I wasn't able to push her away. My body grew weak within a second and all I could do was putting my hands against the wall in front of me. Having Fang so close made all thoughts and fears disappear and all that was left behind was uncontrollable lust and a passion that was so new to me, it nearly made me come undone. I tried to turn to around to kiss and touch her but she didn't let me. Instead her hand moved to my breasts, soft and yet sensual while the other one kept me from turning around.
"Fang..." I managed to whisper. "Let me touch you..."
I felt her lips near to my ear, her breath hitting the sensible skin there and I felt goosebumps on my neck.
"This is not about me Light... I'm just doing you a favour..." she growled and out of a sudden I felt her hand between my legs. I gasped and lifted one hand from the wall to reach behind me, grabbing a full fist of wild tangled hair. Her full palm lay on my core, heated and with just the right amount of pressure to make me whimper. I leaned myself backwards to lay my head against the curve between her shoulder and her neck and just as I managed to give her a chaste kiss on the soft skin there her fingers found my clit, rubbing it softly and making the feeling grow bigger and bigger.
It was fast. She knew exactly what she needed to do, every time she hit a particular spot she sensed it and I couldn't stop moaning, quietly but audible. When her fingers entered me I used both hands to grab her hair, her shoulders, the feeling getting unbearable, I just needed to touch her skin, to feel her lips. Again she found just the right spot and I lost it for a few seconds, being in this insane state of almost-coming, losing my breath and grabbing, searching for something to hold on.
"Fang... Fang..." I whispered, trying to beg her not to stop. I needed her so badly. I felt her arm around my waist, holding me in place and it gave me this much needed feeling of being safe.
"Fang... I... fuck... fu..."
I lost it so badly, my knees gave way. It was so intense, so present, so overwhelming, I fell into her, legs shaking, whimpering uncontrollably. She held me tight until I managed to open my eyes again.
I was on my knees, Fang hugging me from behind with both strong arms around my waste. For a moment everything was so intense, so full of life, so peaceful. I felt the sun on my skin and water pouring down on us, making the air smell like hot summer rain back in Bodhum. It felt wonderful. With Fang and her warm breath on my neck, the world was being whole again, even if it was just for a moment.
"Thank you..." I whispered, so quietly I wasn't sure if she even heard it.
She nudged her nose on my neck and placed a kiss there. "My pleasure..."
We stayed like this for another few moments. I leaned myself against her, feeling her breasts on my back.
"Can I turn around now?" I asked, lifting my hand to caress her arm.
"No..."
"Care to explain this to me?"
Fang grew agitated within a second, something I didn't know from her. She withdrew her arms and I heard a deep gasp before she spoke again.
"I'm with Vanille... I can't let this go further..." she said and suddenly the peaceful air grew heavy on me, the water, pouring down on my skin, started to hurt.
"I understand..." I said. "So this will never happen again."
For a moment we stayed in silence. I couldn't understand why it took her so long to answer, though it hasn't been a question. It has always been Vanille, even though there clearly was something between us and it was beyond sexual tension. I knew she sensed it too. What was there to say anymore?
She gave me a slow kiss on my shoulder blade resting her palm on my lower back before standing up.
"I'm sorry Light... I wish it was different..." she whispered.
I stood up, turning around to face her, determined to have my face and voice under control.
"But it isn't. Don't worry, I'm not in a heartache Fang." I said and this was the first and last time I saw Oerba Yun Fang naked. She gave me this particular sad smile for the first time, as if she knew what I felt. As if she felt the same.