CHAPTER TWO

Author's Note: This takes place after "Return of the Jedi" where Leia actually has little memory of her mother. I had Padme death when the twins were four. I know that "Revenge of the Sith" they had Padme die after giving birth – but seeing how ROTJ actually was filmed way before ROTS I'm going with the cannon that Lucas originally gave us.

ENDOR WOODS – NOTHWEST EAST

Leia fell to her knees gasping for breath. She tucked her knees closer to her waist as she fought for the breaths of life. But she was fighting within on why she was even bothering to continue to fight to live. After all her entire life had been a lie. That the truth of her entire being was too horrible to want to continue to live.

Why didn't she just end it now?

It would be better for everyone. Han. Bail, the Rebel force. Her mother's memory. Especially for Luke. Without her around than he could move on from this mess more easily. He could continue his studies in the Jedi force. He can save the Galaxy without her reminding him about the darkness.

Leia … my beloved daughter.

Mommy?

Yes baby. Rid yourself of these dark thoughts.

How could you not tell me the truth?

You were too young – too weak to be protected.

No I wasn't.

Leia you were four years old. Just a baby – you still loved to be carried by Bail and I. You were not strong enough for the truth on whom your father was. What choices your father had made towards the dark side. I was at my end. I couldn't protect you. Bail wasn't strong enough to protect you against Anakin. As Darth Vader he was too strong for Bail.

Why couldn't you fight to remain alive, mommy? Why didn't you at least tell me that I have a twin brother? Why were Luke and I separated?

Too protect you.

Luke and I were just weaken being apart from another.

No, Leia. Luke was strong enough to protect himself. We separated you two too protect you.

Am I such a weakling?

Yes.

Thanks for being so blunt, mother, nice. Real nice.

You need to know the truth Leia. Only the truth will protect you.

"I don't need protection!" Leia screamed.

She allowed her scream echo to die competently out before she lifted her head from her knees. "I won't give him the satisfaction of my death. He won't win!" Eyes blaring she glared up into the night sky, "Do you hear that Darth Vader, Anakin Skywalker, YOU WON'T WIN YOU BASTARD!" Angry hot tears steamed down her cheeks.

ENDOR WOODS – SOUTH WEST

Luke sighed deeply as he knelt down on his haunches. He stared in front of him as he wondered why he didn't just go too where Leia was. He fully knew where his twin was. Always had. In fact he felt the deep draw to her since he was born – but he always stopped himself from going too her. In his childhood because he didn't want his uncle and aunt to go with him. In his pre teens it was because he didn't want to have anyone to relay on him – too depend on him – he wanted to prove to himself that he could take care of himself. He didn't want anyone to be dependent on him. When he felt the pull even more stronger when he was sixteen – he just knew that he had to find that missing piece of himself. That he would never be completed if that piece of his soul remained apart from himself. He begged too leave Tatooine, but his Uncle keep telling him too wait.

It wasn't until he watched Leia's message to Ben on R2 D2 that he knew that it was time to get to the missing piece of his soul. He knew that she needed him, and only him. Who would have ever believed that the goddess that he thought was truly meant to be his soul mate – his lover, was actually his twin sister. Talk about the blow that would have actually killed him if he hadn't truly wanted to remain alive to remain beside his twin sister.

It wasn't bad to lose out to Han Solo. If he wasn't meant to have Leia as his wife, lover; then he would much rather her be truly happy by Han's side. He would still have the joy of having her at his side, as her brother. They also had a connection that Han or anyone else could share. He wasn't even talking about the force. No he was talking about the twin connection. Even other twins weren't part of that connection – how could they be they didn't have Anakin or Padmar's DNA in them. Only he and Leia did. Side's they shared the same womb for nine months. They were separate – but they were one.

Luke – Luke

Mama?

Yes it's mama Luke. My sweet and precious little boy.

Why did you allow them to steal Leia from me, Mama?

Too protect her.

What? I could have protected her just fine myself.

No Luke. You only had enough strength to protect yourself. You didn't need an added weight by protecting your sister.

Leia is strong on her own. She could have protected herself and me without question.

No Luke. Leia is very weak to the dark side. You would have lost her if she had remained by your side. You and Leia are the twin Jedi knights of the Chosen One. When Anakin went to the dark I knew that our daughter would have followed him. Anakin always wanted a daughter.

I would have gotten Leia back. I would have gotten dad back – sooner than I had. I could have saved his life. Your life also. You should have remained strong mama. Why did you have to leave Leia and I? We needed you. Still do.

After Ani chose to turn his back to the light – I knew in order to save my children I had to give my life freely. It was the hardest choice I had too make. I was going to leave you two behind after your birth – but I looked into Leia's eyes and knew your sister needed me for a little bit more time.

Why couldn't I had remained with you. They could have taken me away from Leia after your death. Why did I have to be taken as a newborn?

You needed to be safe, son.

I would have been safe with YOU. I don't want to fight with you mama, I know that's not what the force wants from me. I just don't understand or even want to understand why you separated me from Leia and from you.

I love you Luke.

Help me protect Leia than.

I can only help when Leia allows me to help. Right now you are alone, son.

A soft smile crossed his mouth. "I knew she would say that." He whispered. His borrow furrowed as he felt his sister's pain.

Luke? Luke? Luke?

I'm here.

Oh God. Why Luke why?

I don't know Ley. Can I be with you right now?

How can you want to be with me, Luke? I'm damaged. It's better for you if you just left me alone. It's better for you if I'm not underfoot.

Leia that's not true. I love you.

How can you love me?

You are my sister. My twin. I have loved you even before I met you. Even before I set my eyes on your hologram in Uncle Owen's work shed. I have loved you since we shared the womb.

You loved me as a boy loves a girl. Not as a brother loves a sister. Even then I didn't deserve your love.

You deserve my love Ley.

Forget about me, Luke.

Never.

I stopped believing in you. A long time ago.

I never stopped believing in you.

I should have slept with you.

I would have stopped it.

I would have forced you into it. I would have raped you. I'm that evil.

You aren't evil Ley.

I'm like father. Only I can't be saved.

Ley! Leia!

Luke's blue eyes shot open as tears steamed down his cheeks. He felt the tears fall past his hands unto the ground. He had at some point had sunk down to his knees. He bowed forward, and banged his head against the hard ground.

END CHAPTER TWO

Author's Note: I have been seriously been staring at this chapter for two months now. I can't believe it has taken me that much time to write five pages. I wanted to write more – but I feel that this is the perfect place to end this chapter.

Just so you know – that no Leia isn't going to just get over her dark feelings about her father over night. This time in woods was needed to put Luke in the place he needs too be to help his sister through this dark period.

Although Luke, and Leia have bonded in the force, and their twin bond is as strong as if they were raised together, it doesn't mean Leia is going to willing allow her brother to help her through this dark period. Leia has learned to hide herself in the force from the moment that she was conceived. She has also learned to keep a tight reign of her emotions at a young age.

Padme had seen Leia grow into a four year old; before she died. That's why Leia remembers her mother strongly …. why Padme manages to use the force to reach her daughter. If I was led to believe that Padme died right after childbirth as stated in ROTS – then there is no possible way for Leia to have a somewhat clear memory of her mother – even with the Force. So like I stated at the beginning of the chapter this story is bashed on ROTJ.

Random Thought: Han Solo is a perfect sidekick for both Luke and Leia. I love Harrison Ford, and do not wish to diminish his acting. But truly Han Solo is the sidekick to the hero and heroine.