Fix You part 3

Authors note: Hey guys! So, don't really have much to say in this authors note (wow, that's surprising!), but I do wanna thank all of you who reviewed the last chapter. You guys are just so sweet!

Anyway, hope you like this chapter, and this one is dedicated to Tiana-P and Badhairdays.

But I love all of you too, don't worry! Anyway, enjoy!

Chapter 3

Awake. Awake, lying with your back on the mattress. Staring at the ceiling.

Not exactly how it's supposed to go the day you get engaged. You're supposed to fall asleep the minute you step foot in your bedroom, all the excitement taking its toll on you. Or at least, that's what Kono thought it would be like. She never really knew anybody that was getting married.

But yeah, she had a pretty good idea that you were supposed to be all cheerful and happy, all giggling and letting out little screams of enthusiasm. But for her… she hadn't broken out a smile since that morning, when Jake proposed to her. And she didn't think the fake smiles she gave the guys at headquarters would even count. Especially the ones she gave Steve. Those were all but real.

I mean… she was happy… right?

Yes, I am happy. She thought. Only it sounded more like she was trying to reassure herself. She ended up resuming it all to the engagement being a new thing, one that hadn't even sunk in yet. Yeah, that was bound to be it. Because she was thrilled.

Yeah. Thrilled.

She loved Jake. She really did. If she hadn't, she would have never said yes when he asked her to move in with her. She would have said no, but at that time, she was confident she loved him. And she still did. She loved him a lot. Which is why she had said yes to him, that morning in the coffee house. She let out the tinniest little smile as she remembered the day they met, at that exact place, on the counter, both ordering a simple coffee. They had smiled at the other, and she could see the connection. It was evident.

And that morning, when he had proposed to her, she had smiled sweetly at him, and she had looked back at the day they met.

I love him. I love him. Kono thought.

And she had kept thinking that throughout this entire day. Because she was scared. Not scared of the engagement, or of what her family would think, or anything like that.

She was scared that… when she opened her mouth and said yes…. she had meant to say no.

…..

"Hey babe!" Jake said as he saw Kono leaving her bedroom.

She smiled at him. It was almost impossible not to. Not when somebody looked like this.

His short blond hair. His warm brow eyes and serene face. His boyish grin reserved just for her. His calm posture. And oh my God, his muscles. Ok, let's all grow up here. The guy is hot as hell. Deal with it will you? She could swear she had never seen someone as muscled as he and still looking that sexy.

She looked down at her feet. Uh, that wasn't exactly true…

Snapping her head back up, she walked up to him and gave him a big hug. She felt him wrapping his arms around her, holding her tightly against him, kissing her on the top of the head.

She loved his personality. It was actually one of the things that had attracted her to him once they got to know each other.

His caring attitude. His love for her. His loyalty. His heart, a heart bigger than the whole world. His concern for others. And the way he looked at her. Like she was the most beautiful thing in the world. Like he was the lucky one in this relationship.

Which, Kono thought, was a complete lie.

She broke the hug, leaned back a little and gave him a lingering kiss on the lips. He kissed her back with passion. Oh, and yeah, she also loved him because he was one of the best kissers she had ever known.

One of them.

But anyway, that didn't matter at the moment.

She pulled away, gave him a little peck on the cheek and went to grab some milk from the fridge.

"So how did it go with the guys yesterday?" he asked, unfolding his newspaper, saying it in a conversational tone.

Kono chuckled silently at his attempt at subtleness.

"It went…" Kono paused as she opened the door to the fridge and peered inside. "… fine, I guess."

Jake furrowed his brow. "Fine?"

Kono grabbed the milk and set it on the table. "Yeah, I mean, it was a little shocking to them, but they'll be fine. Don't worry about it."

"Okay." He said, but as soon as Kono turned around, he spoke again. "Hey… wasn't one of them your ex?"

Kono tensed as she heard the words leaving his mouth. She shrugged it off and replaced it with a smile. Decisively she turned around, placed the newspaper on the table and sat in his lap, facing him.

Without thinking twice about it, she gave him a kiss that she was sure he would remember for the rest of the month. It was hot, loving, passionate, skillful, and sexy. All that should be in a kiss like this. She pulled back slowly, his eyes still closed, and she smiled at him again.

"You know I only have eyes for you." She said cheekily, getting out of his lap to go find the cereals.

She heard him chuckle behind her.

"You always know the right thing to do, don't you?" he asked playfully, pouring himself a glass of orange juice.

"Well…" she started, beginning to eat her cereals. "… I did decide to marry you."

He turned around and gave her one of his smirks. "That you did."

She gave him a loving smile before checking the time. "Oh, oh my God, I'm gonna be late!" she exclaimed as she slammed the bowl on the sink. "Oh crap! Okay, okay…" she said as ran into the living room, looking for her phone.

Jake chuckled again when he saw her running from one side to the other, finally finding what she was looking for.

"Ah, here it is! Okay, honey, sorry but I gotta go. Stop by a lunch time and I'll see if I'll be able to make it, okay?" Kono said in a hurry as she was already heading for the door.

"Uh uh." Jake cleared his throat, making her turn around. He smiled at her confused expression. "Aren't you forgetting something?"

Kono's expression changed from confused to sweet in an instant. She walked up to him again and gave him a light kiss on the lips. He smiled at her and watched as she turned around and waltzed out the door, slamming it shut.

…

"Hey." She said quietly, peering into Steve's office. "Can I come in?"

He looked up from the paperwork he had been working on, and registering who it was that was in his office, his head snapped back down. "Yeah sure, come on in."

She smiled gently at him and stepped inside. Taking a sit in his guest chair, she waited a bit for him to look up at her.

He never did.

"Okay." Kono said, choosing to ignore it. "I just… I wanted to talk to you about something."

Still, he didn't raise his head.

Because he knew, he just knew, that if he did, his mask would fall off. Mask, walls, hiding place, whatever it was that made him put up that tough façade he put on every day. If he were to raise his head and look at her, really look at her, he knew she was gonna see past the barriers. The barriers he had built on for all those years, to help him distance himself from others; he knew she would see past them. She always did. And at that moment… it'd be like reading an open book to her, that he was sure of.

Therefor- he didn't plan on looking at her at all.

"Ok. What is it?" he asked, urging her on.

Kono's forehead showed the smallest frown, but she tried to shrug it off. "Uh… about…. about today. Listen, I'm really sorry I didn't tell you before but…."

"Hey." Steve interrupted her softly. "Kono, you don't have to give us any explanations. It's your life, if you don't wanna tell us, then that's in your own right."

Kono's frown deepened now. Why wasn't he mad about this? He was always the protective one.

"Okay…" Kono said drawing out the word.

Steve continued to write on his report.

Kono suddenly snapped her fingers. "Oh my God! You already did a background check on him, didn't you?"

Steve laughed at that. Like really laughed. Because, for one, no he hadn't. And second, he now realized that sounded so totally like him.

Come to think of it… why didn't he do it, exactly?

Well, at least now he knew what he was gonna do at home.

"No, I didn't." Steve responded with all honesty.

Kono squinted her eyes at him. "Are you sure?"

Steve sighed.

"What's it gonna take for you to believe me?"

"Well, first…" Kono started. "…you're gonna have to look at me."

Steve froze mid writing. Okay, so she had noticed. No biggy.

He took a silent calming breath and looked up, sending a prayer that she wouldn't see a thing.

"Good." Kono said, leaning forward a bit. "Okay. Now to why I'm actually here."

Steve waited patiently as she looked momentarily down at her hands.

"I just… I came here to… to see if you were ok." She finished almost in a mumble.

Steve felt the immediate urge to laugh at that. God, she was so cute. Uh oh.

He leaned back in his chair, looking at her under suspicious eyes. "Why wouldn't I be?"

Because he wasn't. Not even by a long-shot. But she couldn't have known that.

"It's just… with the Jake thing…" she started playing with her hands. "I just wanted to make sure you were ok with this."

Steve's mind worked full speed, and when it finally stopped, he let out an almost silent "Oh" of realization.

He leaned back further in his chair, as if he was trying to distance himself from her.

"I thought we weren't gonna talk about it again."

She lifted her eyes to meet his. Luckily, she was so worried about hiding her own feelings, she didn't even think of naming the ones that he was now showing. "We've done it before. Talk about it, I mean."

"Only to say that we would never do it-"

"That we would never do it again. I know." Kono huffed. "I know. But look, Steve, I'm just asking here, are you gonna be ok with this?"

Steve looked intently at her. Was she kidding? Did he look like he was gonna be ok with it?

"Well, that depends. Are you happy with him?" Steve asked instead.

She frowned at him again, but it quickly turned into a light smile. "Yes, I am." And then her face became serious again. Because she realized she had to stop herself from adding more to that sentence.

He smiled at her, the only smile he could muster right now, and replied. "Then yes. If you're happy, I'm happy."

She looked back at him. She searched his eyes for something, anything, that would indicate he was lying.

Wait? Why was she doing that?

"Okay then." She said quickly, stopping herself from analyzing her behavior any further. She got up from his guest chair. "Good. I have to get back to work now. See you in a few." She said, and turned her back to him.

He watched her go, and he realized he had to stop himself from getting up too and going after her. What was wrong with him? This had to stop, he just had to accept it. She was engaged. Engaged.

Kono walked to her desk and put her bag down. She took a sit in her chair, and before even looking at the computer, her eyes scrolled back over to Steve's office.

Their eyes met. Their gazes locked.

And they knew, they just knew….

Whatever it was they were hiding…. It had to disappear. For good.

Now the question was… could it be that simple?

Authors note: So? What did you think? What did you think about Jake btw?

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