Title: Deep Secrets: Rise
Character(s): Amanda Rollins
Rating: K+
Author's Note: This chapter is based on the song "Rise" by the McClain Sisters.
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I used to be afraid of giving up. The road was just too tough. Out here on my own, my path was so alone. But now I see clearly. Everything within me is reaching up to the sky; I can see the world with open eyes. You can't let it pass you; just take hold and grasp it. Now's the time to take a chance. With the strength of a thousand men, climbing to my feet again.
One year.
A whole entire year.
Well, 368.4 days, to be exact.
I can't even believe it.
The world is so much clearer.
The sun is so much brighter.
Life is so much better.
I'm not falling.
I'm not failing.
Never lift your head up to the sky and find yourself asking, "Why?" Never see them eye to eye with the hardships of life.
Sure, there have been doubts.
There have been almost-failures.
The most major one was at four months sober.
I stopped myself just as I was about to give the money to the bookie.
That night I had Fin become my guardian.
He makes sure I only have enough money for the essentials.
It's unfortunate really.
But it's necessary.
But faith is where my heart is, let energy replace my doubts. Won't let my trials get the best of me. I'm marching forward towards my destiny.
But I won't let it define me.
Only I can define myself.
This is all in the past.
I'm getting better.
So much better.
I'm rising.