CHAPTER 4

"A bit of heaven in hell"

This place is so beautiful. I always wanted to live in a place like this. A small beautiful house with lots of trees and flowers. Birds singing all around. Cherry blossom trees were there too ! Everything is there just like I always wanted. And more importantly it's my favorite season "winter" ! WOW ! It's SNOWING ! Yay ! Yay ! I'm dancing here and there. The snow flakes falling all over me. These things seem like a dream or is it a dream ? but if it is, I don't want to wake up ever again. I see someone coming from far away. He looks so familiar. He seems as if I know him for years and he's a person I can give my life for. Suddenly for some reason my heart aches ! weird ! I just don't get it. Now he's in front of me. Smiling at me. He touched my rosy cheeks with his warm hands. Wait…he's…isn't he…Ak….AKIRA ?! He suddenly pulled me towards him and hugged me. He slowly whispered in my ears that he…love me…; hugging me even more tightly. Tears rolling down my cheeks, I hugged him back. Please God. If I'm sleeping please don't wake me up. Please let me sleep all my life. I can live this moment Forever. Ever and ever.

The next thing I heard was a faint call of my name. It was becoming louder and louder by time.

I blinked open my eyes back to the horrid painful reality. But to my very surprise I saw Akira standing beside the bed I'm lying on. I was in the hospital. I guess Shigure brought me here after I fainted. It was a very bitterly sweet situation though. He looked at me and handed me a bunch of "forget me not" flowers. I placed them in the vase, he sat down. There was a very awkward silence. Then he started speaking. He asked me how I was. Well as usual I said I was just fine. Then we kept on chatting. I never thought that Akira would ever talk to me after the rejection. I was so happy that he made time to see me. Our little talk was going on very well than I ever expected! But u know something….it still hurts a lot. Deep inside it does. The doctor came in suddenly and said that I could leave if I wanted to. I'm perfectly fine now. I was glad that I could leave this boring hospital and also unhappy that I won't be able to talk to Akira a bit longer.

I was just ready to leave the cabin, just then Akira said, "can I walk u home, Mami? " my heart stopped beating for a moment. It's extremely unexpected for him to say that. Well ofcourse I said ,"yes" ! the sun was setting at that time. The sky was all redish orange. The timing is so perfect. He's beside me, the weather, everything is just too perfect but it's all worthless. I can't old his hands and walk. I can never be his. It's already over. We at last reached my place. I told him to come in but he refused saying that he was getting late. So, he said goodbye and was about to leave; just then he patted my head and gave a smile which could light up the whole world and said again, "goodbye, Mami". He left. I froze right there, then got back to my senses. I rolled on my bed repeating the whole day in my head grinning like an idiot. Love is just so unfair.