When I got home, Risa was sitting on the front doorstep. It had started raining, and she was shivering slightly. I put my bike away, and walked to where she was waiting.
"Hey." I said lamely, sitting down next to her. She wasn't crying anymore, but her eyes were rimmed with red, and she was sniffling, "you okay?"
I reached out to put my arm around her, knowing in my mind that this was all my fault, and she shied away from my touch. "No, RIku, I'm not okay. I love Dark, and he loves someone else, can you even understand how that feels? My heart is splitting into two, and there's nothing I can do about it.
"I'm sorry-"
"Riku, just stop. Do you think I'm stupid? I'm not. I'm not as stupid as everyone makes me out to be. Where were you? You said you weren't going to come with me, yet you changed out of your pajamas and rode somewhere on your bike? You followed me, didn't you? I've been sitting here, waiting for you to come home, going through so many different scenarios of why you would be gone. It's you, isn't it?" Risa was looking away from me, her shoulders hunched, her hands gripping her thighs.
"I…I don't know what to say." I said, "it wasn't always like this. I hated him, you know that. I don't know why my feelings suddenly changed. I didn't want to hurt you. That was what I was afraid of, hurting you."
"Well, Riku, it's a little late for that, isn't it? The fact that you betrayed me like this is what hurts more than anything, more than being rejected. You're my twin, for goodness sake! And what about Daisuke, have you even thought about that?" she turned to look at me, pure fire in her brown eyes.
"Of course I have! He already knows. He's okay. I'm sorry, Risa. You two are the people I never wanted to hurt, ever. But here I am, letting you both down, hurting both of you, all for nothing.."
All of a sudden, a sharp pain veered through my cheek. Risa had slapped me. She had actually slapped me. I didn't know how to handle that, how to respond.
"FOR NOTHING? Riku, obviously it wasn't over nothing. I know you- you wouldn't blindly hurt those who you care about for nothing. Obviously, this is something. Honestly, I have no respect for you, and I wish you were never born!" she screamed, getting up and storming into the house.
I just sat there in shock, and all of a sudden I was crying, uncontrollably. I couldn't stop, I didn't even know how long I was out there for before I felt a warm arm around me.
"You always run away from me," his velvet voice said in my ear.
"Please leave me alone. I hate myself." I whispered. I realized the rain had stopped, but I couldn't have said when that had happened.
"Hate yourself for what? For actually standing up for something you want?" Dark asked, knowing my one weakness- always giving and giving and never expecting anything in return.
I thought for a minute, "no, for falling in love with you. This is all my fault. Over time, maybe you would have fallen in love with Risa. That would have been better than this."
"Riku," he said, lifting my chin so my eyes were level with his, "I would have never fallen in love with Risa. It's always been you. To quote Shakespeare, 'when I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew'. This isn't some game to me, Riku. With however much time I have left in this world, I only want to make you as happy as you've made me. "
I didn't know what to say to that, so I just leaned into his arm and let him comfort me in silence as I moped about my life that I had single-handedly torn to pieces.
OK guys, I haven't written in a really long time…obviously. I'm not sure if anyone still reads there, but let me know what you think, and if you'd like me to continue. If I don't get any comments I'll stop writing this story (: