And yet another update for you! You'll find out why Kendall acted so strange last night! And a bit of smuttiness ;) Enjoy!
Chapter 3: There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles, same old tired lonely place….
He couldn't be with Logan. It just wouldn't work. Logan seemed perfect. And Kendall was just, Kendall. His parents didn't even want him around. They had disowned him, just for refusing to stay away from his best friends because they were gay. Took his baby sister and just left. Without even saying goodbye. He had always wondered what they would do if they found out he was gay himself. Probably hire a hit man. Well that was a little dramatic. But that was how his parents were.
After they left, he had taken up a new hobby. One that no one knew about. Not even his best friends. He had so many scars. He had a reason to wear long sleeves all the time. Thank god Minnesota was always cold. As soon as the sweet brunette found him out, he would run the other way, he was sure of it.
Logan seemed so sure of himself. He wasn't afraid of anyone not liking who he was. Kendall wished he could be that way. He was scared to death though. And that was no exaggeration.
Logan lay in bed that night thinking about the beautiful blonde that he couldn't keep himself from falling for. He hadn't felt this way about anyone since his ex, almost 2 years ago. And even with her, it wasn't this way. The feelings weren't this strong. It was a bitter breakup. And it was also when he had realized he was gay.
But Kendall was hiding something. He knew that much. He couldn't stand the thought of losing the blonde who had invaded his thoughts. He had to find out what it was. He needed Kendall to know that he could trust him no matter what. He knew just how to do it, too.
The Next Day
Logan pulled up to the blonde's house right at dusk and looked up at the dark house. There were still no cars in the driveway, which Logan found a bit strange. He walked up to the house slowly and knocked gently. A few moments later, a fully clothed Kendall swung open the door and Logan saw his eyes widen.
"Logan? What are you doing here?" he said with a surprised expression.
"I wanted to come see you. I missed you already," Logan said with a dimpled grin.
Kendall blushed and opened the door wider to let him inside. When he stepped inside, he looked around and was surprised by the emptiness of the house. There were no pictures, and not much furniture. There was a large plush couch in one corner with a large TV perched on a table in front of it. There was one end table with a few random objects on it, but other than that the living room was empty.
"Um, do you want to stay and watch a movie or something? We could order a pizza," Kendall said nervously.
Logan nodded encouragingly.
"That sounds perfect."
Kendall smiled weakly in return and went over to the phone.
"Hey Kendall, is everything okay?" Logan asked, noticing the boy's nervousness.
"Yep, I'm fine," Kendall croaked out.
He made his way to the phone quickly until he felt a hand on his arm. He turned to see Logan looking at him with concerned eyes.
"Kendall, please. Tell me what's wrong."
Kendall shrugged him off and returned his gaze to the phone.
"Nothing, I promise."
Logan left it alone and went over to the couch. Noticing a pile of DVD's next to the TV, he went over and started looking through them.
"What movie do you want to watch?" Logan called out.
"You pick, I'm cool with anything!" Kendall yelled back.
A few minutes later they were spread out on the couch, Logan's arm around Kendall, and the blonde tucked into the shorter brunette's chest. As the movie started, Logan leaned down and kissed the top of the blonde's head, feeling him tense. After about an hour, they heard the doorbell ring and Logan went to pay for the pizza. When he got back he saw Kendall looking at him intently.
"What?" he said with a smile.
"Why do you like me?" Kendall asked quietly.
"What?" Logan repeated, with a surprised tone.
"I just, I don't think you should waste your time on me. I'm not really all that great."
Logan set the pizza down on the small dining table and walked over to the blonde, who had tears in his eyes. He sat down next to him and took his face in his hands when the blonde tried to look away.
"Kendall, you're perfect. I love you just the way you are."
"You-you love me?" Kendall said as Logan wiped his tears with his thumbs.
"Yeah I do. I know it's only been a few days, but I love you. I've never had this feeling before about anyone and I believe in soul mates. I think you might be mine."
"I-I love you too."
Logan smiled and captured the blonde's lips with his, feeling them move together, perfectly in sync. Kendall pulled away breathlessly and leaned his forehead against Logan's.
"You swear you love me?" he asked timidly.
"I swear."
"So you won't stop if I show you something?"
"Never," Logan said, pulling away a bit, concerned.
"Please promise me you won't stop."
"I promise I'll never stop."
Logan watched as Kendall took a deep breath and rolled up his sleeves. Logan's breath caught in his throat as he saw his arms come into view. There were dark red criss-crossed cuts going up the taller boys arms to the elbow, some fresh, some old and already healed. Kendall looked at him, waiting for him to react. The brunette took his arms gently and ran his hand softly over the scars.
"Why?" Logan whispered.
"It just gets hard sometimes," Kendall said, his face covered in shame.
"What about your parents?"
"They don't want me."
"Because you're gay?"
"No because my best friends are gay. They don't know about me yet."
"They just left you?"
"Yeah. They said they would pay for the house and the bills as long as I didn't try to contact them. I had a younger sister too."
Logan looked down at his arms again and Kendall resisted the urge to pull them away. The brunette just knew Kendall was waiting for him to push him away and refuse to see him again. But he couldn't. He loved the boy. All of him, even this.
"Kendall I need you to promise me something. Please."
"Anything."
"Don't ever do this to yourself again. Please. You're a part of me now. And if you hurt yourself, you're hurting me."
"Only if you promise you'll never leave me. I don't want you to leave like everyone else."
Logan lifted Kendall's chin and kissed him softly.
"I'll never leave you. You're stuck with me forever," Logan said with a chuckle.
Kendall laughed with him.
"I think I'm okay with that."
Logan pulled him close and kissed his forehead. They sat that way for a few minutes until Kendall spoke.
"Logan will you do something for me?"
"Anything," Logan said, repeating the blonde's earlier words.
"Make love to me."
"Kendall-,"
"Please Logan. Show me how much you love me."
"I don't want to hurt you."
"I did some research and bought some things that will help."
"You did?"
Kendall nodded eagerly.
"Are you sure you want this?"
"Yes. Please. I need it."
Logan leaned in and pressed his lips gently against Kendall's, pushing him down onto the couch and crawling on top of him, straddling his hips. He pressed their hips together, taking advantage of Kendall's moan to slide his tongue into the taller boy's mouth. After a few minutes, Logan leaned down to Kendall's ear and kissed it softly.
"Where's your bedroom?" he whispered huskily.
Kendall swallowed hard.
"Down the hall, third door on the right."
Logan pulled Kendall up and to his bedroom, pushing him gently onto the bed and crawled back on top of him. He kissed him gently once more and pulled away.
"Are you sure you want this? I don't want you to have any regrets."
"I'm sure Logan. Please."
He nodded and kissed a sensitive spot on the blonde's neck. He heard the boy moan and started biting gently, sucking the skin between his teeth until there was a dark bruise. He licked the mark once more and moved his lips downward, reaching for the hem of the blonde's shirt and pulling it off in one swift movement. He pulled his own shirt off and threw it into a corner of the room. He leaned back down and kissed down the blonde boy's chest, stopping when he got to the waistband of his jeans. He looked back up at Kendall to see him staring at him through hooded eyes. He unbuttoned his jeans and swiftly pulled them off along with his boxers, leaving Kendall naked underneath him. He stared at him for a moment.
"You're so beautiful," he whispered.
He stood and started unbuttoning his jeans until Kendall's hands stopped him.
"Let me."
The blonde nimbly took off his lover's jeans and boxers as Logan stepped out of them. He saw Kendall's eyes widen when he looked at his member. He knew he was large and he chuckled as Kendall shyly wrapped a hand around his pulsing cock. He was at least 9 inches and thick. Logan's laugh caught in his throat as he felt a wet heat surround the head of his member. He looked down to the hottest sight he had ever seen. Kendall wrapped his mouth around the head, swirling his tongue around the tip, before pulling off with a pop. He ran his tongue along the vein on the underside of his dick, making Logan tilt his head back and moan loudly. He was so close to cumming already.
"Kendall, wait, stop. "
Kendall looked up at him, confused.
"Did I do something wrong?"
"God, no. I just don't want this to end too soon."
Kendall nodded and leaned back.
"I have to prepare you okay?" Logan said.
Kendall nodded again and reached into his nightstand and pulled out a long thin bottle of lube.
"Here, I bought it this morning."
Logan took the tube and squeezed some onto his fingers.
"Just relax, okay?"
The brunette trailed his fingers down to the blonde's entrance and teased him with his fingers a bit before pushing a slick finger inside.
Kendall bit his lip and tried to relax as much as possible. It was painful, more uncomfortable than anything. Then Logan pushed another slick finger inside him, making him hiss in pain. The brunette put a hand on his dick, trying to distract him from the pain. It worked, because soon he had three fingers inside the blonde and he was fucking himself back on his fingers. Then Kendall let out an obscene moan, and arched his back.
"Oh, Logan hit there again!"
The brunette happily complied and rubbed his fingers against the brunette's prostate, teasing him before pulling his fingers out, making Kendall whimper at the loss. Logan quickly slicked his cock with lube, hissing at the much needed contact, before putting the head at Kendall's stretched quivering entrance.
"Just relax baby," Logan whispered in his ear.
Kendall nodded nervously and clutched onto Logan's back as he pushed himself inside. Once he was fully sheathed inside, he stilled his movements and placed soft kisses on the blonde's neck, waiting for him to get used to the intrusion. After a few minutes he felt Kendall wiggling his hips beneath him. He slowly pulled out and pushed back in, kissing the blonde, slipping his tongue inside. After a few thrusts Kendall arched his back and moaned into his mouth. He tilted his head back, and Logan started sucking and biting on the blonde's neck as he pushed back as much as he could onto Logan's cock. He felt himself getting so close already.
"Logie I-I'm close."
Logan reached a hand between them and started to stroke the blonde's hard pulsing cock, keeping in rhythm with his thrusts. A few minutes later, Kendall released all over Logan's hand and their stomachs. Logan followed close behind with a quick thrust inside the blonde. He grinded his hips slowly, working them both through their orgasms. He rested his head against Kendall's chest, trying to gather the strength to pull himself out of his lover. He slowly pulled out, Kendall whimpering at the sudden loss, and lay down beside his love.
They both caught their breath, before Kendall tucked himself into Logan's side. The brunette reached down and pulled the blankets around them and wrapped his arms around the blonde.
"I love you, Kendall."
"I love you too," Kendall whispered.
"Forever and always."
Kendall smiled into his chest and hoped that everything would just fall into place.
But sometimes life just doesn't work that way.
Read and Review please! Next chapter will have major drama! I hope the sex scene was okay, this was only my second major sex scene! Let me know what you think! I'll update soon!