothing, a sad pathetic look alike of whom I once was. Oh how many times I wanted Johnny and his strong arm's to pull the weight for me. The summer of 63' , I was the strong one , I was there for everyone. I took the blunt for Johnny's and I's relationship . Now I am the weak one, with no one to tend to me. Will this cycle ever end.
Johnnys (POV)
Baby has ran off again and I have hurt her once more. Is this the only thing that I am going to do to her the whole time that she is here. I can't go running to her this time, I have to remember that she was the one that left me. I didn't leave her with just a note and nothing else. I think that I deserve the satisfaction of not being hurt by her again. THe hold she has is amazing. If I give in , I will be the weak one again, I can't do that anymore. I do love her, with every single beat of my heart, if only God would send me a sign. About that time I heard the door fly open and Billy came running in. "Johnny." he said in ragged breaths. "Its Baby." I jumped up.
"What about her, is she ok." About that time Amanda walked up. "Whats going on Johnny and who is Baby?" I shot her a look.
"I want to know right now Johnny , who's the little slut you are talking about.? I jumped in her direction, furious and shaking.
"Don't ever call her that again, I warn you, if you were a man, I would have kicked your ass for that!"
"Oh must be someone really important then, what is she an ex or somethin?" The rage was building in my stomach and if she were anyone but who she was , I could have killed her.
"Yes she is an ex , and I don't think that it is any of your business, so why don't sliver off and be the whore that you are." She rolled her eyes in fury and walked off.
"So what's this about Baby?" The panicy feeling was eating at me. I knew something was wrong, because of the way that my heart was pounding.
"She is leaving Johnny, go and stop her , Please?" My god that was what he ran all this way to tell me, hell I just threw away a perfectly good looking woman for her and it was this.
"Billy you mean to tell me that you ran all this way to tell me to stop her. I love her and I will talk to her later."
"No you don't understand, you need to sit down and have a really serious talk with her, if she get's out of here and does not tell you what she came here for. I am afraid that it will destroy her even more." My attention was now in full mode. What was this that she wanted to talk to me about. Could it be serious? And why does it envolve me? I have not seen her in 2 years. "Billy there should not be anything that she needs to tell me, I haven't seen her since she left here in 63'."
"I know but she really does, You know me Johnny, I wouldn't lie to you." Oh brother he is so damn dramatic.
"Look. ummmm, I will soon , ok."
"Damit Johnny! I think that she might hurt herself ." My world started to spin, the thoughts that Baby might hurt herself was rendering me powerless against my temptation. I had to see what Billy was talking about. I looked at Billy and said. "This better be good because if its not, you can bet I'll hurt you later." So I was on my way to Baby's cabin.
Fear overcoming my body.