The Love for Two Chances
by: LazyHop

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of the characters in the manga/anime.

Summary: I have always felt alone... even when I was alive. No one ever wants me around. Always yelling at me to leave and that they don't need me; that they would be better off without me; that they should have another chance... another chance to live. Yes, I'm the lonesome grim reaper. Who will live an eternity and be alone for an eternity. I've told myself that I accept that, but for some reason the voice in my heart neglects to agree; telling me to yearn for partnership; to yearn for happiness with another. To feel, loved.

Chapter Three:

The Beginning of The End of The Second

Master Kiyoshi was always there for me through out the training. He was there when I took my first try at summoning the oar, there when I first fell from the oar, and there when I finally mastered the art of oar riding. Master Kiyoshi was like the father I never had in my life. He truly was a blessing for a child like me. That is until the day he left.

It was a very beautiful day the kind of day I use to love. After training I decided to take a quick ride out on my oar. I loved the way the wind use to throw my hair back and caress my skin almost as if it knew that all I wanted to do was be gently consumed in a loving hug.

As I raced through the sky, enjoying the beauty that I had missed from when I was alive, I noticed that at Master Kiyoshi's house (the house I was sharing with him) there was something amiss. I, being the curios child I was, swooped down took look for what was different and landed with the grace of only a young girl could posses. Basically a very loud thump was heard after I landed.

"Well, that was the best landing you have had so far Botan. You are quite improving." Master Kiyoshi cheerfully pronounced through the front doorway of the house."

I smiled towards him only to have it falter. Lying beside him was a couple of suite cases and cardboard boxes. All of them were labeled with an address and his name on them in big black bold letters.

"Are we moving?" I asked with a hint of sadness in my voice. I loved this house I had so many fond memories of learning and living with Master Kiyoshi here.

He looked down at me for awhile with those loving eyes of his and finally sighed, a slow mournful sigh. He bent down onto his knees to look at me eye level. He took another breath as if he was about to speak only to let it out slowly and showed me a sad smile. He seemed so sad; so worn down and not looking his age at all.

"Botan I well…" He looked down at the ground and took another deep breath. "I have to go Botan."

"What do you mean go? Where are we going? How come we have to leaf? I thought that we had to stay here and finishing my training." I all but blurted out in what seemed like mere seconds. I was as confused as to what Master Kiyoshi was trying to get across to me. I just couldn't understand so I blurted out more questions trying to get some grasp on what was happening.

His eyes took on a distant look as he listened to all my questions and then finally just held up his hand and made a shushing sound. I instantly ceased my random questions and waited for what he had to say patiently. He once again looked at me with those sad eyes and shook his head slowly.

"No, Botan you don't understand." He paused and shifted slightly from where he was kneeling not looking me in the eyes. "I am leaving. I've been given a new job assignment that requires me to go and work in the living world." He kept his head and kept that normal soft tone that he kept through out the whole entire time I new him. It didn't even seem as if he struggling to tell me this.

"I get to come with you right? Right? I'm still not done with my training and and…" I started to panic. The only person who ever showed my any type of love and they were leaving. I was ready to start crying. My eyes were brimming with tears and my lungs began to stop functioning.

But all he did was just sit there with his head bowed and the look of helpless brimming of his body. He didn't dare look at me afraid of what he might see. He and I both knew that he had a soft heart and would of given up on moving if he had seen me like that.

"No, you don't get to come with me. And your training has actually been complete for the past couple of weeks. The only reason why I am still here is because I requested that King Enma give me a little bit longer to stay here with you." He whispered. "This is our last little bit of time that we can spend together before I leave."

He slowly raised his head to look at me. Showing me that he meant what he said that he truly was going to leave. I let the tears fall not caring about holding them back anymore. How could Enma be so cruel? I finally found the happiness I was looking for when I was alive and now he is taking it away from me. I was consumed with sorrow causing me to latch on to Master Kiyoshi screaming. Yelling that it wasn't fair and that I wanted to go to. All of it was for nothing, no matter how hard I cried or how loud I screamed there would be no change that would occur.

Master Kiyoshi embraced me in one of those loving hugs that I loved so much and gently swayed back and forth. He knew that I would be upset and like always was prepared for it. He knew how to calm me and help me through things rationally. The swaying motion always did help me calm down and like always never felled this time.

"Botan, you know that I will miss you just as much as you will miss me. No matter what Botan I want you to always remember me and keep me right here." He softly said while pointing straight to my heart. He glanced up towards the sky quickly then looked down at me with soft eyes. "I must leave soon but before I go I must give you one last thing. Since you are done with your training there is something very important you need to have. It's… something you will like." He said with a playful smile.

Slowly he put the palm of his hand against my forehead and murmured a few words. I didn't feel anything at all and looked at him with curiosity.

"What did you do Master Kiyoshi? I don't feel anything happening."

He just smiled and released me from his embrace. Slowly he stood up and finally looked down at me again smiling. Then as if a thought had just occurred to him he bent down swept me into his arms and gave me a hug. He stayed that way for several minutes as I returned his embrace. Then I felt me shirt becoming yet from the area at which his face was resting at, my shoulder. At first I had no clue what was happening then it dawned on me. He was crying. Crying because he had to leave. Crying because he cared for me and didn't want to hurt me like he was forced to do in deliberately. I was astounded, the first time I ever saw Master Kiyoshi cry. I felt so sad, so weak, so helpless. I never wanted to see Master Kiyoshi cry again and I never wanted to let go of him.

Slowly he pulled away from me and sat me back down on the ground. Wiping is tear stained eyes and trying to look the normal man he usually looked like; he looked down at me and gave me sad smile.

"Botan I will never forget you. You have made a difference in my life and I have come to learn what it is like to love someone. You truly are meant to do great things with the people that will come to be around you." He smiled. Then slowly as if not to break me he lightly kissed me on the forehead and said, "You remind me so much of the daughter that I always dreamed about having."

I in tears again, only wanted to see him change his mind and stay to have him as my father. To live like we were living and to enjoy every day like the days before. In complete and utter bliss and content with it.

"I must leave now Botan. King Enma told me to have you report to the castle immediately so you can't start up your mew job." He smiled at me again then slowly turned around and picked up his suite cases. "I will not be able to go with you. I am already late and might just miss my ride to the living world as is. I am very sorry Botan." He turned around and then bent down to hug me one last time.

"I love you Botan. I hope that someday I will get to see my beautiful little girl again." And with that he stood up and walked slowly down the path and into the forest where he turned around suddenly and yelled to me. "The gift I gave you, well let's just say you're going to look a lot more matured and a lot older." Then once again he turned away and diapered into the dark forest.

I won't lye and say that I wasn't crying as I saw him left and I won't deny that I still miss him now. But I think that what he did, leaving, was the best thing he could have done for me. Because a grim reaper is meant to be alone. With no one by them or loving them.

A Grim Reaper is meant to be forsaken.

End of Chapter Three

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Alright I'm ready bring out the pitch forks and torches. I'm ready to be stoned, trampled, beaten, anything you can do to me. I deserve it. I'm very sorry for the very late update. But hey what can I say I like to play more then work. Lol ok maybe I should shut up now. Anyway as a nice little upside to the late delay I finally got Microsoft Word reinstalled on my computer! YAY! Not so many miss spelled words any more…. Lol

Well see you next time in Chapter Four: The Way to End The Second!