This one came on me suddenly I haven't a clue where it came form it just …happened. I love Sarah McLahen's music and was listing to it on You Tube since I only have one of her cd's….actually its my mothers and I really should give it back …anyway… on to the insanity.
Disclaimer- Don't own them my nefarious scheme fell though and Mokona transported away before I could hold it ransom…phooey (Although I do have a backup contingency plan involving peanut butter wine cheese and paper clips)
Spoiler alert- spoilerific for up to chapter 177 if spoilers don't spoil you then read on fanfic lovers read on (on a side note I really should stay away form the caffeine at 6 am it tends to make me a little insane)
Sarah McLachlan - Stupid
Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unraveling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes
She knew far before the others what was to come in their journeys although she was an amateur dream walker she still saw glimpses of what was to come and she was going to try her best to change it. But what she never saw or if she did she tried so hard to banish it form her dreams his retreating back skin torn and bleeding his blood mixed with another into a dimensional portal looking back with an empty gaze and mix-matched eyes. She would wake form these dreams confused and crying barely able to hide her sobs form the others and harder still to hide the sadness form him.
how stupid could I be love has made me a fool
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you
When they came to Tokyo the one that burned when it rained and she plunged into dreams and heard the voice of another gently urging her to wake up. Awakening to the horrors of Fai's eye cruelly gouged out of his head replacing the false eye he had from when he was small eyes miss-matched now and cold and heartless as the surrounding stone fighting someone with elongated nails. He wouldn't listen to her as she begged and pleaded for him to stop the madness and the pain he was causing her. He continued to fight on soulless and mechanical repeating he would retrieve her feathers. Then the other came she hadn't seen him before in a dream but he was just like him in more than looks and when they fought they were more than evenly matched. She escaped the barrier holding her and ran to her precious person begging him , like in her dreams to stay to not leave her alone and just like in her dreams he left throwing her aside as he continued through the dimensional rift leaving a broken mess where his companions once were.
everything changes
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know
She can barely stand to look at him now the one who is so like him in looks and mannerisms but clearly not. She still misses her precious one fiercely and wishes with all her might things could go back to the way they were. She has taken Fai into her council the pair of them scheming against the ones they used to hold so dear but now are closed off to. She sees now more in her dreams of what will happen to her and to Fai and although she wishes that the one she sees now was her precious one she still does not wish any harm to befall the one who replaced him. Maybe its because she sees the one she loves in his visage, but she cannot bear the thought of him being killed and so she makes a real wish and sacrifices much to have it granted even to the point of risking it all for him the look-alike but still so dear to her heart.
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
In the dream world her soul is far form at peace she is watching the one she loves fight himself and it tears her up inside in more ways then one she wishes she could have done more to prevent this inevitability but there was nothing more she could give or do. She cries her defiance out to the one who left them and cradles the one who despite her reluctance has found a place in her heart as she waits for the dream to end one way or another.
A/N- I'm sorry about the angst fest continuing I honestly do listen to happy-ish music really I do. I just haven't found any appropriate to TRC to post but I will keep searching although I did fulfill one quota of mine this isn't a Kuro/Fai song…although …it could be and it tempts me so.